Emily, Emily, Emily... don't freak out. It'll be okay. Just get right back on today. You CAN do it!

Just a couple of thoughts...

Sometimes when I've been VERY good (like on a holiday) then I just binge later thinking "I deserve it, because I was so good." Don't know if that's what happened with you or not.

Also, reading through your post makes me wonder if you'd do better on CAD/CALP. If you could have some of these things 'legally', then maybe it would be easier not to binge every now and then. Something to think about.

Whatever you decide, I'm here for you girl. Just hang in there and take good care of yourself. You're worth it!

Debby

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Thanks Debby -

Yep - I think that was me.

I stayed up till 3:00am reading CAD last night (don't know how I'm going to stay awake today!) I'm going to make the decision this weekend whether or not to start this woe on Monday. It seems the way to go since I have these occasional intense, compelling cravings for high carby foods. What scares me about it are 2 things: 1. no snacking between meals allowed and 2. whether I could really lose weight after eating RMs. I'm going to get more info on the internet in the next few days and make a decision.

Yesterday was a good day:
B-chicken salad, one cup leaded, 2 cups decaf, cream
L-roast pork, steamed broccoli
S-1 oz cheddar
D-large mixed greens salad topped w/ chicken
S-2 oz almonds
water - 80 oz.
exercise - none (it was my off-day. I'm exercising 5 days/week)

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Current: Size 10
Goal: Size 8

Emily,

Congrats on a good eating day yesterday!

2 things quickly (since Mary does not want me on the computer)

1- CALP is not as structured as CAD (so it allows for snacks if you are hungry) and has a slightly different food list. If you would like to borrow that book from me, I'm sure we could arrange a time sometime today or tomorrow.

2-Believe it or not, I don't usually feel the need for snacks.

Okay, one more thing... about the RMs, you'd be surprised. Some people actually lose better when eating more carbs (my opinion based on what I've seen). And, remember, it's best to keep the RM balanced. This is emphasized more in the CALP book than CAD. Also, remember that you choose the type of carbs you have. I try not to have sweets every night. You may want to stay away from the refined carbs most of the time and only indulge every once in awhile.

Well, we can talk more later. Give me a call if you want.

Debby

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Debby -
Thanks for the offer of your CALP book. I'm actually going to buy it to add to my ever-growing LC library! (5 books so far). I want my own copy to mark up and refer back to. I've thought of little else today except what I'm going to do long-term. I've changed my mind 10 times. I've decided to hold off until next Wednesday or Thursday, when I will find out if this cycle worked on TTC. Of course, that would change everything.

It's comforting knowing you're here to help!



Today was another good day:
B-cereal, decaf
L-chicken salad, sauteed cabbage
S-cheddar, almonds, 1/4 Pria lc peanut butter bar (it was nasty)
D-hamburger patty, 2 cups salad w/ hard-boiled egg slices on top and creamy Italian dressing
Water-72 oz. so far and counting
Exercise-45 minute jog/walk

There will absolutely be no snacking tonight because I'm having bloodwork done tomorrow morning and need to fast for 12 hours (at 9 News Health Fair for you Colorado lc'ers). I'm anxious to compare my numbers to the pre-Atkins bloodwork done in January.

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Current: Size 10
Goal: Size 8

Didn't go thru with the blood/lipid analysis. There must've been 200 people in line outside the rec center! And who knows how many were waiting inside. I saw the line and turned around and went right back home. Oh well, I'll just wait till when I see my dr. in June or July.

I'm so excited - bought new running shoes this afternoon. Went to Boulder Running Company where they put you on a treadmill and analyze your gait and heel strike. Turns out I've been wearing the wrong shoe, not to mention the tread was all worn off, which I knew. I'm a "heavy" runner (nice, huh?) and need a stability shoe w/ slight motion control. I love, love, love these new sneakers (Brooks) and I bet I'll fly during my run tomorrow!

I wore shorts today for the first time since last summer. It got up to 81 today. I hate the way my legs haven't toned up much, despite the weight workouts and the running/walking. My calves have big muscles but are too big, and my thighs are still unsightly. I obviously have lost no weight in my legs. It all seems to come off my mid-section (tummy and waist). I hate that I'm a big girl. Always have been even when I was "skinny". I want a petite, rock-solid bod like BC's pictures.

Food today so far:
B-2 scrambled eggs, 3 slices bacon, decaf
L-Carl's Jr. LowCarb burger wrapped in lettuce (Mmmmm!)
S-roasted soy nuts, pepper jack cheese
D-?? Need lots of veggies, and probably leftover pork roast. Will fix fettucini for dh and ds.
Water-64 oz and counting

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Current: Size 10
Goal: Size 8

Just sitting here waiting for the sun to come up so I can try out my new running shoes...

Still weighing in at 148 :( . I sure would like to match my signature line again!

I have 5 more days till I can drop my carb level and aim for ketosis. Since TTC (trying to conceive), the weight loss has been painfully slow or nonexistent. I stay out of ketosis on the off-chance I might be preggars, then the 2 weeks I know I'm not I'll go back to induction-style eating. I wonder if this yo-yo'ing is messing with my body too much. I don't think so because eating only 35-40 carbs completely knocks me out of ketosis. That's not too much of a swing. MEN have it so much easier! My dh started his running routine again 2 weeks ago (he was laid up for almost a year after ankle surgery) and has visibly lost several pounds even though he eats high carb. And he can't understand why I don't lose faster - aargh.

