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Starting over
Posted 05-27-2008 at 03:24 PM by ImaMomWifeCna
Starting over is never easy, but so neccasary to keep moving forward and not backward. For me it means getting back in the Low carb mindset, which I don't really think I have ever really left. I know I have eaten all kinds of carbs, good bad and the ugly over the past couple of years being away from LCing. But the difference this time is I KNOW in my heart this is the way I must eat forever. The word CHEAT will no longer be in my vocabulary. I can't let a simple 5 letter word reduce my efforts to lose weight and become healthier. Life is such that we aquaint cheating with a mortal sin....so when a piece of cake, or bread or some "treat" that is not neccasarily LC passes our lips, we berate ourselves and as we debate as to whether we should eat it or not.....there is this inner battle that just makes us feel awful espeically if we make a conscious choice to indulge.
Why do we hurt ourselves this way? we are our own worst critics and I know for myself I have lost out on alot of great adventures throughout my lifetime because of my weight!! Sure I might say..."I am happy the way I am", but I am just blowing hot air and trying to convince myself that it is true. I am not so sure but I don't think anyone is happy being overweight!! No matter how much they say they are. I hate the limitations that being overweight puts on us, and the stigma that the rest of the world labels heavier people with. No mater how wonderful, sweet and caring you might be...first and foremost you are "The big girl" (or guy). I find myself also when describing someone of size using those words and I dont' like myself for it. But it is the most obvious of choices sometimes.
I am not only trying to change my WOE this time, I am working on so many other aspects of my life. I want to be more involved in my kids lives, I want to get out and do things now even at this size. I want to live for now not wait for life to start happening to me when I am thin. Who knows when our time is up, and if I spend one more minute waiting for thiness to dictate when I have a good time I will surely let life pass me by even more. I work with elderly people who have lived some wonderful and special lives. When one of them passes on I always wonder if they had any thing they just didn't do or if something held them back from accomplishing something they really desired.
So where is all this coming from you ask? We have had 2 residents pass away in the past few weeks and I had a chance to get to know one of them very well, talking to them about how their lives were and what they did....and I am amazed at how complex people are in general. I think I will now be taking more time to get to know each one of them some more, It sure puts things into perspective as to what is important in life.
Family, love, kids, and generally just everyday life experiences. I don't ever want to have any regrets.
Okay enough rambling for now..."Live life to the fullest....dance as if nobody is watching and keep it real"
Why do we hurt ourselves this way? we are our own worst critics and I know for myself I have lost out on alot of great adventures throughout my lifetime because of my weight!! Sure I might say..."I am happy the way I am", but I am just blowing hot air and trying to convince myself that it is true. I am not so sure but I don't think anyone is happy being overweight!! No matter how much they say they are. I hate the limitations that being overweight puts on us, and the stigma that the rest of the world labels heavier people with. No mater how wonderful, sweet and caring you might be...first and foremost you are "The big girl" (or guy). I find myself also when describing someone of size using those words and I dont' like myself for it. But it is the most obvious of choices sometimes.
I am not only trying to change my WOE this time, I am working on so many other aspects of my life. I want to be more involved in my kids lives, I want to get out and do things now even at this size. I want to live for now not wait for life to start happening to me when I am thin. Who knows when our time is up, and if I spend one more minute waiting for thiness to dictate when I have a good time I will surely let life pass me by even more. I work with elderly people who have lived some wonderful and special lives. When one of them passes on I always wonder if they had any thing they just didn't do or if something held them back from accomplishing something they really desired.
So where is all this coming from you ask? We have had 2 residents pass away in the past few weeks and I had a chance to get to know one of them very well, talking to them about how their lives were and what they did....and I am amazed at how complex people are in general. I think I will now be taking more time to get to know each one of them some more, It sure puts things into perspective as to what is important in life.
Family, love, kids, and generally just everyday life experiences. I don't ever want to have any regrets.
Okay enough rambling for now..."Live life to the fullest....dance as if nobody is watching and keep it real"
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 |  Melissa-I think it's very wise to stop putting off life for later. After all, life is not a destination, but a journey, and if you don't enjoy the journey, what have you got, anyway? Good luck with your new start.  |
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| |  On real journeys, some people sleep, play video games, watch movies, but others are craning their necks, looking around to see the sights. I want to be that kind of person, living life looking around me, seeing what I can see, doing what I can do. Thanks, Melissa, for the reminders to not wait until we're a certain weight or size to live our lives. |
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