Katlupe's post and a couple of days to think have me daydreaming about some more things I want to do when i get to goal, or closer. I almost said IF I GET TO GOAL, but I am NOT going to think that way EVER AGAIN!!!!

Here's todays version of the SKINNY TOP TEN LIST-- again not in order of desire or priority, just stuff I don't do now cuz I'm too fat or too out of shape, or even just THINK I am.

1. Go elk-hunting in the mountains either horse-back or afoot without thinking...

Maybe the problem is that I don't ever plan to grow up! lol

Anyway, I am making some plans. Now this is odd for me, because I am definitely a Live in the Moment kind of girl.

Quite a while ago, I realized that I was either living in the past (missing my dead relatives, mourning the move from farm to city, etc.); or skipping great stuff because I wasn't skinny enough.. I notice that doesn't bother girls these days, they wear anything no matter what size they are, but...

Thinking back, I did my great great aunts a disservice in last blog. One day when I was about 16, I was helping my Aunt Thel (my great grandmothers sister) stir gravy in my Grandmother's kitchen. She did it right, very slowly over low heat. I was complaining about my big bottom, big legs, and everything else. She gave me a little swat and said not to worry, that I was just fine. That got her to musing about weight, and she wondered why people went to so much trouble to come up with euphemisms...

I had the strangest dream last night--and it seems to be related to weight loss and body image so I will recount it here.

My whole extended family ( including people who have been gone over 40 years) and I were coming back from a funeral in Eastern Oklahoma. I don't know who had died, a distant cousin or somebody, a person who had lived well and long and was ready to go home, so we were more in a celebratory Irish Wake kind of mood than tears.

We were packed into great...

One giant leap for someone losing weight.
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Yep, you got it, I am gonna blog about the unmentionable for the whole world to see.

In the beginning of the summer, when I was feeling desperate and hopeless, I actually considered gastric band surgery for a while. At least long enough to look at some websites. I was horrified by almost everything I...