Hi Heather..

I just read thru your journal and wanted to say I can sooo identify with you. I am new to this group but also have come back to this WOE after spending 4 years eating all the wrong things and gaining back 60 lbs in the process.

Just wanted to wish you good success in your return to this lifestyle

vickie

Thanks for the support Vickie and Felonee! I kind of needed it today. I'm going to post my day yesterday just so I can read through it sometimes, because looking back, it's funny. Read if you like, but its mainly for me. I'm still on track...and proud o self.

I went to bed in a decent mood. MIRACULOUSLY! During
the day, my MS Word just smooth quit working. They had been doing all kinds
of stuff to the server, which I thought should have nothing to do with it,
but I restarted a gagillion times and I couldn't open it at all. Then...I
had the whole insurance/ collection agency/ dr office billing dept issue.
This collection agency trying to get my checking acct # over the phone so
they can debit this amt which I allegedly owe an er doc. I had to fight
with the middle eastern man about WHO the dr was so I could get to the
bottom of it and get my ins to pay it. turns out they denied it bc the dr
didn't put the date of condition on the claim. um...it was an emergency.
stands to reason it was the same day as services! duh! anyway...they are
resubmitting...we'll see. This may turn out to be like the Dish issue! I
go to pick up theo and his TEACHER has divided up his hair in little
ponytails that are now just tufts of hair looking like little balls all over
his head. It looked RIDICULOUS and he smelled like a guy in high school
that had poured a bottle of cologne on himself. I read his daily sheet. He
had a good day, enjoyed playing in the shaving cream, ahhh, that's the
smell! We head home, traffic is SO LIGHT!!! I'm thinking we'll be home by
545 or 6! a record. Then the trucks sputters. NO WAY, I say aloud. I am
out of gas at Braker and Mopac. Great. It wasn't even technically on E, I
should have had about 1/4 of an inch left!!! But now I know, you don't jack
with the gage in this one! I scroll through the phone deciding who might be
close. I call my friend, Terrie who works in south austin and lives in
pflugerville as well. she is right in front of me on the road. So she
comes to my rescue, but not before Theo makes a present in the diaper for
me. We get the truck going again, and she follows me to the station to fill
it up. Now I can't smell the shaving cream because everything smells like
gas/dirty diaper. We take Terrie to dinner in thanks for the rescue and
just to get to visit as I haven't seen her in a while. This was nice,
except that Theo looks silly. oh well. OH, before we eat, I take him in to
change him and the present has not stayed neatly in the diaper, but has
managed to...nevermind, you get where I'm going with this. Took off his
brand new supercute Old Navy blue jeans, rolled them up, wrapped them in a
changing pad, and shoved them in my purse. He ate in his diaper and shirt.
Got home, had to wash hair, which he HATES, he cried the whole time I was
combing it out, No hedda, pwease, nooooooo!!! it was horrible, the worst
ever.
He went to bed and I had a cup of tea and watched L&O SVU.
Somehow I was in an ok mood going to sleep. See? Law and Order is good for
the soul!
(copied from email to loop!)
ANYWAY...I managed to get through the day and I'll read this when I think I'm having a bad day!

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Heather
182-2/27/08

OMIGOD, Heather! What a day! But you still managed to chill. Good for you. This day WAS a stinker. Sometimes all the $#!% seems to happen at one time.

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awwwwwww heather...
sounds like a pretty rough day there kiddo..
hope today went better... heck! it almost HAD to .. didnt it *grin*
proud of ya lady! keep it up! youre doing terrific ...

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kims SECOND journal is HERE
kims new blog
KIMS BLOG !!
SUGARFREE BLOG

Thanks Maxi and Kim. I've started trying to make my own choices instead of allowing others to choose for me. Along with "I choose not to eat that", I've been choosing not to get upset about things beyond my control. For instance, someone called in sick today and I have to cover her work. Usually I get all bent about it. I'm not thrilled, make no mistake, but grumbling about it all day will make it worse, so I'm doing it, being glad today is payday, and living for 5pm!
We are going to the grocery store tonight. and then I think I'll make some quiche for the weekend, and get meals planned/prepared so that the weekend is a breeze! The water is always a challenge on the weekend, so I don't want to have to worry about anything else.
today is 10/13. I'm hoping to be at 165 by 11/13. I think 10 in a month is doable! I have to get back to exercising!!!

