August 2, 2005 1pm

*thinksforamoment*

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I popped in here thinking I was gonna see a picture of your living room

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http://www.livejournal.com/users/junee/

hahahahahaha
thats hilarious@ Junieshops

No, I have always wanted to start a journal.
I never knew what I would write.
I knew I wanted you all to visit.
So, I decided to call it my living room.

Thanks for stopping by. You're my first visitor.

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after *thinkingforamoment* GeeGee comes up with some strategies.
After all, planning always helps.

This Space has Five Elements. Each Element has a distinct purpose.

Element One. The marble-topped Victorian-styled coffee table will be used to master my writing skills - I am a little rusty. I haven't written anything informal in a long time. Technical writing is safe and precise. On Element One, I will get to be more creative as I track my life, well the segment of my life that is dedicated to dropping those last thirty pounds.

Element Two. The Corinthian Leather recliner will be used to empower my personality - I need to understand myself and how my life is or isnt working. I need to build my self esteem and increase my self worth. I know I have the mental discipline and the inner power to succeed. Element Two is about focus and awareness. Also useful for armchair philosophy and Monday morning quarterbacking.

Element Three. The silver pot from the Ottoman Empire will be used as a motivation and reminder to open myself to a higher power. I must find more meaning, purpose and joy in my life. I need to connect more deeply with my essence, my life purpose. When facing the silver pot, I will grow myself, listen to my intuition, foster my spiritual growth tips, manifest abundance and activate my joy programs. I will become my own independent passion consultant.

Element Four. While standing under the Gold Chandelier, I will build a solid foundation for my life with goal setting, time management, creativity using this space as a "life tracking workbook." Again, this serves to bring more control and focus into my life.

Element Five. The off-white damask sofa with gold tasseled pillows with an ornate area rug in just the right muted colors will serve as a seating area for all visitors to my Living Room.

And yes, A woman's home is her castle. That statment also explains why GeeGee is wearing a diadem on a Tuesday afternoon. I carry an emerald encrusted scepter and if you think that is funny, just imagine me waving my scepter and screaming "RESPECT MY AH-THOR-RA-TAY" like Cartman from South Park.

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*nestled quietly in the corner on ELEMENT FIVE *

welllll isnt THIS going to be a fun journal to follow...:-)

cant wait ..

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kims SECOND journal is HERE
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Indeed.

I'm sitting on Element Two as I scream at the customer service lady from the Bombay company. My tea service set hasnt yet arrived.

How the heck can I empower myself without a decent service set for my green tea???

*ugh*

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AS a person who has worked customer service in the past for many years... uh... go easy on them...

or not.. ;-)

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kims SECOND journal is HERE
kims new blog
KIMS BLOG !!
SUGARFREE BLOG

Hey GeeGee - I like the website you have on your signature. O - and totally agree on a classy teaservice for the green tea drinking ceremony - how could one not? Love the element concept too. You're a very 'thinking' woman GeeGee!

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The fox is wild!



5'3" Maintaining 121-125
Original weight 198 +

Beachfox!
You are Visitor #3. I really didnt think anyone would stop by.

I'm really nervous about journaling. I figured if I broke it up into smaller focused parts...I would stay on task.

So far, I've counted three visitors.

maybe I will come up with something in a few...

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Day 1 Aug 2, 2005

I've been here for two months and joining this group was a difficult first step. I managed to lose eighty-seven pounds "on my own." I need to lose about 30 more and I cant.

I can do anything I want to do.

I believe that. At least, I was raised to believe that. I have achieved the impossible. Well, the seemingly impossible. Yet, all my life I've carried around extra weight.

As much as a hundred and fifty extra pounds. As little as twenty extra pounds.

And in the meantime, I conquered the world, or the cluster of goals I considered to be the world. I got hired for the job no one thought I would get. I finished college by hurling myself over, through or under one obstacle after another.

All while carrying the extra body weight.

Is this the part of the game where I explain my family history?

I am the only one who is overweight. Admitting that out loud and in type --hurts. I feel as though I am keeping the family from having that perfect family portrait. And that's just it. I have a difficult time seeing myself. I see myself in relation to others when it comes to weight.

I can be an individual in every other sense of the word. When it comes to weight, I am ALWAYS thinking....am I as big as so and so. I would like to be a svelte as so and so.

I started losing weight when I started to see myself.

I stopped losing weight on the evening after I took the Bar exam. I decided I needed cookies to make the frustration go away. I decided I needed lemonade to make the fear of failure go away. I decided I needed rice, glorious rice and beans, to make the pressure to find a job as an attorney go away.

