Retiring the scale.

[sunny_daze]

I've reached a point in my life where I am tired of battling the scale.

I've battled and hated the scale ever since I was a little girl. I remember growing up and my mother putting me on all sorts of diets. egg and grapefruit, extreme low-cal, etc. And the doom of the weekly weigh-in. and the self-hate and disappointment from my mother when I haven't lost a pound.

This time around I'm going by inches, energy levels, how my clothes fit, etc. I've done this before ( and successfully lost over 40 pounds... only to ruin it with self-sabotage. obviously I wasn't ready,the weekly scale anxiety killed me) so I know how many grams of carbs to eat to lose. I've been hitting the gym, and am going to make time to swim laps atleast 4 days a week.

so yeah. I'm not weighing myself til the end of the semester, around Dec 20.

and of course when I get close to goal I will weigh myself a lot more often and carefully to track maintenence and how much exactly I want to lose, since I've been heavy my whole life and am not sure what my ideal weight is.

wish me luck...

[reneed70]

I agree! I don't own a scale. I've weighed twice in 8 mos! It helps because you see a marked improvement. I've fought weight my whole life and even doing this WOE I don't expect to be thin. I just don't have that body type, but as long as I am thiNNeR, I will be happy. Hopefully! I just wanna feel good in my own skin. Not ashamed.
This is gonna get long I have a feeling so be warned. This weekend I was at church. There is a lady who is probably my same age (33) and she is really large, just as I was a few short months ago. She is so ashamed and humiliated I can just see it. She always hides her face with her long hair, she looks so sad all the time. It breaks my heart because I know exactly how she feels! Her god daughter was being dedicated last night and the family wanted her to come up, she did NOT want to be do and had the most horrid expression on her face, I knew exactly how she felt! It was so sad, it made me even more sad with myself that I cheated over the weekend and even more determined today to never ever become that way again. I am far from a beauty queen but NO ONE deserves to be in such misery. I wish so much I had the guts to talk to her about it. She seems like she could be a wonderful girl. I hate to approach her tho since weight is such a sensitive topic. I wish you all could've seen her face..... it would show everyone(not other heavy people, but thin people) how horrible obesity makes one feel.
So sad.

Renee

[sunny_daze]

oh my gosh renee. that is a very touching and sad story. I'm going to pray that she finds herself here one day...

[April Rose]

A good reminder to us all Renee of how far we've come and how much we DON'T want to walk down that road to were we started.

Sunny - good idea, have you thought of making this a thread in the challenge forum???

[CushieButterfield]

Sunny, I too have struggled with weight since childhood. But my mother was always very good to me. Which looking back, maybe she could have helped maybe she could not have. My father was a tyrant. When I lived with him one semester as a freshman he made me count calories and wrtie down everything I put into my mouth. I couldn't eat anything without him giving me the evil eye. So I snuck food at school. Instead of the salad line I said I went to I would eat the hamburgers offered every day. I would also go to the store and buy candy and eat it before I got home. He also stopped giving me bus money so I would be forced to walk the 2 1/2 miles to school and it actually was up hill both ways (as the old timers stories go). All this in the name of weight loss. Ugh. That's not how you motivate a child.

At any rate, I didn't have a scale for a very long time but when I started this WOE I got one because I wanted to see if I was making progress and at what level I should keep myself. Now I struggle to keep off the scale. (I had a bad cheat week and was tracking my bloat last week.) So now my goal is to stay off for a whole week until my weigh in day, Sunday. Maybe I will get to where you are and can put it away for a more extended period of time. You seem to have a great attitude towards it now.

[sunny_daze]

April Rose-- thanks for the idea! I think it'd make a great challenge.

[tinkerbell29]

I have lost 20 pounds. Then I gained 2 and then 3 and lost 2 and gained1
see the fluctuation? That's enough to make any diet or eating habbit falter. I refuse to get on a scale. I can tell how much weight I lose by the way my clothes fit. I will weigh in once every two months. So far, this works! I get on the scale, apprehensive that perhaps i lost nothing, yet always surprised that I lost something! And it isn't my mind.

[April Rose]

Sunny - psst, I'm on LJ too!!!

[Jennifer Miller]

holy cow...where do you guys get the willpower to stay off the scale for so long?!?!?! i'm on that baby every morning like clockwork...i even put in my contacts before going to the bathroom in the morning so i can see the numbers. sometimes i even weigh in a few times a day!! i thought of hiding the scale, but other people use it too and it wouldnt be fair to them (and since i would know where i hid it, i would find it!)
jennifer