Just trying to start this again. Not sure where exactly the first one went. Somewhere off in cyberspace. Maybe someday it'll show. Anyhow, too tired to type! More later!

Even when things are going well, Boston fans fear the worst. If we won the lottery, we would immediately assume that 20 other people had the same number. That's just us. We're rarely happy. We're also insane. It's a tough combination. ~ Simmons

just testing something.

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"Even when things are going well, Boston fans fear the worst. That's just us. We're rarely happy. We're also insane. It's a tough combination." ~ Simmons

Today's life theme : Being bitter over tiny, stupid things

You know, the only thing, and I mean the ONLY thing, I hate about the new boards is that you can't just jump to like page 4 of a topic. You always have to start at page 1. Not that in the grand scheme of life it makes much difference, just annoying me today b/c I am in an annoyed mood.

And while we're at it - I was SO CLOSE to getting 5 stars on the old board!!!! SO close!!! I only need like 2 dozen more posts or something! And here I am again, a newbie. Oh well. Not the end of hte world, but it fits in with today's life theme.

I am eating terrible. I sound like a broken record but oh well. Everything is the wrong food to be putting into my mouth, and yet I still do it. I don't even taste it. Nor do I esp. want it. And I know why I'm doing this - S.T.R.E.S.S. - but still. If I know why, I should be able to avoid this self-destructive behavior. But I can't. Sometimes I feel like its not even me planning these stupid 'cheats'. Some whole other person is doing it. But its nobody else's fault. It's mine and I should be able to stop. But that's just not happening. At least not right now. And that just bites b/c its not like gaining weight is making me feel better. Its just makes me more stressed out and upset.

And I hate the GRE. I just do.

Tomorrow should be a better day. WHY? Dunno, but this MOOD can't last forever! (though if my boys lose tonight, watch out world!)

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"Even when things are going well, Boston fans fear the worst. That's just us. We're rarely happy. We're also insane. It's a tough combination." ~ Simmons

Alright, so. Going to the baseball game tonight! Yippe! I love seeing all my boys in person. Too bad its going to be cold and windy. I wonder who's pitching?!?! Obv. not Pedro, not Lowe, and not Suppan. Burkett? Hmmmm.... I'll go find that out.

SO. Watched that HBO special curse of the Bambino. What a riot. Clearly shows what nutcases we members of the BoSox nation are. The thing is, while I don't entirely believe in the "Curse", I don't entirely discredit it either. There is a pall over the team. Case in point - TCotB (which generally mocked the idea of a curse) aired Tuesday night - after the game, which we won - then the night after it comes on we get shutout, by the DEVILRAYS!, for the first time at home in over a year. The most potent offense in baseball stymied by the second worst team in the league?!?!?! Coincidence???? Hmmmm.....

While I do blame the Yawkey ownership for majority of our championshipless years, passing on Robinson AND Mayes!?!?!, it wasn't entirely them. I don't know why we don't win. Its not just lack of pitching (though if we don't make it far in the postseason this year, that will totally be the reason). Last year we had 2 of the best pitchers and a damn fine closer and that got us diddly squat. I do that if we should win it all, it is going to be the greatest party of all time. Nothing will compare. Nothing. And I do know what we'll do after we win it all. We'll start to fixate on how its our turn to embark on a Yankee-esq World Series win streak and their turn to stumble at the last moment. And then if it doesn't happen, we'll grow all morse again. Winning once won't do much for us. Why? B/c as my signature says :

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"Even when things are going well, Boston fans fear the worst. That's just us. We're rarely happy. We're also insane. It's a tough combination." ~ Simmons

Dum de dum. Not much to say today. I have a mad case of pms, so the weight is high, though the eating has been decent. Today I had chicken salad on romain lettuce leafs for lunch. Can we say YUM?!?!?! That has got to be my favorite lunch! Too bad it costs so much! (got it from food court salad bar place - wonderful fresh stuff, but very $$$$). And then dinner was a chicken catcatori (spelled so wrong but whatever) dish with a side of squash. It was good and I'm not a lover of squash but this came from my uncle's garden, so it had a more mild taste than grocery store bought stuff. I know breakfast is missing but I stupidly took my multivitamin this morning and as always, it made me quite sick to my stomach. Why do I never remember that it does that to me if I take it on an empty stomach?!?!

SO the magic number is down to 5 (before tonight's game). We were winning but they keep storming back, and I'm almost afraid to look. We'll all just keep the fingers crossed.

