Thread: kystar's rambling

Donna,
So sorry to hear about your mom. Hope she does well with by-pass and heart valve replacement surgery. I will keep you all in my prayers. When is the surgery going to be? I'll be thinking about ya
(((hugs)))

Shelley

Donna - I'll pray for your mom too. Hope everything else is going well for you.

Thanks Shelley and Rob
we will find out the 18th when the op will be
My mother is not wanting it done here and I cant blame her
The hospital is crap
Yesterday I ordered me a queen size air bed holds up to 600 pounds
One of them taller ones 22 1/2 in I think
No more couch for me at moms !

I am trying to be better with my eating I am doing so-so
gain 5 pound lose 5 pound back and forth
I signed up for the T-G challenge said I wanted to lose 12 pounds
I hope I can do it
I know I would lose more weight if I walked but my ankle kills me
Bought a ankle brace at wal-mart last night trying to see if it will help
Me and my nieces went shopping at 12 last night got home about 3 am
In the perfect world my girls would live near me I miss then so much
One lives in bluefiled VA the other in christanburg? VA
When they are here they make sure I get out of the house and take me shopping for my l-c food
Jessica knew I was wanting a charm bracket for years and for mothers day she showed up with me one with a little heart that said mom on it and for my birthday she got me a butterfly charm
Both girls had a hard time growing up with step parents they kind of stick to me and think of me like a mom
oh boy am i getting off tract AGAIN LOL
anyways ankle is not wanting to support me
It's getting harder and harder to go up and down steps
I am just so lazy when here at the house by my self and thats 90% of the time
Lazy and depression sucks!
But I will get thur it I always do somehow lol

donna.. my husband had cath and open heart in november... just had ANOTHER cath and a stent on tuesday and another 2 stents put in on wednesday... it is scary waiting for the time it takes to do.. so far he has done okay all three times (although the bi passes didnt stay open and thus the reason for the stents) he has never had heart problems before november... and then suddenly this ..:-(
he has yearly physicals... no mention of any heart problems.. he walks a ton and eats good things..:-( they say it isnt his diet.. for some reason his veins are SCARing... what the HECK? they dont know what causes it.. (two surgeons told him this..
at ANY rate.. my thoughts and prayers are with you and your mom.. hang in there girl..

thanks Kim for stopping by
i hope everything will be fine with your hubby now
you and yours will also be in my prayers
it is just to much here right now
it always seems to pour
like i said befor mom sick trying to help her
both my in-laws sick fil worst then mil
i had to call hubby out of the mines today to come home his father was took to the hospital today
he is not going to make it long i dont think 2 months will be a wonder
hubby has to shave him change his catheters? bag
he is not even getting out of bed any more
mil cant do much after her stroke
i get a call today my sister needs me to go to Lexington with her tomorrow
she is sick has pacemaker on waiting list for heart and liver
she had hepatitis so on so on she has to have all her teeth cut out 24 of them
so tomorrow morning we go to Lexington for her blood work and stuff stay in a hotel
next morning she goes under and they remove them all
her b-p always bottoms out i am scared and i will be there alone but
we do what we have dont we
so i will be leaving sometime tonight to go to sissy's
maybe i will be home Friday we will see
i hope nothing happens to my fil when i am gone
oh and tomorrow mom see the heart surgeon to find out when her op is


will check in when i get back

donna...
oh my... i have to tell you that i feel for you... when my dad died he was living with us.. emphasema ... bad stuff..
then five years later my mom died... before that she had heart problems.. then cancer.. then cancer again... eye surgury that messed her up.. and finally took care of her (lived with us for bout 6 years... ) changing depends.. giving baths... feeding through tubes... even (ohmyGOD ) had to give her suppository for yeast infection (hospice be DAMNED no daughter should have to do that stuff for her mom and no mom should have to suffer that humiliation) the *hospice nurses* didnt do much other than a bath .. all the icky stuff was up to me and hubby.. (he was SENT FROM GOD that man! :-) )
then my husband has started having heart problems... operations and such... brother in law died recently too.. then more heart problems for hubby...
its a wierd nitemarish life sometimes...
BUT... that being said... i lived through it.. i am STILL living through it... and god willing i will continue living through it..
lifes not fair sometimes... and sometimes it is UNBEARABLY hard and heartbreaking.. BUT you will make it through it donna.. i am the biggest baby and I HAVE HUNG ON... you will too... even though somedays you dont WANT to keep trying..
god works through people who have kind hearts .. big hearts... helpful people who are loving and giving...PEOPLE like you donna!
DO what you can... help with what you can... and thats all you can do..
take care and know that others with struggles that seem overwhelming have you in their thoughts and prayers...
kim

Donna,
Oh, my goodness...bless your heart! Sending good thoughts to you and your family.
The Heavenly Father will not put more on you than you can bear. I know sometimes we feel we are at our limit, for sure.
Hang in there, and above all, take care of yourself!
(((hugs and prayers for you)))

