Thread: Its been a year sence i stoped, but now i am back for good

Starting today my way of eating and living have changed for good. I am starting Inductions (Atkins) and started working out at Curves, I plan on working out 3 - 5 days a week. My only problem is that I dont have any kind of support. My roommate is an 'enabler' and the rest of my friends and family are not around enough to give alot of possitive support. I have 152 lbs to lose and am scared that I wont be able to make it to my goal weight. I have always been heavy from my earliest memories. I dont know what it will be like when I am at my goal weight and that has me scared, like I have never been in my life. I know I use my weight as a barrier against people getting close, and I am working on letting people get close to me, but it is hard tearing down wall 25 years in the making. I feel like I am just spilling my guts here, but I just dont know where else to do it.

Michelle

Hi Michelle, and welcome. You have come to the right place. I have never known so much encouragement and good advise as what I get right here. I come here daily sometimes 2 or 3 times and I hope you will too. I know what you mean by using your weight as a shield against people getting too close. I think most of us have done that. It was awful, hurtful, feelings that sent me spiraling into this huge weight gain and has for the last 5 years has kept me imprisoned in this huge fat body that I don't even recognize. I have come to the place now that I want to be set free from all this fat. I want to live again and love again and be happy again. It sounds like you have come to that place too. Congratulations, that was the hardest step and you made it!I am sure we will face many situations and many unknown emotions as we progress to our goals but we can face them together. We don't have to do it alone thanks to this board and the wonderful people here. I for one am glad you are here. Keep us posted on your progress. Anita

started 11/12/03
396/365/190ish

<BLOCKQUOTE class="ip-ubbcode-quote"><font size="-1">quote:</font><HR>My only problem is that I dont have any kind of support.<HR></BLOCKQUOTE>
You've found support here.
<BLOCKQUOTE class="ip-ubbcode-quote"><font size="-1">quote:</font><HR>I have 152 lbs to lose and am scared that I wont be able to make it to my goal weight.<HR></BLOCKQUOTE>
Don't look at the sum total. Look at it 20-pound increments, change your statement to reflect:

"I have 20 pounds to lose and I am confident that I WILL be able to make it to that goal!"

Because, you will. Then, make that statement again after losing the initial 20 pounds, and again and again until you reach your final goal.

Post here often...daily...hourly, if need be, and use this board as your safety net. Spill your guts as often as you wish.

When I first started, I not only did not have support, I had people around me who supposedly loved me, and told me repeatedly: "You can't do this. You'll never stick with it."

That made me all the more determined to stick with it. And I did.

You can, too.

April
352/212/180
Down 140 pounds
32 to go...

Michelle

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I know I use my weight as a barrier against people getting close, and I am working on letting people get close to me, but it is hard tearing down wall 25 years in the making. I feel like I am just spilling my guts here, but I just dont know where else to do it.

I haven't always been overweight. as a child I was chubby until i was 6 and then grew into a good weight and graduated high school at 150 pounds. But I've been very overweight a half dozen times as an adult. And I've also been thin several times as well. Let me tell you-thin is SOOO much better. Fair or not a lot of people treat you differently when you are, I hesitate to use the F word, fat. At 310 pounds almost a year ago I found few friends and family were a little distant as if fat were catching. You catch people staring or pointing when you turn around quickly in a store. Thin is nothing to be afraid of. Relationships will improve, support will come easier. Once the fat barrier is removed you are in charge of who you let get close. Don't feel like you've given up control. And as far as spilling your guts, we not only allow that here we encourage it. You've found a great resource for support in this website. Use it as often as you need to.

Rob
310/233/180

Me, a skeptic? I trust you have proof.

Welcome, Michelle!

You have definitely come to the right place! I have found so much support and encouragement in the few short days that I have been here.

One thing I would encourage you to do is to keep a journal. There is a section here just for that. It helps to go back and read what your thoughts were and where your head was at at a particular point in your journey. We all have reasons for using food as our coping mechanism. Most of us here are not overweight due to medical reasons. Food is our best/worst friend. Every single one of us knows the desperation and despair that being overweight causes. Every single one of us knows what it's like to want to succeed so bad you can taste it (pardon the pun!). Every single one of us wants to know what it's like to be thin and beautiful/handsome and HAPPY, whatever that is!

