"Little" Update

Well, my "little changes" plan seems to be going along okay. I haven't weighed in recently (and I know my first 5 pounds were water weight, totally expected), so I'm not sure on the pounds. And for what I'm doing, I don't want to live on the scale. Once every week or two is about right for me at this point.

I do know, though, that I'm feeling pretty good overall-particularly with the level of stress I'm managing currently, and I know I'm eating carb-friendly a good 90-95% of the time now. I was probably running maybe 70%-ish before. So that's a significant improvement and I'm happy with that.

I dunno. Maybe a lot of people would consider that being too easy on oneself. And perhaps they'd be right, or maybe it's right for them. I dunno.

I am a total believer in building myself up at every opportunity, though, and abandoning self-criticism as much as possible. I think guilt is pretty much a pointless emotion. I understand regret, but once you do what you can do to learn and rectify, I see no reason in holding on. I don't think of emotions as good or bad per se, but I know that some of them feel better than others, and I do what I can to let go of the ones that don't feel good.

Maybe it's from becoming a new-age hippie chick. That's what happened to me when I lost the bulk of my weight. (Bulk. Get it? Har!) I changed a lot, personality wise. I got kinda woo-woo and way less cynical. And I decided that this stuff lives in my head. The fat was reproducing in my head first, and on my "arse" later...

From a simplistic level, that's clear. You think about eating the sugar-junk before it goes into your mouth. But I also came to believe that the energy I put out by what I focus on comes back to me, too.

Some folks think I'm crazy. I don't care, though. I figure, in some ways, it's like a public service. If you look at me and think, "This chick is NUTS!" you'll feel less nuts yourself and more free to express yourself. So, you know. I'm adding to the diversity of the world that way.

I decided that my life is what I make it: yes, through what I do, but what I think proceeds what I do.

And I do my best to think happy, beautiful thoughts whenever I can. Because I want a happy, beautiful life.

Peace Out to my fellow travelers.