Ok so maybe I havent restarted 52 times but I am sure that I may be close to that number. I have been trying to restart since the 1st of Jan. I started thinking of what made me successful in the past with lc'ing when it occured to me that journaling made me more accountable. So here I am, for the 50 something time trying over again.

I really do feel more prepared. I got rid of all the junk in the kitchen, went to the market to get all my lc stuff and have at least a few days...

I have been beating myself for months because I allowed myself to regain so much weight. While I was beating myself up for regaining 40 pounds, I was eating toast, candy, breakfast cereal, and who knows what all? I kept putting off restarting because of this or that event that would interefere. It was never-ending, and while I was lamenting the 40 pounds, I packed on another 30. Why are human beings so stupid?

Now I just have to lose 30 pounds (not something you can do at the drop...

I was so chuffed by yesterday's weigh in, showing a loss in the middle of TOM, I almost didn't bother with the scale today. Because, well, I was most likely to see a bounce, water retention, etc...

So perhaps you can imagine my amazement to see an even 219? (down from 220.8 yesterday)

Hardly seems likely, but I'll take it, especially since that means I've reached my first mini-goal.

Yes!

I can do this.I am a low-carb ninja.

It was a toss up whether to start a journal or a blog, and I'm still not sure which is the better way to go, but I thought I'd try this. Just looking for a place to journal my goals, frustrations, thought-processes, mind-games, and other weight-loss by-products.

After regaining all the weight I lost in 2003/04, I'm one month into getting things under control again, and *almost* to my first mini-goal.

Soldiering on...

(what? all these smilies and not one...

I realized a couple of days ago, almost EVERY time I cook something, the mess of pot and pans I have shoved into the cabinet come crashing out on the floor.

This is like, 98% of the time.

So what would you expect from this?

a.) Do you think that would convince me to ogranize something? Stack pans? Get some kind of plastic organizational aids?

Or b.) do you think I'd probably just laugh at myself, grab what I want, and shove the rest back in...