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Heather
182-2/27/08

ALLRIGHT ALREADY! argh. I finally went in and posted to the Fitday. it really does help to see it there in black and white! I have to have eggs. Plain ol eggs for dinner. Otherwise I'm over. STUPID STUPID peanuts!
I'm good on the water so far, and food is fine, except the pnuts. So, starting today, I fitday everything everyday and get in SOME SORT of exercise. 5 lbs in 2+ weeks is not acceptable and only I can do something about it.
Amending goal. Going for 160 by 11/14. That's 15 in one month. With exercise I know I can. Now...to fit it in...
I can and will.
PERIOD.

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Heather
182-2/27/08

I took a 20 min walk yesterday, pushing the stroller. I left the house thinking 40 minutes, but after I was feeling tired, looked at the phone time and only 6 minutes had passed, I amended it to 20! hahahaha! At least I was out there! Might have to invest in a jog stroller if this keeps up.
I might do this silly looking Cardio funk DVD I have this evening...we'll see!
Feeling pretty good about FitDaying and water and overall progress. I'm still trying to only weigh on fridays...we'll see how that goes. I always want to weigh more when I'm not losing very fast. As though stepping on the scale makes you weigh less?? dunno.
check in later~

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Heather
182-2/27/08

Walked another 20 minutes today! woohoo!

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Heather
182-2/27/08

You sound really focused. Hang in there and don't take your eyes off the prize!

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Thanks Maxi! I tried to country dance tonight, but there wasn't much dancing being done, mostly just sitting on the side. But I could watch people all day long, so it was fun anyway!

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Heather
182-2/27/08

Hi Heather...way to go on the walking! My walk was really hard for the first week to 10 days then it started getting easier and easier. Now, about 6 weeks into this it is just a really enjoyable part of my day. Keep up the good work. You are doing great


vickie

Thanks, Vickie! We'll see how the week goes...hoping to do at least 2 or 3 days of walks this week.

a funny...I'm entering all my food into fitday, and I look at the carbs and it's like 130. I look more closely, carb column, go down...yep, 130. I literally almost had heart failure! Then I realized I had accidentally entered my 2 tbsp of onion dip (one on my omelet and one with cucumber slices) as one LITER of it! Hahahahaahaha! Then I get a picture of myself sitting down with a liter of dip. omg, what an idiot! hahahahahaha!!! yeah...I'm easily amused.
oh AND, I'm hungry, but close to out of carbs for the day, so I'm going to have a sugar free jello. YUM!
Calories Eaten Today
source grams
Total: 948
Fat: 60
Carbs: 37
Fiber: 12

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Heather
182-2/27/08

Maybe I'll just go home and go back to bed. Theo threw food, yelled, hit,etc in the car. Nice way to start the day. Work already sucks at 9:37 (and it has been sucking for about 36 minutes!) AND someone brought brownies to work! which I am not touching with a ten foot pole. So I'm going to try to list some good things.
1. I was RIGHT ON with my calories and my carbs yesterday. I will do so again today.
2. Finished all water yesterday, and will do so again today.
3. I am very blessed in my life.
4. Having dinner with a friend tonight (trying to see this as positive, not another chore.) May suggest walking around the shopping center to get some exercise.
5. LCE.com friends help me pick myself back up!

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Heather
182-2/27/08

(((((hug)))) there's a hug from me to you! We'll visit more later....I'm really trying to get my big butt into bed on time tonight!

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Hope you made it to bed and got a great night's sleep, Maxi! thanks for the hugs. As usual, things look better from a distance. Theo is being nice again, and the dinner with the friend was very nice, relaxing, fun. We didn't walk, but that's ok. I was planning to get fajitas at chilis, but ended up with an 8oz steak with broccoli! It was SO GOOD!!!
chuggin the water.~h

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Heather
182-2/27/08