What a weekend. Did great on the exercise, and that's about the only thing. How in the world does reverse psychology work when applying it to yourself? I was just going to walk, but ended up having the 2 best runs in a long time. There must've been an organized 5-K this weekend, because the trails were marked w/ a course. I ran this, plus walked some. So ran 3.2 miles and walked to cool down.

The eating didn't go so well. Went out to eat Sat. night, and had blackened catfish, shrimp, and a salad. But the meal came with macaroni and cheese, and not the blue box kind. I had a taste, then another, then another... Oh man, was it good. Then after that, lc was toast, so why not try some of freshly baked french bread?

So today I made some MiniCarb snickerdoodles. They really satisfy the sweet tooth, but I won't be making these for a long while because I couldn't stop at eating 2! DS loved them.

Anyway, had a good conversation with DH at dinner on Saturday. He completely understands where I'm coming from with the whole 24/7 caregiver thing. We've come up with some short term fixes and some long term changes. I'm so glad I didn't lash out last week, because we had a good time complementing each other on the things we do well and laughing about the things we suck at! I was very open about what's been stressing me out lately, and he just gave me a big hug and we came up with ways to change things. I think we got at the root of the problem too. I thought it unfair that I've given up everything career-wise to raise ds, and dh has given up nothing. That's an oversimplification and not really reality. Bottom line: I made the choice to be a stay-at-home mom, and I'm proud of that choice. I felt selfish working when I didn't have to, and dreaded dropping ds off at daycare. I miss the work environment, and the ego-inflation and brain exercising and adult comraderie that went along with it. Not to mention "getting away". But right now I need to be with my son, who is my life. Dh is going to give me more "me" time, and I'm going to work on being content with my choices and feeling like I'm doing something worthwhile.

This week I'm going back to KISS eating, and am going to try and dump some weight quickly before having to raise my carbs again while TTC.

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Emily
Current: Size 10
Goal: Size 8

I've been at Induction-level carbs for 2 days now and feel great!
Monday:
B-Decaf, eggs, bacon
L-Chicken salad, leftover baked chicken leg, 1/2 avocado
D-Cabbage, 1/2 sausage link, romaine
S-1/2 cup lc ice cream (finished it off - won't buy again)

Tuesday:
B-Decaf, Atkins cereal, 3 bacon strips
L-Big romaine salad, 1/2 avocado, hardboiled egg, cheddar slices
S-sf jello w/ whipped cream
D-roast beef, spinach salad, lc biscuit (Minicarb brand-yuck!)

No exercise yet this week, unless you count major housecleaning and gardening. Actually emptied out entire fridge, removed all shelves and drawers, washed in hot soapy water, windexed, and put back in. My refrig is so clean now I hate to put food in it! Ever since beginning lc, food rarely goes bad before I have a chance to eat it. Before, fruits and veggies would just rot.

My caladiums and snapdragons have bit the dust. I need to find something hardier for zone 5. I thought the caladiums would do OK because I have them under a tree that gets little to no sun.

I've got my energy level up enough to exercise today - will do 40-45 minutes jogging/walking.

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Emily
Current: Size 10
Goal: Size 8

Meals look good! I have to clean my fridge before I go on vacation--DH won't keep it that way--but then I can "yell" at him about not doing his part while I was away! LOL His big problem is making sandwiches on the door and making messes and not wiping them up! BRAT!!!!

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Lori

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2 more good eating days - if you disregard the pork rinds I just ate. I had to do an experiment to see which brand is better. Bought Mission and Baken-ets. Opened both bags. They taste pretty much the same. Not too enamored with either.

Wednesday:
B-Decaf, Atkins cereal
L-Spinach salad, grilled chicken
S-SF Jello w/ whipped cream
D-Brussels sprouts, sausage link

Thursday:
B-Decaf, Atkins cereal, 2 strips bacon
L-Cabbage, roast beef, Apple Crisp bar
S-Pork rinds
D-Broccoli, ground beef, lettuce, salsa & cheese in lc tortilla

Jogged both days and got all my water in. Trying to do my best before weigh-in for Memorial Day Challenge tomorrow!

We're leaving Saturday morning for a little trip, and DH bought 2 big bags of beef jerky at Costco for car snacks, figuring it was something I could eat. He's a dear man, but the second ingredient listed was brown sugar! I made him take it to the office today for his snacking pleasure. He's been going overboard trying to be nice to me lately, and this kind of made him feel bad, like he can't do anything right.

