Ok.

I found the writing samples. I rewrote one and I will scan the other. I am way too tired to correct anything. That (not rewriting them) is probably a mistake but I am willing to take a chance that I may create even more mistakes. I am keeping my fingers crossed that the Hiring Attorney that called wont want a writing sample.

Maybe I will feel like reviewing them tomorrow.

I did 3 miles on the treadmill this morning. I am going to do another 3 miles this evening. :jumpgreen

I baked teriyaki chicken breasts.

I spoke to an old friend and a new friend. I feel loved today.

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WTG GG!!
Good for you on the exercise

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Actually, I made teriayki chicken breasts on my grill last night. Have enough for a couple of lunches or will use it on my salads this week. Good luck on your job endeavors. Sure you will do fine on your briefs and writing examples for potential employers. Just go with the flow and don't "think" too hard or second guess yourself!

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wow! treadmill TWICE a DAY? DANG... you rock!
is it any of a stress reliever for you? i love my gazelle freestyle elite... it is VERY theraputic to play on... whether it is good for exercise or not!

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HeyKim--

Stress reliever? I dont know yet. I am one of those people who gets stressed out while trying to relax. I just stay on the treadmill for an hour. I chant, so I get my chanting done.

Gazelle Freestyle Elite. I checked the Gazelles out a while back. It looked good for a solid upper and lower body work out. Does it come fully assembled?
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My shoulders and arms are feeling sore today. Yesterday, I used 3lb weights in each hand to work the upper body. Mission accomplished.

This morning, I just wanted to stay in bed. So, I stayed in bed. The Bar Prep really exhausted me. I learned the hard way that its not a good idea to get on the treadmill while sleepy.

I got a call from one of the jobs that I applied for. I scanned the best of all the Writing Samples that I found. I can email that to her if she asks.

My hope is for a good offer before the end of the week. I do, however, need to figure out what I think a good offer sounds like.

I'm excited. I sent out what must be a bazillion job search packets. Now, I have to do two things: Wait patiently without gorging myself on food and continue my workout on the treadmill so that I jumpstart my weight loss again.

My weight loss has been frozen since I started studying for the July Bar. I work up to 55 hours a week. I chose to take caffeine pills in order to study. The boost of caffeine helped me to stay up and study. It didnt help my weight loss which froze up like a teardrop in a Minnesota blizzard.

I did get lucky. I didnt get any of the jittery effects that most people complain about. I didnt spark any sort of sugar or carb craving...well no more than the usual. But, my weight froze. Serves me right. That was the risk I took and again I chose to delay the debut of my thin self in order to pursue a different goal.

Balance. I am working on achieving it. When it comes to losing weight, balance has always eluded me. It seems like I can keep 50 balls in the air, and there will always be one ball, the weight loss ball, on the floor.

I should treat myself much better. Today, I will start being nicer, kindler and gentler to myself.

Elements covered? D- on Element 1 (work on your writing skills.) B on Elements 2, 3, 4 which is awareness, motivation and goals, respectively.

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August 8, 2005 at 932 am

Be careful what you ask for.
I called her.
She didnt ask for a writing sample.
She asked for my Bar license number!!!!!!

I wont have the Bar results until September so I dont have a Bar license number.

This sucks. I am not sure if I should cross her off the list or not.
arrrrrrrrgh.

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Too bad

Does it mean you can't look until the results are in?

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It means I can look but potential employers can put my resume/application on hold until the results come back.

And if that weren't enough, they are moving stacks of boxes into my office. Hmm, I think they are ready for me to find a new job. Not to mention, the tower of boxes now means that my office now looks like my house.

