Thread: Journal, Day 1

Thanks, Kameron, for the support!! I have not had an ice cream binge and the desire seems to have passed.

I have used ice cream as a way to feel good all of my life. It started when I was young. Sometimes, I can catch myself offering the cats food when they are pestering me too much. Guess, it is how I was treated growing up, also. And that Bailey can be a pest at times. But she is cute. She used to visit with me while I soaked in a bubble bath, sometimes getting on edge of the tub and more than once falling in. To this day, she believes if she sits in the tub and cries that I will come and give her attention. After all, she visits me when I am in the tub. Makes perfect sense to her. Then Squeeker, who sits on the bathroom counters and cries until I bring her cup of water. The counter thing started years ago when Squeeker wanted to drink from a flowing faucet. She has graduated to room service!! She sleeps on the back of my monitor where it is warm. I guess I won't be getting a flat screen monitor anytime soon.
I am selling my house. And I am thinking of the bird nest that has been under an eave of my house now for almost 26 years. When the house has been painted, it has been a priority to paint around the nest. Imagine a 26 year old nest. I'll miss that nest!! So, will my cats most likely. Well, I am rambling

I did it. I had a binge. Eat the ice cream. Don't feel bad about it, just got to pick myself up off the floor. I've been in some heavy challenges and for the most part I have done exceedingly well. As miracles show up in my life it restores my faith that intent is 100 percent that is required. My I Am presence does the rest. I am so relieved and very grateful.
Got some information on making my game board. Haven't decided whether to talk my sister in to helping me. She is awful busy. I took one of these brain dominance tests and it showed that I use both sides of my brain almost equally. NOt sure what that means, but I think after many years of stuggle I am integrating both sides of myself, logic and creativity. Let the games begin.....

Okay so you had the ice cream. Get up, dust off, and get back on!!!! WATER WATER WATER!!! We will fall down, we just need to get back up!

Kameron/Kameron2
198//186.6//155

Thank's for stopping in Kameron and providing support. It is greatly appreciated. I am going through a little snag in the fabric of life right now.

This is me saying hello to my inner self that has been deprived of attention these past few days. Reminding me that things stay in line better when I make an effort to stay in touch. I was reading a paper on the middle pillar meditation, by Israel Regardie. It sounds interesting. I may give it a try if I can learn to pronounce all of the words.
Cleaned cracks and crevices, today. Least anyone think I am a clean freak, that is the farest thing from the truth. But down on the floor into the corners with that wonderful crevice tool. The house is in escrow and I want to shampoo the carpets in the next few days. Squeeker had knocked a plant, turning it over, dirt and all into the carpet. Scared herself real good and she knew it was not her shining moment. In this process of trying to clean it up, a phone outlet(extension) got messed up. So, I found myself removing the outlet and rewiring the original one. It isn't hard to match color to color. I wired an exterior light before and need to rewire an interior light. Maybe I just need a little light so I can wear some shades. JenJen

Whew Jen you are my shero, I would have no phone and no light right now if I had to do that. Sounds like you are feeling great and I'm glad!

Kameron
198/186.6/155 16/16/10 size goal

Well, Kameron, the day has been up and down. I have gotten myself into quite a fix and working on turning things around. Half of me will be happy when escrow closes and the other half will not want to move. I worry about the cats. Squeeker in particular as she is so fearful. Been that way forever. Bailey will be under foot. I want them to have a stress free move. Love my babies. Want to have some money in the bank so I can figure out what I want to do with my life. I have started selling items on ebay. That is a trip. Have been trying to sell my Padparadscha sapphire and other sapphires in the local paper. Not too many gem collectors checking in the newspaper. Some just wanting to see the Padparadscha. Next will be my video poker machine. I don't want to move that thing anyway. Bought it and never played it that much.So here we go. I haven't even been getting on the scale... I'll face that next week. Hey Kameron, I appreciate you a great deal. Having your little notes makes me feel wonderful. It is kinda lonely in Vegas right now...

