looks like rain any minute
gloomy
got 4 loads clothes washed
drank 3 cups coffee
ate 2 egg and sausage muffin thingie
drank 32 oz water
cried about 30 of them out
those who does not have depression has no ideal how hard it is
i never knew befor until i got it
i wish i was like other ppl and did not cry so much i could have filled a river by now
its so hard to smile when in side you are dieing you feel like you are falling in this deep dark pit and you keep falling trying to grab on to something anything to stop you
and you never hit bottom you just keep falling
you can even be haunted in your sleep

i am trying so hard not to run and eat my way out of this
i guess i will take my shower you know some-days when like this i just dont care if i shower or take care of my self at all
i hope i dont get that bad this round
i have to go to town with hubby tonight and do all my in laws shopping they have a list arm long and what stores to go get the stuff at going to be fun
got to make my self get ready and not cry

Donna

http://home.bellsouth.net/p/PWP-starfire



Friends are quiet angels who lift us to our feet when our wings have
trouble remembering how to fly

425/360/?

ewwww over 3 weeks still 367

Donna

http://home.bellsouth.net/p/PWP-starfire



Friends are quiet angels who lift us to our feet when our wings have
trouble remembering how to fly

425/360/?

The scale will move soon if you stick wit it. Keep up the great work!

Good luck all!!
Seesko



242/226/135

"What my mind can envision; my body can master!"

thanks seesko
thats the whole thing sticking to it !
yesterday was bad day for me and had to do so
much for everyone else
and when we was in town ( town is over 30 miles away 2 lane roads and curvy)
hubby wanted to eat at KFC
i got chicken green beans and gave slaw to hubby pulled all the breaded skin off hubby loves it
also ate some chicken livers i got all the breading off i could
when we was shopping i kept getting sugar free cookies and cakes
i was in a pis mood and wanted sweets!
would tell me self its sugar free so you
cheat you will get back on track TOMORROW TOMORROW TOMORROW!
THATS IS ALWAYS IN BACK OF MY HEAD
i have sugarfeee peanut putter cups
a small white cake from bakery covered in thick white frosting
some chocolate chip cookies
oh and 2 bags of low carb candy and 2 bars
by time i got to the counter

i had put back the cake p-nut butter cups and the cookies
i did keep the 2 bags of Russell stover candy
truffle cups and p-nut butter cups
good thing about these i can only eat one!
thats it 1 or i live in the bathroom
i will but in the refrigerator and get one now and them
i also got 5 Atkins indulge bars
they will go in the cabinet and i am pretty good with these also
last ones i had lasted a couple months
but if i want something sweet i have it
and it is like comfort knowing its there
i try to but them in town they cost to much here and i cant get them most of the time

i have not ate any of them yet
anyways came home from shopping had to unload my stuff then go to in laws unload all theirs and put it away then come put all mine away was about 10 pm
i was hungry again so i did over do it
i bought some carb options p-nut butter
and i have some LC bread had a nice PB&J sandwich was in all about 15 carbs

Donna

http://home.bellsouth.net/p/PWP-starfire



Friends are quiet angels who lift us to our feet when our wings have
trouble remembering how to fly

425/360/?

well i ate one of the truffles and was sooo good
i got to thinking i grabbed all the sweets up and put in a zip lock freezer bag and froze them that way i cant go on a sweet bing my teeth cant handle the cold!

Donna

http://home.bellsouth.net/p/PWP-starfire



Friends are quiet angels who lift us to our feet when our wings have
trouble remembering how to fly

425/360/?

Donna!!! What a great idea to freeze the stuff! Personally, I think you did just fine! You didn't buy half the stuff you originally picked out (good job!) and the stuff you did buy is a heck of lot better than the full carb, full sugar stuff. Ya done good!

Jen
175/129/120

well its Sunday day to weigh
dont see why i even weigh
still 367
eating my veggies and drinking my water
i need to be more active
i bought one on the thingies that count your steps and how far you walk
for the last 3 days i wore it
at night it is always little over 2 miles i walk in the house each day
that is not alot at all
i am Trying to get hubby to build a ramp
into the house lol i tell him see your mother can come visit them (shh she would not come over lol ) i tell him she could ride her jazzy up it but really its for me!
my inlaws have one for her to get in and out
i dont use it every-time and i would not use (ours if i had one) every-time i take the steps every time i can but some days i dont think i can get up the steps it takes me a while
i walk fine but my knees and ankles man do they hurt and try to buckle going up and down steps
i find my self laying in the bed off and on during the day not napping just have to get off my-legs i can lay for 15 - 30 mins then go again i dont understand it at all why do they hurt more now then befor i lost the weight
anyways still no weight lost
but whats new!!!

Donna

http://home.bellsouth.net/p/PWP-starfire



Friends are quiet angels who lift us to our feet when our wings have
trouble remembering how to fly

425/360/?

i hate this weather!
70+ one day then 60 and rain then back up
and today we are 36 and said look for snow
dont you just love mother nature

hubby is home today from work
he hurt his arm working his guts out for his parents again

need to go buy some more water today
i still am not cheating
i have slacked back some on my veggies last couple days no excuse beside lazy
i have to watch my coffee if i dont it slips back up to a pot a day !
try to keep it at 2 cups but i notice i keep
getting a 3rd and most times a 4th cup in

i wish i could see a difference or even see a .5 pound gone!

i am sneaking a weight in in the middle of the week to see if anything is different
i have to stop that this is driving me crazy!
i have had 1 cup coffee and 2 oh my muffins
i reworked the recipe so i think they are 1.8 each now i dont have the paper in front of me
and i had 2 egg sausage cheese muffins also
16 oz water man i am behind today!
rambling all over the place today
someday my in sides scream that how i call it lol and is like my thoughts are ping ponging balls bouncing all over in me and i have to just let them out so rambling it is

Donna



http://home.bellsouth.net/p/PWP-starfire



Friends are quiet angels who lift us to our feet when our wings have
trouble remembering how to fly

425/360/?

wow nice new place but man some getting use to lol
i dont like the active topic now
i am sure i will in time once i get use to it

Andrea has worked so hard on it
and it is nice

i have not doen much today had company for hours and lots of phone calls
hubby did not work yesterday
so house was in a big mess
got some of it done

and i let my self get to hungry today
need to go cook befor i eat my computer!!!!