I am not going to off on a diatribe about Lens Crafters but lets just say I HATE them. HATE them. Will probably never buy glasses from them again. I need to go get laser eye surgery. Screw the glasses all together. Or get a normal job that allows me to wear contacts. All I'm saying.

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"Even when things are going well, Boston fans fear the worst. That's just us. We're rarely happy. We're also insane. It's a tough combination." ~ Simmons

<BLOCKQUOTE class="ip-ubbcode-quote"><font size="-1">quote:</font><HR> took my multivitamin this morning and as always, it made me quite sick to my stomach. <HR></BLOCKQUOTE>

I feel for you!!! The same thing happens to me!! And yes, some days I still forget. How dumb is that..LOL
Have a better day!!!

Old age ain't no place for sissies.

-Bette Davis-..
215/180.5/160
34.5 Gone
20.5 to go!!

I agree with you 100% Febe! SUCH a simple thing to remember - multivitamin in the morning on an empty stomach = upset stomach. And yet, some mornings, I'm all like, whatever, I'll be FINE. And then I'm not. D'oh!

ANYHOW! IT IS A GOOD NIGHT HERE IN BOSOX NATION!!! WE DID IT! WE DID IT! WE DID IT! WE'RE ACTUALLY GOING TO THE PLAYOFFS! WHA-HOO! Time to spank the Yanks! Okay well first we have to get past Oakland and the Yanks COULD lose to the Twins (stop laughing all you smarmy Yankee lovers! It could happen!). But I will worry about the prospect of losing round 1 tomorrow. Right now I am going to savor the clinch. I am going to savor the fact that we "cowboy'd it up" in Sept. instead of imploding. Rock on and peace out!

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"Even when things are going well, Boston fans fear the worst. That's just us. We're rarely happy. We're also insane. It's a tough combination." ~ Simmons

What an awesome game!!! I went to the wrong one (Wednesday's tragedy). We woke the kids up last night celebrating the win. Wish BoSox didn't have to play Tampa, but guess it's no big thing since we OWN them. I think we're going to do great against Oakland and the Twinkies will cream the Evil Empire! (One can dream, ya know!)

Keep the faith, redsoxnation! (like you were thinking of not!)

Jen
175/131/120

Just had to pop in and say congrats to you & the Bo's!!

If it can't be my M's, I'm rooting that you do spank the Yanks.

Betty
265/203/155
Started 7/15/02

Still grinning ear to ear like a dope today! Jen, I LOVE that you woke the kids up! That is just fantastic! And a wonderful memory for them. And I LOVE that the players and owners and fans went NUTS when we won last night. That shows what this year has been like. And it shows how just having a few positive players can really get our spirits up. I LOVE Ortiz and Miller! And Manny was even celebrating last night - I may just forgive him for his "I'm too sick to play" fiasco.

But I must say that I'm annoyed at all the "fans" this morning who are saying to stop celebrating so much b/c all we did was get "2nd place" and "lose out to the Yankees for the 6th year straight!". This is not getting 2nd place! This is working our arses off and never quitting! This is the result of never, never, never just wanting to get a bad game over with and taking the loss. We battled so hard in so many 9th innings this season! And it paid off. We're in the playoffs and ANYTHING can happen there. I am going to remain positive throught the postseason. B/c I KNOW that they will NEVER just roll over and die. Not this team.

Betty - I feel your pain. I've been in your shoes so often I think I've worn holes in the soles of them! I thought of you last night when we officially clinched and shutout Seattle. But I know that you hate the Yanks just about as much as I do, so at least we can root for their demise together!!!!

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"Even when things are going well, Boston fans fear the worst. That's just us. We're rarely happy. We're also insane. It's a tough combination." ~ Simmons

Negative fans just kill me - but that's Boston for you. I, too, loved the celebration in Fenway last night - in '99 it was nothing like that (well, the fans went bananas as is to be expected). Manny's good, but he's not great. With Ortiz around and a Kapler who can easily play left, he'd better watch it.

I will be GLUED to the box for the next week! Yankees stink!

Jen
175/131/120

Its so funny this postseason for me! I've never been happier and I've never had more of a reason to just BELIEVE in a team! I know that if they don't win the World Series, it won't be for a lack of trying.

That said, the first feelings that are not completely uphoric are settling in. Not negative ones, just generic panic-filled one. I don't know if I've EVER wanted them to win more! (Well maybe in '99 during the ALCS against the Yanks). It feels akin to first date, esp. a blind date, jitters. I dunno. What I do know is that if Games 1&2 start at 10pm, I am going to be one sleepy person at work Thurs. and Friday!

