you go! what a great attitude, april. so happy to see you feeling positive. we're here for you.

Okay.....as promised, in a thread I started here earlier today, I'm giving an update on this new experiment of mine.

At precisely 2:08pm, the hunger pang hit. I just consumed half of a grilled chicken breast and lots of water. I stopped eating the chicken breast when I no longer felt hunger. The chicken breast is about the size of my hand (and I have a large hand), and it satiated my hunger. I still have a can of green beans and half the chicken breast left when the hunger hits again.

I feel like I'm in control once again. This is kewl.

Now I'll sit here and see if the craving for sweets hits. It hasn't yet and it's now 2:17pm.

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Good for you. I've never had that craving after eating, so wouldn't understand what you have been going through. Must be awful. If you have found a way to get around that, its great!!!!

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April

I'm glad to see you are making 'you' a priority. I always look forward to your posts. You're just so....honest and straightforward. Good luck with the upcoming surgery.

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7:10pm and I'm still not hungry. Every voice within my head is screaming: "But, you hafta eat dinner! You've only eaten half a chicken breast today."

I'm ignoring them. For once in my life I'm going to listen to what my body is saying instead of to the voices of "reason".

I'm going for a walk at 7:30. To hell with what the kids need or don't need. I need to walk.

Man, I've really developed an attitude today, eh?

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A wonderful attitude. Its time for ME! and it should be. Those kids should be able to handle your taking some time off.

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I am just real glad that you are back! The great "me" attitude is just a bonus! I for one missed you very much. (((hugs))) Anita

Did 35 minutes of walking last night and felt great when I finished. Didn't really wanna stop, but I had to make sure that the dishes were done, had to make meatballs and hamburgers for the following days' lunches and dinners, and got Abby in the house and headed towards bed. She didn't make it until 9:15pm.

Then I went down the road to get gas in the car. I feel fortunate that I found it forr $1.86 per gallon. Came back home and finished putting the meatballs into the crockpot and tidied up the kitchen. Went upstairs, brushed my teeth, got into bed and flipped stations on the TV for awhile.

The walk invigorated me and I was wide awake until the hunger pangs finally hit at 10:30pm. I went downstairs and found leftover scambled eggs from the other day and two low carb polish sausages and ate those. A mild craving for sweets started. I suppose I ate too much protein in one sitting. I think that's what starts the cravings and gets my BGL's out of whack. I'm going to eat less protein and more vegetables when I'm hungry and see if that helps with the sugar cravings.

I have my hand surgery tomorrow but still plan on walking tomorrow night.

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hope your surgury went well april... thinking good thoughts for you and sending them your way... take care!

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Thanks for the good thoughts and well-wishes, everyone! This left hand doesn't hurt NEARLY as bad as the right one did. I'm sitting here typing this nearly as fast as I did prior to Thursday morning, with minimal pain (I can still feel the stitches pulling, yet there's no achiness as before). I mean, I even donned a rubber glove last night, wrapped my arm with Saran wrap and masking tape, and washed my hair without any pain!...(and I've got long hair, down to my waist...a lot of hair to wash). I'm going in to work early this morning. I know what awaits me. Two days off last week and there will be tons of paperwork for me.

Congratulate me, people. Today marks seven whole days that I've eaten well within my carb range, and have had not one bite of sugar -- natural or otherwise -- and I think my experiment in controlling my cravings has been tried, tested, and found successful. For me, too much protein at one sitting = sugar cravings.

I wish I would have known this two years ago...

Also, I'm down 7 pounds from last week at this time.

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April.
That is so wonderful. I'm glad you have found what is going to work for you.

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April,

Your experiment has been very enlightening for me...I am going to keep a closer eye on my protein intake and see if that helps with cravings. I'm really glad your recovery is going smoothly

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Scale said 211 this morning. I didn't believe it, so I tried it again a few moments later and it said 212. I'll take that.

Lots of things going on in my likfe stress-wise. July is always a bad month in our steel industry at work and there's always a temporary layoff, but this time, it's worse. Four guys from the plant will be laid off today. In addition, however, one of my office coworkers, Larry, was laid off yesterday, as was our maintenance man. Now there will only be 14 of us working at our little company. Our CEO and CFO will work two weeks in July without pay, they will be paying the car payments themselves on their company cars, as will the plant manager.

That's not a good sign.

I've always been told that my job is secure and that I'll be the last one standing should the doors ever close on the company. I believe that because I developed the website (www.ohkysteel.com) and as well as being the Administrative Assistant, I'm also the IT person. No one else there knows how to do what I do. I've also been told in the past by a different employer that no one is indispensible. He said: "April, put your finger into a glass of water, take your finger out and watch how quickly that hole fills up." No one is indispensible.

So, I've got that stress -- and then there's this other mess at home with the IRS crap still going on. I won't go into detail about it because the less I think of the ramifications, the better I'll be. I'm still itching and scratching from the stress, still taking antihistamines fomr time to time, but mainly I'm trying self help relaxation things and I've always got this thought foremost in my mind: "These are just things. If all of these material things go away, I've still got my health, my husband and his kids and their love, and I'm part of a family." Believe it or not, that helps me to see things from another point of view, and I relax. I remember clearly how it felt to be utterly alone, and I'm not alone any longer, and that makes me tremendously happy.

Enough of the stupid rambling. I have been eating comepletly on plan now for 11 days and that's amazing to me. I'm down 12 pounds since May 31st and that's even more amazing.

I get my stitches out of my hand today. Can't wait. Please ignore the typos in this post -- difficult to type with a wrist splint and ace bandage strapped to my palm.

Gotta get ready for work now...

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Oh, I forgot to add this....another stress is that John started working 3rd shift this week. It's odd to sleep alone again...and upsetting to wake up and think: "Where's my husband?"

LOL

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Well, the doc wouldn't take the stitches out yesterday. Says for me to come back Friday and he'll take them out because yesterday was just too soon.

*sigh*

But I don't hafta wear that fumbling wrist splint any longer, which is a good thing. My palm and wrist are quite bruised and tender. Still, I'm glad to get that splint off. I'm wearing a large, wayerproof bandaid over the incision just now.

I had a case of the munchies last night for some stupid reason. I ate some celery and 2 tablespoons of my peanut butter (just contains peanuts and salt -- no sugar or preservatives and has net 3 carbs per 2 tablespoons) with celery. That tasted great. Then I had a slice of cheddar cheese and quit eating for the day.

The scale says 212 this morning.

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