Goal this week - more weight training.

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Emily
Current: Size 10
Goal: Size 8

The last few days waiting on whether or not TOM will come are killing me.

Yesterday was good - ate on plan except way too many almonds. Love those little devils. Had an awesome 55 minute jog/walk. I'm learning to jog on the downhill parts and walk the uphill
Drank all my water.

Just got bad news on my HP Photosmart printer. It's only 2 years old and the "internal software is corrupted" per the phone rep, who I had to pay $30 to even talk to. Ggrrrr. Of course, the warranty is only for 1 year. I don't think I'll ever buy HP brand again. Time to go printer shopping, because I have tons of digital pics I want to print for relatives. I thought of using one for my avatar, but don't want to look at myself everytime I log on to LCE!!!! (I do have one unobtrusively hiding in personal profile). Maybe I'll use one of my ds.

Still poring over my lc library wondering which plan will be my lifetime plan....

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Emily
Current: Size 10
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Emily,

I replied to your PM. Also thought I'd reply to another question here...

Quote:

Question - do you have to eat veggies w/ your breakfast? I guess so, as CAD says you need a veggie and a protein. I'm used to getting all my veggies in at lunch and dinner.

I don't always have veggies with my breakfast, but I've found that I lose better if I do. I'm getting more used to it.

Good luck on settling in on a lifetime plan. Of course you know my vote.

Talk to you again soon,

Debby

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I've just spent 1/2 hour reading everyone else's journals when I should be in bed!!!! I wonder what the allure is. My life isn't interesting enough?

Good day, I guess. No exercise, but I've had an odd unquenchable thirst all day. I quit counting water at 80oz. but have had a lot more than that. Maybe it's all the salt w/ the almonds I've been eating. Not buying those again for awhile.

B-Decaf, cereal
L-1/2 avocado, chicken salad (chicken, hb eggs,mayo,1tbsp Italian dressing)
S-pepper jack cheese, almonds
D-salad, 2 slices thin crust (as if that justifies it) pepperoni pizza. Long story, but my dinner of pork chops and cauliflower got ruined by a now funny family "emergency". I had nothing else defrosted so I ordered a pizza. I don't consider this a binge. It was planned Maybe I've subconsciously adopted CALP?! My husband was thrilled w/ the pizza.

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Emily
Current: Size 10
Goal: Size 8

Still no TOM....

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Current: Size 10
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Emily, got my fingers crossed for you. Also, just sent you a PM.
Have a great night!
Debby

Feeling a bit melancholy. Still no TOM, so did a pregnancy test. No question - it was negative. It's for the best, because the timing just isn't right. I have a huge family reunion December 27-30 in Houston that I don't want to miss. If I were pregant this time, my due date would be Christmas Eve!

Sooooo....time to drop my carbs back down for 2 weeks and see if I can break this stall!

After several beautiful days, it's gotten chilly again. It's in the 40's with rain predicted. So I'm not too psyched up for my run today! I've got to exercise, though, because I've slacked off the last 2 days. I think I'll just pack up ds in jog stroller and go for a nice, long, brisk walk. Don't feel like running. The weather matches my mood. Plus I feel fat and bloated. I'm sure that's because I ate 1/3 bag of pork rinds late last night.

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Current: Size 10
Goal: Size 8

I feel great today! All my bloating is gone and my energy is back. It's supposed to snow tonight, which I think is exciting! After living in Texas for 30 years, I can never get enough snow. An actual change of seasons is wonderful.

I'm not dropping my carb level too low "just in case", because still no TOM. Highly unlikely, though.

Yesterday:
B-Decaf, 2 scrambled eggs, 2 slices bacon
L-smothered pork with onion gravy, steamed broccoli w/ butter
S-Atkins Apple Crisp breakfast bar
D-Big green salad, 1 tbsp creamy Italian dressing, taco with Mission lc tortilla, 3-4 oz. pepper jack and jalapeno cheese
S-1/2 diet Sprite
Water-80 oz

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Current: Size 10
Goal: Size 8

Forgot to add that I had my blood pressure taken at the dentist's office this morning, and it was normal (122/72). This is great news because at my pre-Atkins physical in January, I had hypertension. They were going to put me on medication if it didn't improve by my checkup in 2 months. My dr. wants to see me every 6 months while I'm on Atkins. As if I'll ever be "off" it? Actually, I think they're doing they're own little study on lc diets. They were very supportive of me, and even had a nurse come talk to me who had been on Atkins for 18 months and dropped 55 pounds.

So this put me in a good mood despite the fact that I have to get another crown. I have such bad luck with my teeth, since having a bad accident 6 years ago which necessitated 8 crowns. But other than that, my teeth are in great shape, no cavities, and my gums are healthy.

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Current: Size 10
Goal: Size 8

Emily,

Looks like you're doing well. Congrats on all the good "health" news. I see that you got your display name changed. Yeah! (it threw me for a minute!).

Have a great day! Enjoy the snow! My DH told my DD this morning that they could make a snowman tomorrow if it snows enough. After that, she just kept saying "see nosman"... was a little hard to explain that there wasn't one and that it had to snow first before we could make one.

Take care,

Debby

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