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Emily
Current: Size 10
Goal: Size 8

Doing well today. Beautiful weather. I'm excited about the weekend because we're taking a leisurely drive down south to Alamosa to see the Great Sand Dunes and we're taking ds on a scenic railway trip. Looking forward to just relaxing and enjoying the scenery. The train ride includes lunch, so I'll stick to lc as much as possible. But I'm not going to be upset if I stray a little. It's a vacation after all!

Out of the mouths of babes: DS fell and skinned his knee. He was crying and I gave him a few m&m's to help him feel better. He balanced one on his hurt knee and said "much better mommy!"

I won't use food to make him feel better anymore, though. Could start a bad precedent. He needs to gain weight, though, and men don't usually use food like women do, right?

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Emily
Current: Size 10
Goal: Size 8

I made that realization with DD when she was about 3 and stopped immediately too. Her passion used to be cookies (graham crackers) and I would offer her a couple of squares while I was cooking or when she was upset or whenever, then realized that I was not helping her make good choices--one of my low-fat binges actualy brought that realization on--but still it stopped me form doing it to her--and it has worked to this day! She gets treats occasionally--but they are just that treats--if she wants a snack she can have a freeze pop or something else, but it is seldom she gets a treat. I seldom get one too!

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Lori

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JUNE 2004

A new month. A new commitment. This month, I'm going to focus on what I can control, like what I eat and getting enough exercise, especially weight training. I'm going to quit worrying about what the scale says. Thus, I'm deleting signature weight references for awhile.

Great Memorial Day weekend. Went to Great Sand Dunes National Monument which was pretty cool. The dunes looked so out of place in the heart of the mountains! Climbing up the dunes was a great thigh and calf workout, like walking along the beach, only going vertical! Then we drove south almost to the New Mexico border and rode the Cumbres & Toltec Scenic Railroad. This was beautiful and very relaxing. It went through the San Juan mountains where the terrain ranged from green meadows to steep gorges. We saw Canadian geese and elk and ducks. And the streams and river were running fast and strong with the fresh snowmelt. I hated for it to end. DS behaved perfectly the whole weekend. That made things even nicer.

I stayed lc pretty much the whole time. The hot lunch they served 1/2 way thru the train trip made it easy for me - had turkey, green beans, and sweet potatoes, but skipped the mashed potatoes and rolls. The hot meal was awesome because it was pretty darned cold up there at 10,000 feet. I did eat some of dh and ds's chocolate cake and cinnamon roll!

So, beginning tomorrow I'm going to do strict Induction for one week to cleanse my system. My goal for June is no cheating and very few lc treats or lc pre-made stuff like tortillas and bread. I've been relying on these a little too much. Went grocery shopping today and stocked up on tons and tons of veggies, some meat, cheese and eggs. They didn't have any good-looking fish so I'll have to get some of this later this week. I have a big party to go to in Chicago June 26th so this will give me motivation to get my arse in gear!!!

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Emily
Current: Size 10
Goal: Size 8

I too am getting strict for hte next two weeks anyway--I leave for my vacation ont he 15th of June and I want to be down another 6lbs before I leave--that is 3 a week which meand strict on the no high carb junk and no LC treats! WE will do the next two weeks together--what--one of induction??? I will be swiming 4X this week 5X if you count the second one on Wednesday so I am exercising 5X this week and eating induction all week!!! Blast the fat off--clean out the system of all junk added the last few months and see if I can't get to 175 by 15 June!

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Lori

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Day 2 of Induction - going great so far. Been eating eggs, grilled chicken, tons of salad, squash, sausage link, and cheese for 2 days. Had 88 oz of water yesterday, and will exceed that today. Jogged 2 miles and walked one yesterday, and today walked around the North Pole for 3 hours. I have no physical cravings, only mental. I need to keep busy so I don't think about food.

Even though I boasted I was giving up the scale for a month, I dug it out and weighed this am. Why do I put myself through this? No loss. I thought for sure some water weight would be gone.

DH is out of town - won't cook for dinner. He grilled a bunch of stuff for me outside this weekend so I'd be stocked up while he was gone .

DS is feeling hot - I hope it's just from being outside all day and he's not coming down with something.

I'm going to sit here and read posts for awhile because I have strong cravings for GFIC - 7 carbs! Help!!

