Well I am hanging in for the long haul and have dropped 4 pounds.

I have pinpointed the 'witching hour' where I've noticed I tend to want to eat when I am not hungry(between 4 and 6 pm) and have switched to drinking a cup of tea instead.

I also am limiting my time in front of the computer and TV and started reading again.

So taking it slow and steady this time around.

I have been fooling myself. I have told myself that if I cut out the sugar, then I'm LCing. And maybe it would actually be correct, if I wasn't an addict. The small portions of potatoes and bread lead to small portions of carby fruits, which leads to small portions of something sugar, which leads to larger and larger portions.

So, as of right now, I am on the induction phase that I have subconsiously been avoiding. I know that it's necessary in order for the struggle with my will...

Today I spent some time with my friend who has just moved four miles away. We have always shopped together, gone out for lunch, etc. I didn't realize it would matter to her so much that I follow a low carb food plan. Everything she mentioned I'd say I couldn't eat it. I was looking for Bob's almond meal flour at the Health food store and she said "what about whole wheat flour? You won't eat that?" I told her no and she looked bummed out. Baking bread is what people who are into homesteading...

Well I have not had any loss yet but I am being more mindful of what and when I eat. The mindless eating is what caused my to gain. You know, you take the big Costco sized bag of whatever and sit down in front of your computer or TV or at your desk to catch up on reading/bill paying and soon you realize, 'Hey where did all the(insert your fav snack) go?" Hmmm I will strive to eat mindfully and not mindlessly.PS I have decided not to do Induction(Atkins Fan here) but OWL as I don't...

So I sit here, again. At this one thing, I have continually failed. Don't get me wrong, I have had some successes, but I always seem to find myself letting it go. I try to convince myself that I love myself unconditionally. Cos I know I should. But this layer of my body that I have hid behind, that makes me feel less, I don't love it. I don't want to accept it. I have tried. I have tried to just look myself in the mirror and say, "You are enough. You are beautiful no matter whether your 100...