Thread: ^*Shelley's Journal*^

Restarted SBD today...a little bumpy but not bad. I would think if I can remain lower carb, and lower fat, and not consume any potatoes, bread, rice or pasta or refined crap, that I would lose weight...but NO! I've been down this road before... I don't get it, I just don't get it<sigh>
I am right back where I was when I started in January!!!!!!!! Have I wasted the whole year??????? AAAAARRRGGGGHHHHHH

sg
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don't fix it"
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Yesterday was a food disaster. I was out of control. I am at the point of thinking, I'm not losing anyway, why not have a d**n piece of carrot cake...and not the low carb kind either!
I recieved a very nice email from a fellow LC-er
who is in the same boat I'm in. It was a comfort to realize I am not alone...
People are probably getting tired of my whinning and think, "well, Shelley, if you cheat, you DON'T lose weight!" But, again, I must say, I have followed every plan I have tried to the best of my ability, and have not had the results everyone else gets. So eventually, I get so down about it, I do eat off plan. I'm a mess...and to top it off, the 2 people I converted to low carb at work, have had terrific results...one gal had a 10 lb loss, and the other states she has lost 15 lbs!
And they cheat constantly!!!!! I need to go into hibernation.

sg
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"if it ain't broke
don't fix it"
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Here I go again.....
Weds. Oct.22,2003
Today I have had:
breakfast:
coffee w/ splenda
1 egg and 1 egg beater
scrambled together
3 strips turkey bacon
snack:
20 almonds
10 pistachios
lunch:
tuna salad w/
lite mayo, 1 boiled egg,
and sf pickle relish
1/2 C 2% cottage cheese
w/ 1 tsp stby sf jello powder
(an experiment)
snack:
1/2 small apple
1 oz ff cream cheese
dinner:
LC meatballs(3)
1/2 C Classico tomato
and basil sauce on
zuchinni "noodles"
salad w/ lite Italian
stby ricotta cream

Finishing off 2nd liter of water.
Cravings weren't to bad today...so far...
I'm trying to stick as close to SBD phase 2 as I can. I probably should've gone back to phase 1, but I just couldn't make myself do it. Maybe I will try and throw a couple of phase 1 days into the mix.
Good news today though, (maybe)...my boss is trying to get a full time position approved for me. I have mixed feelings about going back full time. My main concern is my walking, or lack thereof. Working full time the hours I would work, it would be dark when I go to work and dark when I get home
We'll see. The $$$ would be nice, as I am getting the redecorating bug really bad, LOL!
Gave serious thought to hibernating today.

sg
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"if it ain't broke
don't fix it"
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Shelley, just wanted to say howdy to a fellow Okie. I'm in the NE part of the state. Can you say BOOMER SOONER!! (laughing). I've just started my journal on here today. Wish me luck and all that!! Stay with it...never give up!

wolfie
182/180/140

<BLOCKQUOTE class="ip-ubbcode-quote"><font size="-1">quote:</font><HR> I have followed every plan I have tried to the best of my ability, and have not had the results everyone else gets. So eventually, I get so down about it, I do eat off plan <HR></BLOCKQUOTE>


Ditto!!!

Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhh Yes I know your pain!!!

But this week it will be my fault!! I’ve read Sooooooooo many times about people on here having Popcorn!!! Well yesterday I made some!!! *&$##@ First time in over a Year!!! Was not half as good as I remember!! BUT ATE IT ANYWAY!!!!

Soooooooooooo if I don’t lose this week!!! There is no reason to feel sorry for me!!! IT was my fault!!

Old age ain't no place for sissies.

-Bette Davis-..
215/179/160
36 Gone
19 to go!!

Shelley
Don't look back. Just look forward to losing weight. You can do it!
This little pep talk brought to you by Rob, low carb dieter.

I am a mess. After a corageous battle with diabetes compounded by kidney failure, our beloved Fu-kitty had to be put to sleep this morning. The vet told us yesterday there was nothing else he could do for her, and we brought her home for one last night with her.
She was so sick and weak with no food intake for several days due to her nausea and vomiting that the vet said it was time. I took her in this morning and stayed with her until the end.
I can hardly stop crying long enough to post this. She was just the best and smartest old wussy kat there ever was. I will miss her sooooo much. When will it not hurt so bad?

sg
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"if it ain't broke
don't fix it"
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(((Shelly))) I have no words to make it better!! All I can do is say a prayer for you!!