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i guess just being honest with them and telling them that it doesnt come in till september is outta the question eh? *L*... somewhere ... sometime in the PAST didnt they ALL have to go through what you are doing right now? the waiting? .... might find ONE of them that remembers how it was...*L*... yeah.. i know.... when pigs fly...


the gazelle elite my husband got for me is the HEAVY DUTY one... not the cheapy little one(which might work just as well... but with all these grandkiddos running around here 24-7 he figured the STABILITY would be a good thing (might just as well have it in SOMETHING in our lives *L*)

i love it.. it shows the time you are on .. the miles... how fast... ect..
it is good for the butt and thighs i think... arms if you do the actual handles and not just the place you can rest your hands or if you just swing your arms like in jogging when you do it...

but to ME? its like being on the PLAYGROUND... without all the little kids staring at you and saying HEY OLD LADY... whatcha doin on the swings? *L*..okay... maybe that only happens to me...

as far as for assembly... hmm.. well it came in a huge box ... moon had just had his five bi pass surgury... and he had ME lug it all around (okay... no.,.. actually I INSISTED that he didnt TOUCH it... it weighs a ton...) and then he put the little tape in and told me what to do off it.... and i put it together ... and he did the MANLY SCREW TIGHTENING which i suck at..(car accident... not much strength in my index fingers and thumbs for that MANLY tightening ...nor for putting on earring backs *L*... which isnt necessarily a manly thing... although i guess i would have a hard time convincing DENNIS RODMAN of that....)

where was i..

oh.. so it is FUN... and gosh darn it.. as we get older the FUN things in life are not near as plentiful as they might have been way back when on the playground.... and to me? that was worth the 300 bucks or whatever it was ..


the short answer...SOME ASSEMBLY REQUIRED...

if i can do it... anyone can!

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I did three miles on the treadmill. My upper body aches due to the weights from yesterday. Today I didnt use the weights.

I sent out six more resumes and cover letters by email.

I am feeling displaced at my job. It's time for me to be somewhere else, yet...I havent found another place to go.

It's really important that I wait for a Position that fits. That will take time. Time where I feel displaced, like I really dont belong. I have to make sure I dont start eating off plan food to feel better.

Also, this three mile routine has really cut my appetite. Im setting my alarm for 4am so I can get 3 mi done in the am. Wish me luck.

GeeGee

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Nice job with all of the exercise!!

Don't worry too much GeeGee...it sounds as though you are doing everything right, and a new position will come along soon. And while you're waiting...you can always take up interior design as a side job...:silly:

Oh FrannyGlass!

I LOVE interior design...the Florida Design magazine is my FAVORITE. Oddly enough, I never see stacks of books gracing any of the pages....unless they are encased in high priced wood or fiberglass structures.

I am making the best of it. I am rejoicing as best I can under the circumstances because my current employers are allowing me to stay until I find something.

It would REALLY suck if I were sitting at home.

Every morning they peek in as if to say...."hmm, she's STILL here?" maybe its my imagination. aaaaargh. I feel really self-conscious about it even though I only started the search last Friday and I've sincerely done "everything that I can do".

Luckily, I do have stuff to do so its not like I'm just sitting around. Also, I check the job boards and click apply now when I see something I might enjoy doing.

After working out, I try to shred some mail and get rid of some more *stuff*. I'm glad I didnt just start tossing stuff out like my sister suggested because I wouldve tossed my Writing Samples!

Also, exercising has REALLY cut my appetite. I forgot to eat dinner last night! I fell asleep after I sent out more applications by email. That CANT be a good thing--the not eating. I have to remember to eat.

For HeyKim--I had NO idea they had a heavier/lighter version of the Gazelle. Thanks for the heads up on that. I want one because I can get a *fun* upper body and lower body workout without having to go out into the Miami sun.

I may have to give it another *looksee* because apparently it works. Heck...you have one and you look great!

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August 9 2005.

Space shuttle came back in one piece.
One less reason for me to overeat.

I havent gotten a call or email about a job and its been TWO days since I started looking, not counting the weekend.
One more reason for me to overeat.

My co-workers are gone...all to different meetings. Is this some plot to isolate and ostracize me?
Another reason to overeat.

So, I could conceivably eat these bite sized cookies I got with my salad without anyone knowing. I wouldnt know because I...well when I talk about no one knowing I am usually referring to others since I can keep my own secret.

