I have been beating myself for months because I allowed myself to regain so much weight. While I was beating myself up for regaining 40 pounds, I was eating toast, candy, breakfast cereal, and who knows what all? I kept putting off restarting because of this or that event that would interefere. It was never-ending, and while I was lamenting the 40 pounds, I packed on another 30. Why are human beings so stupid?

Now I just have to lose 30 pounds (not something you can do at the drop...

I was so chuffed by yesterday's weigh in, showing a loss in the middle of TOM, I almost didn't bother with the scale today. Because, well, I was most likely to see a bounce, water retention, etc...

So perhaps you can imagine my amazement to see an even 219? (down from 220.8 yesterday)

Hardly seems likely, but I'll take it, especially since that means I've reached my first mini-goal.

Yes!

I can do this.I am a low-carb ninja.

It was a toss up whether to start a journal or a blog, and I'm still not sure which is the better way to go, but I thought I'd try this. Just looking for a place to journal my goals, frustrations, thought-processes, mind-games, and other weight-loss by-products.

After regaining all the weight I lost in 2003/04, I'm one month into getting things under control again, and *almost* to my first mini-goal.

Soldiering on...

(what? all these smilies and not one...

I realized a couple of days ago, almost EVERY time I cook something, the mess of pot and pans I have shoved into the cabinet come crashing out on the floor.

This is like, 98% of the time.

So what would you expect from this?

a.) Do you think that would convince me to ogranize something? Stack pans? Get some kind of plastic organizational aids?

Or b.) do you think I'd probably just laugh at myself, grab what I want, and shove the rest back in...

These ups and downs really get to me.... I've been tired, and I was attributing it to the low carb. I've been very down, looking in the mirror and looking at underwear pictures of myself - so FAR to go. This week I've been MAXING the Atkins Indulgence Snickers-like bars (from SAMs club no less)....bad, but it was either that or step into the abyss. Its a bad outlook, but I felt like at least they have a laxative effect. Started getting discouraged cuz the scales showed 6 pound GAIN, putting me at...