Hi Jen,
I hope you don't mind my dropping in, but I read your post in Kameron's journal about the aerobics class with the high step. Is it the "Firm?" My gym has a format similar, but is called cardio sculpting. It is a great class. Usually the music is not as fast and one does not have to deal with the many different step combinations. You may enjoy it. But don't be fooled. It does give you a workout and you will get your heart rate up. I hope this helps.

Kelli
176/155.5/130
"Today is a new day to make tomorrow better."

Jen I am happy they help. Last year I wanted tons of visitors to come to my journal so it could be big. This year I have realized that this is a place for me to put my thought and reflections. If people stop by I am happy but if they don't I still post. I love reading other peoples' journals and love commenting when I have something to say. I will look at your's everday because once I start posting with someone I feel like I know them. Where are you moving to once you sell? Are you staying in Vegas. Do you have family there? I used to visit Vegas( USAF) and when I was at home, I am from California. I could sit there and look at people all day and night, I was also mean on the $1 black jack table. Nothing like 5 or 6 hours of $1 black jack and a bad lounge act

Kameron
198/186.6/155 16/16/10 size goal

Hi, Kameron. I may stay in Vegas for awhile. Or down to Laughlin. My family lives in Kentucky and a brother in North Carolina. I can't stand cold weather, but miss my sister. When I get the proceeds from the sale of my house, I plan to have a night out on the town. I like video poker, 10 hand machines. Now you're going to croak when I tell you this. I was playing 10 hand poker machines started out 2 cents, moved up to a nickel and as I won machine to machine I finallly was playing 10cents, 5 per hand, 10 hands per bet. Well, Kameron, I hit a royal on the first line and of course it went allllllll the waaaaay up to the top. 10 royals at one time. They heard me screaming all over the casino. Then a month or so later I hit 4 aces with a kicker (which pays the same as hitting a royal) on the bottom line and again I had ten of them. Haven't played a lot since, but it sure made my year!!! So, maybe, I will go play after my finances are settled. I haven't been in a casino in over a year, I guess. Play a few nickels at a convenient store. Anyway, that is like my "big fish" story but for the gamblers. I am pretty tired tonight. Long day. A lot of walking and the appraiser is coming in the a.m. Thank goodness I started cleaning the house yesterday, vacuuming, nooks and crannies. Had hoped to shampoo the carpets after the thorough vacuuming, but the appraiser didn't give me enough notice. Good night Kameron...

Good luck today with the appraiser!

Kameron/Kameron2
198//185.8//155

I am sorta back. My house was appraised and the guy loved it. But, I wore myself out and crashed for about 14 hours. Ended up sleeping upside down on my bed last night - feet at the top of the bed. Still moving a little slow. Don't know how many weeks it will be until I move. House should close in a few weeks. Can't figure it out. The appraisal was paid for by the new buyers and I thought that was what I was to pay for. Oh well, don't look a gift horse in the mouth. Thank you,IB.
Weather was great today. Like Spring. I really loved it. Bright, warmish. I love Spring in the desert. Say good night, JenJen. Good night!!

Hi Jen,

I think I can give you more information about the appraisal. I am a REALTOR in SC. The appraisal is needed by the lending institution your buyers are using. Banks want to make sure the home they are purchasing is valued the same or more than their loan. Now there are a few cases where a seller may agree to pay for the appraisal, but you would have been aware of it upon the negotiation of the contract. You would have seen something like "Seller to pay for buyer's closing and to include aprraisal." But for the most part it is a Buyer's cost. I hope this helps. Good luck on the sale of your home.

Kelli
176/155.5/130
"Today is a new day to make tomorrow better."

Thanks for the info, Kelli. My dream is to own an ocean front home on Hilton Head Island! When the appraiser looked at my house he stopped to tell me that I had a really nice house. So, I am presuming that everything went well.

Wow, the appraiser actually talked to you?! I'd say 95% of the appraisers here don't say much. They normally do not like to interact with the homeowner. I am sure all went well.

"My dream is to own an ocean front home on Hilton Head Island!" Jen, I would LOVE to sell you an ocean front home on Hilton Head Island. LOL

Kelli
176/155.5/130
"Today is a new day to make tomorrow better."