Food is a barrier between us and our deepest, innermost fears. It is what we hide behind, look to, rely on, etc. when we are feeling the worst about ourselves. I can't speak for everyone here but I'm sure a vast majority know exactly what I'm talking about. I know that every single one of my insecurities is directly related to my weight.

Good luck to you and come back anytime for all the support you need. That is why we are here.

God bless...

"Press On"
213/209/150
Started Atkins 1/12/04

Wow you sound a lot liek me.

I was never overweight until aobut 6 years ago. In fact in my freshman year of collage I was quite thin. Thin is better! When you are thing you feel better aobut yourself, so you take better care of yourself.

Once you atart loosing you will feel so good about yourself.

I have started and restarted many diets, even atkins. why am I so sure I will be successful this time?
Well, I feel different. I feel ready to do this. I am drinking water (i know that sounds silly, but i have never done this before.) Also, I found this site. There are people here, like you, who know exactly how I feel. They understand me. It feels good.

so, stick with us and go for it. We are all here for you!

Good luck all!!
Seesko

starting date 1/5/04

242/237/135

"What my mind can envision; my body can master!"

Michelle,

Welcome to LCE and the 100 club. It is a wonderful place to come for support and encouragement.

I felt very overwhelmed when I first started. Losing 100 pounds was such a big goal. It was so frigtening to me. But...I knew that I had to do it for my health. I knew I couldn't go on carrying this much weight around. My joints were hurting, I couldn't breathe, I couldn't sit in a restaurant booth...I couldn't do a lot of things. Plus, I was just tired of being overweight. Like many people here, I've been dealing with this problem most of my life. I've lost it, I've stayed thin for a while, I've gained it back. I say that being thin is much better. I wanted that energy back! I wanted to feel good about myself, maybe even feel attractive.

I can already sit in a restaurant booth again! I have more energy than I've had in years on this WOE. My joints don't hurt as bad as they used to! My clothes are falling off!

I have tried to break my big goal down into smaller mini-goals and that seems to be working well for me. The advice and encouragement I have received here have made all the difference in my success so far, and I know that this time I will reach my ultimate goal and STAY THERE.

I wish you the very best and I know you will do well with this WOE!

"Normal is in the eye of the beholder."
Atkins since 8/27/03
240/204(140-160)

Michelle,

I could have written exactly what you just did, and I probably have! I also have about the same amount to lose.

I'm so thrilled for you that you are going to Curves, that is a huge step towards success, I have struggled a long time at getting brave enough to do that.

You have the courage and mind set to do this! Don't let anyone bring you down. The only support system I have is right here on this board, it really helps posting, or just reading.

Maybe you can make some friends and support sisters at Curves. You definately can here! Hang in there and good luck )

Just Believe.

Welcome to the best support group there is. I started the WOE on 1/1/03 and didn't find this terrific group of folks until 5/03. I don't think I would have survived it without their help and kind words.
This is a WOE and not a diet. That, for me, was the hardest thing to grasp and after dieting for over 40 years I can't say how grateful I am to have found Atkins. I wish I had done it earlier because I would not have spent the last 20 years being heavy and not leading a healthy life.
Just keep coming back, take everyone's good advice and apply what works for you. CURVES is wonderful and it is excellent to add exercise.
Hang in there, we are all here for you.

Shortie19
240+/193.5/130
Since 1/1/03

Thank you all for your support, it really means alot to me. It has been a full week back and i am doing really good, worked out 3 times this week, and not gone off LCE. Which i am so proud of. I know I have a long way to go but a good fisrt week is all that i can ask for. I am starting the way i plan of living for the rest of my life. This coming week i plan on working out 4 days a week and for a little longer than i did this past week. I am planning out a menu for this week so i am not eating the same things all the time, i figure that i will stay on induction for longer than 2 week just because i have so much to lose. I am drinking at least 64 oz of water a day at work so i know i am getting plenty of water. So over all i am doing great, and am really happy with the changes i am making.