Shelley

Thank you everyone for stopping by
I got home last night what a trip!
Sister is doing OK she is hurting they pulled 25 teeth
she can not eat anything but rice gravy mash potatoes things I cant eat
I left her at my moms I stayed one night there
To help out then I had to come home my ankle went out again
I left home tue evening and stayed at my sisters
We left wed morning 5 am got to Lexington at little after 9 am we went early to hospital
Sister was suppose to be at hospital at 11 for blood work then we was going
Across the street to the Kentucky Inn ( it sucks ) for the night
Well when we got to the hospital they looked at all Sissy's test on her heart and did not like some of them so they redid them!
the hospital paid for 1 night at the Inn so we did not have the room to after the test's!
I think my right arm is 6 in longer then the other
I dragged my bag all over that place till after 2 that afternoon
My sister crammed all her clothes in my case
I had my purse my sisters 2 purses one for her junk one for all her meds and papers
Sandy valley transportation took us and was suppose to come get us
I tried to get them to let me pay for a room for a extra night and let her rest but the ******* would not they said the order papers was signed for Thur
and then they was not there when sis got out
We took a nice yellow cab home!!
good thing her med card had to pay for it
it was $600!!!! 300 here and 300 back for them
one good thing my other sister called me in the hotel and said I just called up front and paid for you a extra night so you dont have to drag all that stuff around at hospital she said she did not care if we did not use the room but she did not want me to be caring all the stuff!
I love that woman !
so we went to hosp at 10 we was told to be there early she was going in op room at 11:30 yeah right at little after 2 she went in it takes 1 hour for the op and then the doc was going to come talk to me I am still waiting on him!
after 2 hours (she is know for her b/p to drop out ) I was so worried the lady at the waiting room desk was gone
and a sign was there if phone rings answer it well I looked at her papers on her desk and I got some ex # and started dialing to I got someone
they told me she was OK and out and they took her back to the other side and the nurse would call me from there
Bless her heart she had me taking pictures of her and her swelled face
she is going to send then to all the family at x-mass with a note all i want for x-mass is all my teeth she said she will start a adopt a tooth fund any one donates a tooth gets it engraved ( she dont have the money for her a set of teeth 41 and no teeth :( ) she is always the life of the party
there she sat hurting no teeth bloody gal's sticking out her mouth and what does she do
she winks at cab driver and writes him a note asking him out on a date!! lol
in rite aid when She signed for her meds she singed Linda poop head!
I HAVE LAUGHED MY BUTT OFF LAST FEW DAYS!
she tried to get the nurse to take my camera in the op room and get a picture of her knocked out lol they would not so she had me get them when she came out
I waited to I got home and just cried and cried she is so sick hurts all the time
on so many meds she is hooked bad
She had so many things wrong with her We all know she will never get a heart
OK this is where i stop rambling thanks for listening


lmao she is a nut

donna... your sister sounds as wonderful as you do..;-)
hope things settle down for you soon... and gosh darn it... i think i want to buy an engraved tooth!

Thanks Kim
My sister Linda is a fire cracker !
She is doing some better
My mom called today seems the Doc wants her in Lexington on the 8th
To redo some test that was done here in pike county
The doc's there do not agree with some of the test
So looks like I will be gone again for about a week
Two days to go to Lexington and 3 days to take care of her after the
Heart cath again after that the doc will tell us when her op is so I will be back again sometime after that
I ordered me a air bed when I got back from moms last time
It came in when I was gone with sis to Lexington
It is just shy of 2 foot tall holds up to 600 pounds queen size
That bad boy is going with me this time!
I am not sleeping on her couch that is to short for me!
Just hope I can do better on my eating when gone
When i was gone with sister it was a spur of the moment for me to go
I found out that morning she needed me to go with her I was short on money
So was she we pooled what we had and sad to say but high carb foods is cheaper
When you are eating out of vending machines and takeout
Also sis was always telling oh come on sis its my last dinner that I can chew
so i let her get what she wanted
Today I have just ate 2 sausages patties and 2 eggs 2 cups coffee

:( I need to work on my web page I have not did a rambling since July 23 eek
I wrote Little yesterday but I am lazy lol

Donna,
(((hugs)))
Take care of you, too!
Sending good thoughts your way

Shelley

Hi there Kystar!

Was reading in your journal and you mentioned you were around Pike county. That is interesting....I was just in that area for a wedding in June. We stayed in Whitesburg.....I guess that is close to you.

I read some your journal.....hang in there!

Wendi

Thanks Shelley, Wendi for stopping by
Whitesburg is hmm 1-1 1/2 hours away Wendi
I am on tip of Pike County going into Virginia


I feel like crap!
I don?t handle visits from aunt flow very well
Never have I had an easy visit always and this one is a banger
Major cramps mood swings swelling lying in bed with heat pad
Drinking hot teas it has been over 5+ years since last one
Anyone want to shoot me please!
Yesterday I had to baby sit for hubbys great aunt she has a daughter who is in her 60?s and she cant be left alone I was there 10 hours!!!!
I don?t have to do anything when I am there just sitting watch TV get Linda something to eat
She can get up and walk a few steps to her potty chair and back to bed but that?s it
I took a book with me but it makes the day go by so slow!


This T-G challenge is not going good for me at all first week I was gone to Lexington with sis and went off track I would not even get on scales to days after now TOM and scales tells me 5 pounds gain I am not claming that!


It is getting harder and harder to eat right here at home all this cooking for in laws and hubby is getting to be to much but father in law is still so sick not eating much so we are cooking all the time trying to get him to eat
And he is an old southerner who wants his taters gravy cornbread soup beans just about every meal
Just like my hubby!
I am always up to my pits in some very high carb foods
I am coming to the conclusion that I am not going to lose any more weight
That I am going to stay fat forever


I had a dream last night
I was on a ship a big one and it was going down everyone was in the water
Lifeboats was all around getting people in the boats
They came to me (I am scared of deep water I cant swim)
And the people in the boat was yelling at me and the ones wanting to help me
They was saying mean things about my size and telling me I cant get in the boat because when I try to climb in I will tip the boat over and kill them all
Whales belong in the water in my dream I was let go and left there to drown
I woke up crying
So no cruises for me!


Anyways on the 8th if sister don?t go with mom to Lexington I have to
I so hope sis can go!
But either way I have to stay with mom after for a few days and help her
I just want to know when they are going to do the operation on her heart
I will be gone for a while then also but my older sister in Detroit said she will come and help me with mom if she does that I will get to come home for a few days so that will be good

guess i just have to wait and see