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Emily
Current: Size 10
Goal: Size 8

NO.NO.NO--not o the scale, no to the IC, no no no!!!! LOL Day two of the rest of your life!! You can do this Emily! DD stepped on teh scale tonight and wanted me to as well--knowing evening is teh highest point of the day and that I have just finished 22oz of water I stepped on and got applause form the young one--even at 184--which consequently is about 1.5lbs lighter than a normal enening weight for hte last two weeks! All this over the discussion of a cat whisker I found on the floor in my bathroom! She was totally fascinated and yet worried about the cat who lost it too--being unable to discern which of the two we have it came from and why it fell out and what will happen to the place on his or her face where it came from--It was funny! Anyway she stepped on it and then wanted me to so I did! Didn't want to though!

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Lori

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Hah Huskers! Applause when you step on a scale - what a concept! My ds yells out "29 pounds!" every time I step on the scale, because that's what he weighs and I always call out the number when he gets on. If only.

An almost perfect day:
B-3 cups decaf, cream, 2 eggs, 2 little sausages
L-2 cups Romaine, 1/2 avocado, 1 tbsp Italian dressing, 2 cheddar slices, 6 pepperoni rounds
S-1 piece sf gum, 1 cup 1/2 strength GFIC (3 1/2 carbs) Ooops :o
D-baked chicken, 1 cup broccoli

Today was all about ds: stroller ride, storytime at the library, haircut, riding scooter, hundreds of books, play-doh sculptures. He starts preschool on Monday. Need to buy a backpack and pool shoes for him this weekend. Maybe I can score at the garage sales tomorrow am!

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Emily
Current: Size 10
Goal: Size 8

Emily, that is so funny about the "29 pounds". Lucky me... I'm only 27 pounds. Mary does the same thing.

I'd say you had a good day today, and you should be proud of yourself for going back to 'real' induction for a week. I'm sure it's not easy once you've settled into OWL.

Just wanted to stop in, give you a little pat on the back, and say "Good going!" :great:

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Debby

Thanks Deb!

Quick check in - gotta go to bed.

B-3 cups decaf, 2 breakfast sausages, 2/3 cup Atkins cereal
L-Grilled chicken salad from Chick Fil A (I think these are better than McD's)
S-Cheddar slices
D-4 grilled shrimp, 1 cup steamed broccoli
water -80 oz

Feeling good. Not much energy, though. Aborted jog late this morning because too hot and tired when I was only 10 minutes into it.

Nighty night....

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Emily
Current: Size 10
Goal: Size 8

Hope the GArage Saling went well! Some days are like that--I had my plans to work out aborted two days in a row, one by birthday preparations that took far longer than anticipated and one day by thunderstorms! I will get back into it Monday and go all week--will take DD and let her swim with me for part of the time while doing laps! She can manage two or three before she is tired--will have her read until I am finished then she can get in with me and we will swim and practice diving and all. She is a good swimmer! I need the exercise and it is an excuse to leave the house!

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Lori

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This had been the morning from Hell.

I got up and the cat had puked all over the rug in front of the stairs. Our cat is 16 years old with kidney disease and i'm afraid her time may be coming up. She vomits about every other day, and the spots do not come up from the carpet. She prefers the carpet to the wood floors! Then I went outside to get the newspaper, and it had blown all down the street. The bag must've burst when the paperboy threw it on the driveway. So I'm walking down the street in my pajamas, it's windy as all get out, and I'm trying to pick up all the newspaper pieces as they blow out of my reach. I'm climbing in people's flower gardens and getting cut with rose thorns. Meanwhile, I had made coffee before running out to quickly get the paper before anyone saw me in my jammies, and I didn't put the pot on the coffee maker's hot plate! So when I came back in there was coffee all over the counter and on the floors, and in the tiny space between the counter and refrigerator. Had to wrap paper towels around a broom handle to try and mop up there. And the huge brick of cheese from last night's dinner was still on the counter. This is the big Tillamook brick from Costco that costs $5!!! I put it back in the fridge, but I think i should throw it out because I'm sure bacteria built up overnight.

I think Induction level carbs have denied nutrients to my brain cells, because obviously I'm missing a few. Maybe I should move on to OWL?

So with all this I've missed church, and will have to go to 6:00 Mass tonight.

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Emily
Current: Size 10
Goal: Size 8