Hey guys,

I'm back and kinda with my tail between my legs!! I have been away for a long time, the history is; when i was here i had gone from 300lbs to 245lbs i think from memory, and then i continued to lose weight and hit my goal of 185 back in July last year. I was made up as you can imagine, so happy - i managed to maintain that weight loss for about 6 months, but come the end of last year i hit a mjor stress time and it all went a bit mad.
Christmas was so stressful that i thought i might collapse, with the stress came the onset of ME (chronic fatigue syndrome) and to be frank, what with the stress i was under and the ME symptoms i got terribly depressed and turned to food as a comfort.

I could kick myself for being so stupid - i had taken 3 years t get to my goal weight and it's been a hard struggle. And with no effort at all i am back up by 40lbs :(

But, I am here which is the main thing and in the right frame of mind to get things going back in the right direction again!! DOWN!!!

I am still under enormous stress in my private life, but I am putting myself under even more by being overweight again.

So here i am - will you guys forgive me for being away so long?

Looking forward to getting to know you all again...i'm sure i won't recognise even half of you!!

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back Jade. I 'm glad you found your way back. Good luck as you renew your efforts.

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Henry

Welcome back, Jade.

Great to see you here again.

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welcome back, Jade. So glad you made your way back here. It's annoying as *$&%$ how it's so much easier to creep up than it is down on the scale, but such is life, 'eh? And a big pat on the back for not waiting until life is less stressed to focus on better eating, since taking better care of yourself physically will certainly help you manage the other stressors as well.



We'll be here to cheer you on, Dear. You know how to do this because you have, so you have a leg up already.

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Thanks guys Yesterday went well - had a good LC day just got to build up the water - i always lose better when i drink at least 3 litres or more a day.

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Welcome back, Jade. Good to see you here!

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Nita

Good for you Jade.
Your story sounds oh so familiar. I too am dealing with my choices.
You know there is so much support for ya here.

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Tom

Hi all...I am back. A bit nerves but I need to do something. This site really did keep me in check. It has been almost 1 year since I was here. The last time I was here I was at goal....Well I have gained almost all of the weight back. All but 7 lbs...I guess that is better them all plus more. So to make a long story short...things have been out of control. I have had to work on a lot of personal issues. When I had lot all the weight and was where "I thought" I wanted. I figured that being thin (I was a size 4) I would be happier & for some reason I truly believed that getting to my goal weight was all that needed to be done. Don't get me wrong, being thin I felt beautiful but it didn't make me "happy". So I fell back into my old ways...actually worse then my old ways. I didn't care anymore....I threw my hands up in defeat. I stoped working out, stoped watching what I ate & took meds thinking that it would help. Wrong...it did help for a while but made me crave food like crazy. If I'm not eating or trying to figure out what to eat then I got bord. Bordom just led to more eating.....I'm always tired and feel like if I eat I will wake up. Or my head hurts..just eat & the headache will go away. Wrong...doesn't help if anything it makes things worse.

So I'm here AGAIN knowing I need to get back on track. I do feel better when I eat right. I feel more in control. I want to get in the right mind frame again....thanks for reading. I need support. I don't want what I eat & my weight to control me. But boy does it! I had a Dr. appointment scheduled for Friday I cancelled it because I don't want to get weighed. I also have my daughters BIG(100 people or more) Birthday party on Saturday & I want to be invisible....When I was thin I stood tall....& proud. Now I don't want to even leave the house & that isn't fare for my family. Happiness is within & has to do with attitude. I'm going to try my hardest to change my attitude & hopefully the rest will follow.

Sorry if all of that sounded depressing....I'm trying to work things out in my head as well

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christina-i'm glad you're back. your struggles are not different from the kind of things many of us have gone through. and it's funny sometimes, how we think that somehow, magically, losing the weight will make everything fall into place. it's nice, NO doubt about it, but it's not the secret key to eternal happiness, man.

you're wise to work on how you think about it. from what i can tell, that's one of the single most important factors there is to being successful. i've been around here long enough to see many folks come and go, and you get a sense after a while of who will probably do well and who won't. the attitude makes or breaks you, so it's a great place to focus on.

{{{christina}}}just keep reading helpful stuff and working on looking at yourself with kindness, and it gets easier to make healthy decisions.

peace out.

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