Logically, I know that excess food isnt going to make any of the normal emotions associated with career development "go away." In truth, I am making the lighter, svelte me disappear under layers of excess body fat.

Logically, I know that. I read it. It made sense.

But something else has to be operating in the background of my life. I can multi-task in every other area. Yet, I have not found the time to work out. I have not found the time to start watching calories. I did take the time to calculate that I will reach my goal weight by the end of the year if I eat 250 calories less a day. That was in June. This is not June anymore.

Tomorrow is a new day. I am setting the alarm clock for 3am. I will work out for 45 mins on the treadmill.

*Covered Elements 1 (writing), 2 (awareness) 3(motivation) and 4(goal set: 45 mins on treadmill in am)

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wow... *speechless*..

many of us have felt MANY of the things of which you speak... not ALL of us can SAY them outloud...or share them with complete (okay.. i DID introduce myself.. so i am not TECHNICALLY a TOTAL stranger) STRANGERS..

you my friend will be a big source of help AND inspiration to us here..

i for one am happy to meet you... and i GUARANTEE you that YOU WILL have MANY people visiting THIS journal..

thanks for allowing me to peek into your life...

i think it will help ME ..

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kims SECOND journal is HERE
kims new blog
KIMS BLOG !!
SUGARFREE BLOG

Wow GeeGee <plopping down on the damask sofa and holding pinky up as I sip from the lovely tea cup>...thanks for the warm welcome...ever so elegant here in your new digs...can I try on the tiara??

You are a SUCCESS...and I wanna hang with YOU!!

Gee Gee:

What a great journal! While it may be difficult to type what you're feeling, you express yourself in a way that is a joy to read. Not helpful as a motivating statement, just a comment as I'm making one (of many) stops through your living room.

It's interesting that you talk about being the only one in your family that has to struggle with your weight. I haven't thought about it in exactly that way, but I"m always avoiding taking photos with them, so there are not tangible reminders of who doesn't fit in...

I guess we've all felt that way at some time.....

Hang in there! You're off to a fantastic start with more than 80 pounds down by yourself

Sounds like you have a serious gameplan for the last thirty, and we're here to cheer, drink tea in the marvelous tea sets, and read your musiings along your journey.

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Tina

GG, I have felt much like you, being the only fattie in the family ( until lately) and I have avoided the camera for years, and now there is not much of a record of me picturewise.
I have been journaling for 2 years now and don't think I can do it unless I journal, I use it daily as a dumping grounds, plus getting feedback from others is very helpful
Good for you on starting a exercise program

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August 3, 2005 11:18am

Forty-seven. And I am not even counting the Sixteen private companies I plan to stalk, er submit resumes.

It wasnt supposed to be this way. I dont remember any Law School recruiter ever mentioning the battle we would endure to find jobs after graduation.

So here I sit. I am in a better position than most my peers. I have a job already at a private corporation that is paying me an indecent sum of money to, well, smell like an Attorney without having to perform most of the actual duties.

This, has spoiled me. I have a great deal of experience in Family law and quite frankly, I've grown quite adept at dismantling the families. I used to tell myself I was turning unhappily married people in happy single people and children were probably better off.

Then I would go home and eat. I would be better off if I went home to cry. I'm relieved I didnt go home to drink. Attorneys seem to drink a lot more than most other people. It's in vogue to have top shelf liquor on your top shelf. This disturbs me, but I digressed.

I would go home and eat. Then sleep. Then do it all again the next day. I met my very first pregnant eight year old one morning. I wasn't the least bit shocked. I'd become immune to the certain plight of my indigent clients. I wasnt appalled. I should have been. On that morning I realized that I had served my time in Family Law.

So now, I am job hunting in a sea of sharks. We're a bloodthirsty bunch which means I need to get 47 cover letters completed by bedtime tonight.

Ha. I just found another reason to skip my appointment with my treadmill.

I have a plan. I have a solid cover letter already and a 3pg resume thats ready to go. I need to customize each cover letter to fit each employer. This is doable as long as I dont get overwhelmed and quit.

I have lunch in a few minutes. Afterwards, I should spend the afternoon seeking supporting information and fodder for each type of cover letter. Yes, there are a hundred ways to say *hire me, you need me, u can afford me if you really really try...*
I only need 47.

The upside? I have a job. I've only been overeating on-plan food. I havent gained any weight I just feel sluggish. And, for a slug...I've been pretty darn productive today.

***Covered Elements 1 (writing could be better today--GeeGee is changing tenses again heheheheh), 2 (awareness: whats that?) 3(motivation: do it or else someone will get GeeGee's job) and 4(goal set: 47 cover letters by bedtime/meet the treadmill for appt)

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