Now, onto to other news. I am typing this from mom's candy store. Just sitting here surrounded by vats of warm melted chocolate, fudge, turtles, toffee, choco. covered oreos, caramel and choco. covered pretzels, pb cups, peppermint cups, and so on and so forth. I'm all alone and that's just harsh. I tried desperately to stay away from it but I'm just not strong enough I guess. Had a rather large piece of fudge and a few mini oreos. Not to terrible considering how bad I COULD be. But I wish I were stonger. Sigh. Hopefully what I ate will be the end of it. I'll be keeping my fingers crossed and my mouth shut!

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"The passion that comes from the true Sox fans, and you know who you are, is unparalleled in baseball. Fanatics? yes. Lunatics? yes. Insane? you bet. I wouldn't have it any other way. It's a crazy ride, but it's our crazy ride and we'll take it and enjoy it or keel over trying!" ~ thisistheyear.com

So I"m a little bummed tonight. Not exactly sure why. Probably just from knowing that tomorrow is the start of a VERY stressful week. Redsox playoffs AND the GRE general test on Saturday. Oy. Brain is totally going to explode from studying. But at least my vocabulary has become quite esoteric and I can correctly use the words in sentences without sounding overly pedantic. I also know that the measure for the area of an arch is (n/360)(pi r2). Tomorrow night (and every night til Sat) I plan on doing a full length practice test. Just to find out how much I really know. I shouldn't be as worried as I am but I am PANICKED. Sigh. I'll be happy come Sat. around 4pm or so. Of course, my relief is def. going to be short lived. I start studying for the biochem. subject test GRE the following Monday! I'm just keeping myself focused on the fact that someday January WILL come and all this grad. school stuff will be over with.

Went out to school today to do some stuff with the sorority (Chi Omega). Its so odd being an advisor and not an active sister. I always find it so weird to go back to the house and not live there. I just want to walk through the front door, head up to my room, and throw on my jammies. But then I see all these sisters that I don't know and I get all like, awwwww, I don't live here anymore!! Of course half the time I lived there I was just plain miserable (you try living with 50 other women and see how fun that can be), but of course, everything has a rosy glow to it when you're looking back. Now I"m all like, "it wasn't that bad! We had a lot of good times!" I'll ALWAYS miss having house boys. Everyone should have houseboys. What houseboys are is frat brothers who come and eat free lunch and dinner at our house (we have a cook that does the cooking). In exchange for the free food, they do all the cleaning up after dinner - washing the pans, doing the dishes, sweeping, mopping, etc. WONDERFUL system I tell ya. A cook and someone to clean up. I MISS that!!!!

Oh, in a bit of related baseball news - the CUBS are in the playoffs!!!!! HOW f---ing COOL would it be to have a Cubs-Redsox World Series?!?!?! It'll never happen, but that would just rock my world.

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"The passion that comes from the true Sox fans, and you know who you are, is unparalleled in baseball. Fanatics? yes. Lunatics? yes. Insane? you bet. I wouldn't have it any other way. It's a crazy ride, but it's our crazy ride and we'll take it and enjoy it or keel over trying!" ~ thisistheyear.com

<BLOCKQUOTE class="ip-ubbcode-quote"><font size="-1">quote:</font><HR> In exchange for the free food, they do all the cleaning up after dinner - washing the pans, doing the dishes, sweeping, mopping, etc. <HR></BLOCKQUOTE>

What a deal!!! I'm willing to feed anyone that will clean up!!! I bet you do miss that!!!

Have a Great Day!!

Old age ain't no place for sissies.

-Bette Davis-..
215/180.5/160
34.5 Gone
20.5 to go!!

Damn I'm tired tonight. Been a long day and I didn't even go to work! Ugh! Anyhow, I have a journal assignment to write about spite eating but I'll have to get to that tomorrow sometime (just wanted to jot it down before I forgot). Need. to. go. to. BED. Right now, all I want is sleep. I am feeling antipathy towards the GRE tonight. Only 3 more days to cram it all in.

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"The passion that comes from the true Sox fans, and you know who you are, is unparalleled in baseball. Fanatics? yes. Lunatics? yes. Insane? you bet. I wouldn't have it any other way. It's a crazy ride, but it's our crazy ride and we'll take it and enjoy it or keel over trying!" ~ thisistheyear.com