Yes, my body will betray me. I will get a headache. Stomachache. Be dizzy. Maybe sleepy. And either another inch or another pound will come back to say Hi GeeGee.

Hello Increased_Bodyfat. How are you? Looks like you've got a vice grip on ma hip bone. What's that I_Bodyfat? You're lonely. I didnt eat enough of the cookies for you to bring your friends?

Ha. The madness has certainly set in.

Eyes the bag of 12 crunchy cookies. Different kinds in there. Chocolate chip. Chocolate chocolate chip. Maybe peanut butter. Maybe oatmeal raisin. Perhaps a shortbread or two. Once, I swear this one time I tasted a macadamia nut cookie in there. Macadamia nuts are ON plan so I might have to sample eat cookie to see which one is the elusive macadamia nut cookie.
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That was 4 minutes ago. I went zipping around hi5.com to check out my network of "friends" and to hand out high fives. I saw a man who might very well be the host of the Chapter of that Harlequin Romance I think about on occasion.

Gave him a hi-5. bahahahahahahaha. Interestingly enough, I didnt click HUNK setting...I clicked Best Friend setting and told him that I needed one. I do. This was not a lie. I am not manipulative. Well, not THAT manipulative.

I am, however, stalking those cookies.

The bag remains unopened.

My stinking-thinking is that "I SHOULD eat them because I didnt eat dinner yesterday. I should eat them because they wouldnt be here at this desk if I had a new job. I should eat them because after all, peanut butter is on plan, macadamia nut is on plan and raisins have fiber.
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That was four minutes ago. I went strolling through monster.com looking for new ads. NONE. Cookies look rather appetizing. I think they are dancing. Maybe only the raisins are dancing. You know, in my real life, I dont even like cookies.
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I drank half a bottle of Dasani. Woulda drank the whole bottle if I ate one of those crunchy cookies. Which underscores the fact that I dont like cookies. I ALWAYS have to wash them down with something. It took me years to figure out that I might not like hot dogs since I MUST eat them with a load of condiments and closed eyes.

Funny thing...the cookies dont like me either.

No, they never expressed any sort of open hostility. It's just the way they taunt me. The way they dare me to indulge in their crispiness, their sweetness, their high carbness. They call out to me. No, wait, that's my coworker. BRB
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Co-worker wanted me to tell her when the caterer arrived.
I wanted a job; I got a job watching out for the caterer.
I wanted a cookie; I got a cookie from iwon.com?
Parallelism in a perpendicular world.
I have an hour. This is the best hour ever!
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Closing this box before something happens to it.

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So I thought I would actually read the SA Selection Process Booklet. Booklet? HA! This thing is at least 75-80 pages.

Four pages from the end says: Desirable weight range for me would be 122-169 which falls into the 22% body fat requirement.

I called and cancelled the Phase I test. One more job down the proverbial drain.

I think I was born with 22% bodyfat. I havent seen it since.

The cookies are looking better than ever.

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When I was a sprout of a girlchild, my Mommy fed me Cookies to quell my aching soul.

These were superior cookies made from Floridian cane sugar, quail eggs, golden butter, hand dusted flour, molasses, boiled well water and the teat juice of goats who would be curried once they reach their age of maturity.

These Cookies, much like Popeye's spinach filled me with energy, great strength and a sense of peace I havent felt since I left my Pennisulan home.

These Cookies in no way contributed to shaping me into the pleasingly plump yet attractive orb that I am today.

There is no credible link between Mommy doling out her love with Florida sugar cane cookies and my desire to be comforted today by the self-dispensation of a similar sort of sweet crunchy decadence.

I must not give the Cookie too much power.

Cookie is a evil cane sugar filled demon who revels in chasing me about my life catching me in my deepest moments of insecurity and doubt. Casting his aspersions upon me. Daring me to follow in the footsteps of the Dough Boy...with a Miami tan, great hair, and lips slathered in Mac's Viva Glam V lip glass...of course.

I will not give in.

Not right now anyways.

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