I know how awful you feel. We lost our beloved febe (a 14 year old puppy that we could not of loved more)It took So long to get over!! (I might not of got over it. I still use her name on the web)

But I want you to know one thing.. I lost my mother to lung cancer. She died in my home after 6 long month of pain. And I lost my 13 month old Grandbaby by Murder!! But because febe was a Dog. They let me hold her in my arms as they gave her a small shot.. She went to sleep in my arms.. I would have done anything for this to be the way my Mother & Grandbaby went.. So Please be at Peace that she went with no Pain!! I wish we were as good to People in there last days!!!

I wish you the very Best in this time..
(((HUGS)))

Old age ain't no place for sissies.

-Bette Davis-..
215/179/160
36 Gone
19 to go!!

I'm so sorry to hear about your kitty Shelley. It's very hard to lose an animal. Last year we found out 12 year old pug dog dead. He was getting close to the end of his life expectancy, but we didn't expect to find him that way. I was so upset.

I had days when I'd be driving home from work and break down in tears after he died. I didn't have a chance to say goodbye. I'm glad you got that opportunity.

The hurt goes away with time, then you'll find yourself remembering your kitty in a nice, pleasant way. We are in that stage now, we giggle when we think of the silly things he used to do or funny facial expressions that pugs have. Not to mention the zillion pictures we have of him

Take care and again, I'm so sorry.
Karen

febe and Karen,
Thank you so much for the kind words. I have pretty much cried all day, off and on. I just miss her so much, and find myself looking for her. Some people don't understand how a person can love a pet so much, but I can tell you, I loved that old cat like a real person...I mean, she was, wasn't she?
I know time will help, but I'm pretty much a wreck at the moment.
Thanks again.

Shelley

sg
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don't fix it"
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Shelley
Here's another Hug. I sent the last one in an email.

{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}

Rob,
Thanks for the extra {{{hug}}}...you can never have to many at a time like this.
{{{hugs}}} back at ya!

Shelley

sg
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don't fix it"
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Shelleyg,
I am so sorry for your loss. I can completely relate to what you are going through.

My dog Spike died 8/25 at the age of 14. He was diabetic also, had to have 2 injections of insulin a day for almost 3 years. I still miss him so much and think of him daily. I'm thankful that we had a wonderful life together and find peace knowing that he couldn't have had a better "mom". He was much loved in our family.

We buried him in the backyard and planted a rose bush to mark the spot.

My only advice to you is to allow yourself time to grieve. It took me almost a month to break the habit of going to prepare his injections, each morning and night. Although most people don't feel the way we do about our pets, there are many who do, like me.

Feel free to contact me if you want a sympathetic ear.

Take care.

Melinda B
240/232.5/150
Atkins 10/12/03

Hi Shelley!!

Just want to drop by & let you know I am thinking of you!!

Hope you have a Good day!!

((HUGS))

Old age ain't no place for sissies.

-Bette Davis-..
215/179/160
36 Gone
19 to go!!

Melinda B,
Thank you for the kind words. I am still pretty much a basket case today, I think. Just can't seem to get her off my mind...and the house seems so empty. I've had lots of cats over the years, but she was just sooooo special.

Well, the weather has turned off a little blustery today.
I think I will cook some LC chili for dinner tonight.
I am not hungry though. Thought I would choke on dinner last night, but knew DH needed to eat, so I went to the rib place and brought home take out.

I have also completely come off caffeine as of Oct. 23rd.
I'm sure that's one reason my head is semi-pounding(the other is random jags of crying). Anyway, I plan on starting my weekly weigh ins again on Sunday. We'll see if the caffeine was the cause of my stalls(although when I started Atkins in Jan of this year, I stopped all caffeinated beverages and it didn't seem to matter).
Hopefully I will feel more like a member of the human race soon and get back in my groove...hibernating is still sounding like a viable option to me at the moment...heh

sg
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"if it ain't broke
don't fix it"
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