by mary lambert


How mysterious you are, Lovely One!
Full of contradiction behind your pure,
white bloom.

The ancient feminine evokes through
your closeted nature--her dusky stems
like cool arms, supporting her sacred
offering.

Her silken face, magnified by its singularity,
floats above the bounty of curvaceous vines
and dark, asymmetrical leaves.

Your scent hints of preternatural ecstasy;
and yet denies entry. A sacred domain
beckons those who understand the risk
of such entry.

And oh! So many secrets!

What jungle poison lurks there?

What treachery lies behind your powdered
smile and perfumed hollows?

How have you come to learn such artistry
and what is your intent?

How have you survived eons with such
silken, subtle lures?

What elixir permeates your perfume and why
is it shared only at night?

As I lift a leaf, I see the most precious under part--
a fiercely guarded womb which bespeaks a Warrior
Mother.

Needles, surprisingly rigid, imbed your round
coffer, protecting your precious progeny.

Any entry here is illicit, paid in blood and writhing
pain--the hard coin of her eternal scorn for those
who disrespect and violate her body.

Hail, Sophia, Great Mother! Earth's womb.
Your bloom is richer because of the
contradictions that conceive it.
Its inner terrain is meant only for
adepts and initiates.

Guardian of Gaia, keeper of Nature's bounty and
wrath, forgive our ignorance and give us under-
standing of your life-giving Heart. Teach us
your language of scent and dusk and the loudness
of your silences.

Most of all give us joy in the rich weave of your
creations. Teach us to appreciate your bounty
and the implicitness of your wisdom. For without
these, we have no home, no planet and no life.

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Those are Moonflowers Only bloom at night and close up in the morning hours.... planting them with my morning glories so I can have blooms in the morning, and then again in the evening with the moonflowers

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What beautiful poetry! Yeah, sounds like the Moonflower I just can't wait until it grows! Suppose to have bloom within six weeks and then self-sowing next year with the seeds that it will drop....... Well, it MY DREAM anyway

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and a lovely dream it IS! ya beat me to the pictures.. but it IS quite beautiful... i can see why you would want them..

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I like your picture better

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rhonda.. i like the FIRST picture of the flowers that YOU posted..so there! :-P

so... here we go..
water ..CHECK... vit/sups CHECK... green tea.. CHECK... acv.. CHECK.. sea salt.. CHECK..

had sharp cheddar cheese... green beans.. piece of chicken.. mags cereal with a couple few raspberries thrown in ...small handful of nuts..

???? what??? thats IT?? WHOA... and i am not even hungry..
no salad in the house.. no fresh veggies... *sigh*... oh well.. will have more green beans later or some asparagas....

other than the lack of my FAVORITE veggie stuff i did JUSSSSSSSSSSSST fine for day FOUR of that challenge thingy...

not so bad... HUMPDAY over.. three more days left to go..*L*

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Wonderful poem... thanks for sharing. I think I have some seeds from a couple years back - I'll have to plant them.

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so... i watched a movie called something like.. in the interest of the children...

disturbing story...based on a TRUE story...

i expected a different ending...

the mother was a manic depressant they said..(seemed more like a different mental illness... but who knows..)

sent the five kids to a foster family..

got all happy and cozy and safe feeling.. and then the mother wanted them back...

big mess.. court.. blah blah blah...

MY happy ending would have been with the foster family (even as a MOTHER that goes totally against every FIBER of my soul) because the mother was obviously still not well... and she had been abusive and had no stability with her life...

*big sigh*...

ended up with her back in the hospitol... five kids went to live with her brother and his wife...

the foster couple had split up (the story implied that she couldnt get over it.. and the husband wanted her to move on..)

so...*sigh*... i started wondering why i felt so profoundly sad when it was over...

part of it...am sure is because of the sheer sadness of the situation and how the kids were put into situations they had NO control over...


and part of it was because I WAS a kid in situations i had no control over...

something in their eyes reminded me of how i felt when MY dad was drunk and being mean to my mom... the sheer HELPLESSNESS of being a kid.. the sheer TERROR of being a kid.. the feeling of thinking that these people who are supposed to love and take CARE of you .... are not even NOTICING how horrible it IS on the children they have...

there were FIVE of us KIDS too...


it sure is odd how feelings so long buried could be brought up by a made for tv movie

*deep long breath*...

the line that the foster father said really stuck with me tho... when he was making the girl go with the officials... it went SOMETHING like this..

"you were born with everything you need to survive...."




and i guess we are

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whoo - yep - know where you're coming from Kim!

I was once told that I was born with everything I needed to cope with life - and you know - I've never forgotten it and boy! has it got me through some rough times!!

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Kim - Nice flower nice poetry!

Sounds like a movie I would definitely NOTwatched for much the same reasons you found it disturbing.

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beachy... its nice to be reminded that we DO have coping abilites...

robby... uh huh.. i know... it left a sick feeling in my stomach all nite long... best not watched...

they said at the end that the kids were adopted by the aunt and uncle in 1989...sixteen years ago.. i would say that the eldest daughter (4 daughters and a son) would be about 24 or so now... i wonder what they turned out like......

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I avoid those types of movies as well. Not because they aren't good but because they are so disturbing and I really take them to heart and it can just wreck me for days on end.

You have done so well Kim and help many other people so it is good to see that you came out of your situation a good person.

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Worry doesn't empty tomorrow of its sorrows, it empties today of its strengths.

I stay away from movies like that - not that i had a bad childhood - far from it, but i can't get it off my mind how hurtful some parents/people can be - its just not right....when you have children you should love them NO MATTER what ...its not like you have to always LIKE their behavior but children need to know that you LOVE them - and it needs to be shown daily. My daughter tells me all the time "MOM...i always love you, its just i don't always like you!" the apple didn't fall far from the tree in our house!

Cindy

gosh.. thanks noel...:-) i appreciate the kind words! it IS hard to see kids suffer in ANY way.. at the end of the show i thought DAAAAAAAAAAYUM i wish i wasnt so blippin old.. i would be a foster mom.. but then reflecting on the outcome in the movie.. i guess it would be TERRIBLY hard to take CARE of them without becoming TOO emotionally attached.. i would have a rough row to hoe with THAT..

cin.. so... while i had a rough trip during the drop... i DIDNT fall far from the tree i guess *L* because my mom was a real sweetheart..

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Hey Kim,
It is very easy to get attached. I know it will be so hard when my little guy leaves. But knowing from the beginning that they will be leaving allows you to wall off a little piece of your heart so that the whole thing isn't shattered when they're gone.

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