I have thought about this thread for a long time, and I decided to add to this... for all who have been down the road before and are starting all over again.

I have been guilty of saying "I deserve" to eat something....so much so that I have let it bleed into my whole life....when life seems to feed me dirt...messes that need to be cleaned up... I would deserve to eat something I shouldn't...when I lost 40 lbs and was feeling great, I deserved to eat something I shouldn't, when dh and I are having argument after argument.... I would deserve to eat something I shouldn't... well as you can see just about anything I did ... I deserved to eat something I shouldn't.

Eating all those I deserves had me gaining back the almost 50 lbs I had lost and gaining a few more (about 25 more to be exact) and for the first time in my "large" life, I felt "fat"...
I was buying new clothes bigger than ever, and I deserved to eat something to help me deal with that ....

There comes a point that we have to take responsibility for everything we do, not only in how we handle life, marriages, people around us, and the food we put in our bodies.

Having heard and seen the writing on the wall (you aren't getting younger, or skinnier, ) I decided that I too deserve all those things that Goddess wrote in her reply above...
I deserve to be healthy,
I deserve to look and feel great
To be happy with the choices I make
Etc. etc. etc,
but most of all

I DESERVE TO BE THE ABSOULTE BEST I CAN BE....

I am on the road to "recovery" and anyone that wants to join me, see me in the 100 days no cheating challenge and we can help each other out.

carolyn
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onward thru the fog

Ok you all, HAMMER ON THE HEAD is what I am thinking. Been there done that on all of these. Actually most often it is a daily battle! But I deserve the healthiest body I can get (which doesn't necessarily mean SKINNY).

These words hit really close to home! Thanks guys!

Monica

Thanks for the message. After losing 30lbs on LC I deserve to stick to the plan and reach my goal of 50 lbs.

Been there done that (and done it) All of your posts are excellent. I/m gonna print Goddess's list of REAL I deserves and stick it in my purse, on my desk at work, and in the car.
I have been having some kind of issues with weight or carbs for 49 years now-- the swing from aneroxic to obese, and on and on.... I have decided this time that I have to treat carbs (especially sugar) EXACTLY like the alcohol or the crack or the heroin. I am so glad some of you can eat a brownie and survive. For me its the equivilant of the sip of beer that sends an alcoholic on a weeklong bender. I am really trying to face the facts on this issue! I deserve to overcome this addiction and destruction!!! Thanks yall!

Hey sugar, have u ever thought about it? My first language was Texan and we called anybody we liked sugar.... Not gonna be easy to break that chain of thought lol.
Anyway, im a newbie. How do i join Carolyn in Texas' challenge?
I've been gettin' up saying to the mirror "Hi, I'm Susy, I'm a carbaholic". Gonna have to do this the HARDCORE way from now on. TY for great posts.