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Donna

http://home.bellsouth.net/p/PWP-starfire



3/22/02 425+
8/22/02 342
Here I go Again
1/10/05 401.5
1/16/05 389.5
2/06/05 382.5

wonding what to write today
lets see
still eating right
water is fine just shy of a gallon most days
veggies is good also
Hercules (my scale) told me 365.5 today
i dont believe him we will see if i get the same reading for 3 days he likes to lie and tease me!
2 days ago it was still 367
i have been hunting over the house looking for my paper i wrote down all my measurements on
i found it so looks like i am down from
61 to 56 on my waist
71 to 69 hips
if i have the right fricking paper
seems to me i have a 2nd paper with it wrote down i have to wait to hubby gets home to see if he knows
i just cant get excited over it at all
because i know i will wake up tomorrow and be back to 367!
PLEASE PLEASE if anyone reads this and is thinking of cheating DONT!
IS NOT WORTH IT !!!
it is so hard to get back
i remember when i first started i felt so guilty that i was breezing Thur it and nothing stalled me even if i had a little cheat here and there
now look at me this is very depressing!
i am never going to get a fricking dress for chars wedding ewww
OK not going there and crying all day again lol i should have river beds running down my face

i ate
1 of my muffins
1 egg/sausage muffin
1 cup coffee
vitamins
Atkins Accel (lets see how it does for me)
of and vet little water so far maybe 8 oz

lunch not sure yet

dinner will be pork chops
and mashed cauliflower and
Brussels sprouts

i have lots to do today
char's boy Friends asked me to hem 2 pairs of his pants so i have that To do
and i need to work on chars daughters quilt
lol oh how i miss my sewing room!!!!!
OK rambled enough for now

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Donna

http://home.bellsouth.net/p/PWP-starfire



3/22/02 425+
8/22/02 342
Here I go Again
1/10/05 401.5
1/16/05 389.5
2/06/05 382.5

Hi Donna, I sent you a private topic.

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Hey, Star. My guess is that you are more active now that you have lost weight without even thinking about it and that is why your legs and ankles hurt more. JenJen

Hey! Just keeping my fingers crossed that the 1 1/2 lbs stayed off! I'm rooting for you! You are doing great and you SOUND optomistic too,,,it will happen!

thanks for crossing your fingers you can let then loss now
back to 367
i cant stop crying i am so mad !
mad at my self if i would have stayed with this WOE and not fell off so many times after i went on vac i bet i would be at my 300 mark ewwwwwwww
i cant even lose a fricking pound now !
it is not worth it at all
this is driving me crazy
everyday i fight so hard not to eat some junk food that is ALL over my house
yesterday i was cleaning and picking up after hubby and he had a big bag of chips rolled up on the coffee table i picked them up walking to the kitchen ohhhhh i wanted so bad and came close to reaching in just getting 1 what would 1 hurt! but i didn't
same thing last night when cooking for him
baked potato's not 1 but 2
every place every turn in this fricking house is CARBS! chips cakes cookies candy bars and mac and cheese it is a fricking carb store
i work so hard not to eat them not to think of them but does it pay off bhit no!
i know i am not going to lose 10 pounds over night thats fine but come on 1/2 a pound and it stay off would make be happy!
what am i going to have to do to get my body to lose go on a air diet!

yesterday i ate

2 of my carb muffins
2 egg/sausage muffins

big bowl of broccoli cauliflower
with little hot pepper jack cheese on it
and butter

1 4 oz cup of dannon L/C yogurt
2 small slim Jim's (just started eatting them)
3/4 gallon water
2 cups coffee has 2 pk splenda and 2-2 hc and 1/2&1/2

[This message was edited by KyStar on 03-12-04 at 01:20 PM.]

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Donna

http://home.bellsouth.net/p/PWP-starfire



3/22/02 425+
8/22/02 342
Here I go Again
1/10/05 401.5
1/16/05 389.5
2/06/05 382.5

oh what a hard day yesterday
i wanted to eat everything
i was mad fed up pissed off at this WOE
things are not working for me on it any more
no energy not losing weight
cried all day and still Crying today
but i did not break you have no ideal how many times i had a bag of chips or the loaf of bread in my hand
hubby got chicken and rolls and potato wedges last night ohhhhhhhhhh i wanted the rolls and wedges so bad
but i ate brussel sprouts and chicken
i wonder why i torcher my self so bad
whats it for
use to be so i felt better and was losing weight
but why now
whats the reason
yeah i know to feel better to lost the weight but it is not working!
and pressure of this sucks !
i need no i have to lose!
so i can get a dress for chars wedding
if i dont lose no way will i find one
i am just going to tell her i cant be in her wedding
again my fricking fat ass is going to stop me from doing something i want
ok thats it for now

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Donna

http://home.bellsouth.net/p/PWP-starfire



3/22/02 425+
8/22/02 342
Here I go Again
1/10/05 401.5
1/16/05 389.5
2/06/05 382.5