Okay, so I know that I'm in a better place. I know that the decisions that I made that brought me to where I am were the right ones.

So now the ex has got a new girlfriend. And I am happy for him. The thing is, she's young (half his age) and small and petite and has none of the baggage that he gave to me.

It bugs me. It's messing with my self esteem. This is probably at least partly because he messed around with a young thin chick while we were married. And he made...

I have to admit that I've followed those bread crumbs a couple of times but found my way and left again. I didn't really even start, just kinda did a meal or two and quit.

I think for me it's kinda like quitting any other addiction. I wasn't ready. I emotionally wasn't ready to come back. I would read and think about it, then move away from it like I was scared or something. Not consciously really, but now that I think about it, that's what it was.

Maybe I was remember...

I hope my blogs are read and digested by this community. The reason is I NEED your feedback support and encouragment to stay on the narrow road. My motis operende in the past is one of quitting, giving up and sucumbing to my craves and wants. This will not be allowed for me. You see I am killing myself with slow deliberate suicide. My 3 teenage daughters, (whom live with there mom, divorced) need there daddy around. I want to be there to see them progress in school, marriage, and see my future grandkids!...

Ok.. so I said I would post after the weekend. I know it is now a couple of days after but I just want to post that I have remained strong and steadfast! My weight has been still up by a pound from my lowest the whole time, but I am not letting it get me discouraged.

However I am running to the bathroom a lot today so I expect to see a drop tomorrow. I will be happy even if it is back at my lowest, but welcome it to be even lower! LOL

I started my own blog talk...

I've been discouraged these past 10 days. I know I'm going to the scale too much (I refused to have one for years because I remember my mom weighing before and after meals) However, every morning for the past 10 days there has been no weight loss. Even up a couple pounds.
I have my following Atkins with some alterations for my lifestyle. I did not give up coffee. It's something that is on my "to do list." because I know one or two cups a day is okay but not one or two...