I'm feeling like I'm in a sinking hole...getting deeper each day. My good days are starting to be outnumbered by my bad days. Something has to change.

I was doing SP and doing well, then I started eating alot of raw foods. At first I felt so much better but now, I'm really sinking fast. I must restart SP or paleo today. I have to regain my health and vitality. My life is too busy to feel like this.

I've eaten paleo today. Breakfast was bananas, apples and blueberries. Too much fruit, I know, I feel it.

Lunch was a huge salad and chicken.

Snack was a low carb shake.

It's 5:50 pm. I'm still feeling the effects of breakfast, dizzy, tired, blurred vision, depression, anxiety, it's all I can do not to cry I feel so badly.

no more.
I've had enough.

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"The future of life on earth depends on seeing the sacred where others see only the common."
- John Denver, 1991

You sound the way I have felt in the past. So blue all you can do is lie on the floor and wonder why you are here.

All I can say is think of what you've done already. And soon enough the bad feels will pass. And yes sometimes it can take time but you have friends here to talk to.

Feel better.

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Noël


Worry doesn't empty tomorrow of its sorrows, it empties today of its strengths.

thank you Noel. I had a good cry, some hard thinking about some things in my life and I think it did me a world of good.

I feel like I"m better this morning.

thank you very much for your post, it meant a lot to me.
Ann

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"The future of life on earth depends on seeing the sacred where others see only the common."
- John Denver, 1991

ok had one heck of a good cry last night, realized how much hurt and anger I had inside over a family member and now that I've acknowledged it and thought about the situation, I'm feeling better. I realize how much I've been eating out of stress and i think the reason I've been searching so hard for an eating plan is to find a place I belong, somewhere that I feel settled. I realize looking back that I felt that way eating low carb. I think at the time I felt TOO safe, too comfortable. that's not familiar in my life and THAT made me uncomfortable!

well, I'm not one to dwell on the past...I think that was my problem, I never dealt with it at all....and now that I've realized what's been bothering me for so long, it's time to move on and heal.

This morning I am dressing nice, having a good day with my son, and will focus on the positives in my life.

I'm doing the paleo but this morning I am having a low carb protein shake. My blood sugar was 78, decent but I can feel it dropping. I don't like eggs, don't have time to cook meats, I want something easy but nourishing for me.

I have leftover chicken for lunch along with a salad. I think I'll take son out to dinner tonight before his band practice. a seafood place sounds good.

take care all and I hope to be part of the group now.
Ann

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"The future of life on earth depends on seeing the sacred where others see only the common."
- John Denver, 1991

doing better today. had my shake for breakfast, chicken and peppers for lunch. i'm going to have the seafood for dinner with another salad. I haven't got my walking in but i'll do that while son is in band. that's an hour for me to walk.
I'm still very tired today, took a nap earlier. feel a little nauseous. i don't know how i'm going to make it driving 4-5 hours every day plus lessons, housecleaning, regular chores. i'm tired and i have to do this until the end of october. oh well, straighten up the spine and just do it. that's all there is to it.

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"The future of life on earth depends on seeing the sacred where others see only the common."
- John Denver, 1991

yesterday was MUCH better. I still felt fuzzy until late afternoon, then I began to feel clearer.

yesterday's menu:
low carb protein shake
lunch:
chicken
pepper strips
ranch dip

dinner:
chicken
broccoli
cabbage
insides of crab rangoon

today I was down 2 pounds!

today's menu:
shake

working on the rest, i know dinner is chicken and family is having rice, i'll have salad.

i was able to sleep really hard and woke up feeling halfway alert for a change.

i got in around 5000 steps yesterday, not as many as I wanted but the day got busier than I expected.

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"The future of life on earth depends on seeing the sacred where others see only the common."
- John Denver, 1991