I am fighting the depression demon that has ridden my back all of my life. It is really odd, because I am what most people consider an "upbeat" person. I sing going down the halls in school (and get shushed sometimes, lol); I smile, I laugh a lot and act silly, I am usually cheerful and I hope, encouraging to others. It takes a lot to make me mad-- I am willing to compromise, bend with the wind, work with others on their non-negotiables...Practically the "jolly fat girl" without...

Well, I am back! Missed you all.
First of all I had the worst flu I have had in YEARS. I don't think it was swine flu, or whatever they are calling it right now, lol. But it was almost as bad. Back in the 70's I had the Swine flu and it was AWWWFUL! One morning I was 16 years old, strong and healthy, if nuts, and jumping off my roof to practice "tuck and rolls" for the skydive I was planning to make later in the evening when it started to cool off. I was wearing a coverall and...

I want to be able to get up off the floor without looking like a large marine mammal.

I want to be able to bend over my vegetable garden without feeling like I am going to barf, from pressure on my stomach?

We found a Lavendar farm and ranch with about 2000 acres in the mountains, I would so love to buy it and farm it, raise goats and spin my yarn, We do crafts, and I would enlarge the B &B part for a retreat type atmosphere, and maybe add riding stable. There...

I have always had a very rich dream life. There were a couple of years when I slept only an hour or two a day because of fibro and not dreaming was as disruptive as the exhaustion. The only thing i can complain about is how real they are, lol. You know the old saying about flying dreams? (You never feel the crash) That has never been true for me since everything is in living color, surroundsound smellovision etc. The pain in my dreams hurts worse too. I really hate it when the monsters finally...

I am sitting at my computer in my classroom at 4:31 pm on Friday of Labor Day Weekend. Something is wrong with this picture. I still have to score tests, rescore tests someone else did wrong, and clean up for open house. I am so tired I am crying, but I had to do something else for a minute or go crazy. I hurt all over too.

I tested 56 kindergarteners today in both their first and second languages. Thursday I had to give them a "fill in the bubble test" in English, ...