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I think I'm in trouble
Posted 08-29-2008 at 05:07 PM by cinnamin
I am really stressed out today. I have been doing so well and tomorrow will be a month on the plan. Today I feel like eating everything not on the plan. I am fantasizing about chocolate and ice cream, and this is the first time this has happened to me. And my thinking is negative--I keep telling myself, "what if this isn't working?" "what if I stay fat forever?" "What if all this hard work doesn't pay off?" It is so scary to think like this but I am having a really hard time shutting this stuff off. I ate many many many spoonfuls of peanut butter through the day to try to get that fix--I dont' think I am going to go off the plan, but I have gotten pretty close today--HELP!!!
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Sorry to hear you're having a rough day, Cinnamin. We've ALL had them. And for me, I've found that my mood and my thinking is probably the single biggest factor influencing how I do.
I also find it very interesting that, after a while on plan while things are going well, that fear monster rears it's head and starts whispering in our ear things that make NO sense whatsoever. After all, if it didn't work, you'd try something different, but the idea it MIGHT quit working is enough to secondguess yourself. It's totally illogical, but I know the feeling myself. I suspect it crops up sometimes when you're reaching a point of getting to the next level. It's like all the stuff that's kept us fat for so long inside starts to get stirred up or something, because your fat has been threatened! Does that make any sense? You ARE shaking up the status quo, removing yourself from your comfort zone, and your psyche is getting a little worried, it seems.
To me, I think these days can be turning points. Because how many times have we had them (on diets, of course) and used them as justification for throwing in the towel, you know?
You're at a crossroads. This is the point where you can do what (pretty much all of us) have done so many times before and disappear into a mass of sugar-consumption declaring the whole thing a bad idea, or you can say, "Enough! I matter enough to take good care of myself, regardless of what happens with my weight and when." Working on improving your lifestlye and health is never a waste, and learning more about how your body runs is never a waste. And if you're feeling strong and healthy, then what you're putting into your body is serving you, regardless of what the scale says the last time you looked.
Honestly, I think the one month point is throwing you some psychological triggers. I like to say that weightloss is like sex in that way- the most important stuff happens in your head!
Be kind to yourself. Realize that you are not "on a diet" but have selected a new lifestyle essentially...a lifestyle you cannot "blow" by making an ill-advised food choice. That you can only blow by abandoning it completely and forever.
These are the kind of things that you weather to get to the next place. Now, you've got a good attitude and you've been doing well so far. I'd encourage you to be kind to yourself today, spending time indulging yourself in activities you enjoy, listen to music that uplifts you, talk to supportive friends and family, anything at all that you find encouraging on any level. Because this is what is going to get you to the other side. Distract yourself from any negative thoughts and replace them with positive emotions from any source on any topic, and it will get easier...
Hang in there, Hon. I've been watching people do this a while now, and I absolutely believe you have what it takes. Now, it's up to you to decide that.
Posted 08-29-2008 at 06:29 PM by Goddess
- Yes, I will hang in there! I feel much better this morning, especially after reading your inspiring words. I think I absolutely got triggered by the month thing. I guess I thought my pants should be falling off by now and that everyone was supposed to be noticing how great I look. But the important thing is that I am proud of myself for choosing a healthy lifestyle! I am going to stay positive today and focus on doing things to nurture myself!
Thanks so much!Posted 08-30-2008 at 07:46 AM by cinnamin - Insofar as noticing losses (either others or yourself), it's very helpful to make sure you're wearing clothes that fit well. Try wearing something a little smaller than you normally do, and both you and others will more likely be able to see the difference.
Glad you're feeling better today!Posted 08-30-2008 at 02:45 PM by Goddess
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