Thanks Maxibee.
Could not do my treadmill this am but am trying to closely control my diet today.

hey lady!! where are ya?! it's been almost a week since your last journal post ... i hope you are doing ok.
how is school? are you feeling stressed?
sending good thoughts your way ......

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Carrie
156/154/135

HI Carrie,

Thanks for checkin in my journal. It has just been crazy with school and therefore I have not been able to visit my journal since so long. Stress?? I guess it never leaves but I think it is within the healthy level right now.

Current wt: 139 lb, I know I am way behing my planned loss (should have been 135lb by now) but its all about the journey and I am not quiting yet!!!

Hey, A. Good to see ya back. And I'm glad you're focusing on the journey and not adding to your stress by thinking being 4 pounds behind where you want to be is so bad. You'll get there!

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Please don't stress about that sweetie. If I was where I had planned on being I would weigh 153 pounds already but I'm starting to think the slower the better. I want a cute body when I'm done and not one that saggs . My arms and belley need some serious toning up. Better late then ever - I started toning up with the weight machines at the gym a few months ago. Miss Montana is a personal trainer there and she showed me all the machines I would need for total body toning. She was so sweet! Anyways, everyone I've known that have lost weight so fast didn't keep it up. Slow and steady wins the race said the turtle!

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Thanks for your encouragement Maxibee and BBBJ. Its friends like you who encourage me to come back to this forum and get back on the track whenever I fall off.

I am kind of feeling out of control though. It seems like my motto "I am in control and not the food" is failing. It seems like food IS IN CONTROL and not I. I started my journal in really good spirits and thought that nothing can keep me from reaching my goal till the end of this year (after all I had 3 months to reach it) but it seems like I simply don?t have enough self control to reach my goal. I have made so many slips that it simply seems impossible for a person like me to reach the goal that I had fixed for myself. If I cannot control myself for 3 months, how can I control myself for the rest of my life??



I consider myself to be a fairly intelligent person then why can I just not understand that managing my weight will be beneficial for my own self. No one else will be harmed by me being over-weight but my very own self and no one else will benefit from my weight loss but my own self, then why don?t I do something nice for myself?? I know my body needs to be treated nicely and I know that I deserve to look like a smart and intelligent person that I know that I am. But unfortunately, something inside me keeps me from becoming that good looking person that I can be. I know that my weight is in the way of me taking care of myself. Since I know that I am over weight, I just don?t feel like getting dressed up or wearing nice clothes because at the back of my mind, I know that I am not looking good.



Why cant I be nice to myself and do myself this one big favor. Achieve my weight goal till the end of this year. There are only 40 days left to the end of this year. Do I think that I am so weak that I can not control myself for only 40 days? 40 days of self control in the face of 30 some years of feeling over-weight. I have spent 30 years of my life feeling bad about my weight and having a bad body image, do I want to spend another 30 years feeling like that or do I want to use these 40 days to change things within me and try to gain the control that I never had on myself?



I am trying to think about people who have serious health conditions and they have to control themselves owing to those conditions. For example people with diabetes, cancers, food allergies etc. They simply can not have certain foods and they have to control themselves otherwise they see direct consequences of loosing control in the form of suffering from bad health and altered quality of life. They have to control themselves because they have no other choice. God has blessed me with good health and I should administer self control to keep myself healthy. What if somebody told me today that I have one chance to change my weight and if I don?t attain my goal weight till the end of this year, I will see a direct consequence of that on my health and then I won?t be able to change that for the rest of my life? What if I faced a direct threat to my health if I did not do anything about my weight in 40 days? Will that motivate me to do something about changing my diet and way or life or am I stubborn enough not to do anything even at that point?? I think that I am intelligent enough to do something at that point. I know I have the strength to change things if they are threatening to my health. So I need to think of being over-weight as a threat to my health. We all know that it is so in soo many ways. People can develop diabetes, high blood pressure, high cholesterol, cancers etc as a result of being over weight. The only reason that I don?t think about these consequences is that I don?t see them as a direct threat to me right now and being a human, I try not to see far in the future. But those are the threats that are always looming over me if I don?t do anything about my weight now. Now is the time I can change. Now I have the 40 days to gain self-cotrol. Now is the opportunity to do something to change my future. For once gone, I will never gain this time back. Don?t I think that I am worth it? Can?t I do this much for my own body? What are 40 days in front of another 30 years of poor body image? I have my chance NOW and I need to avail it no matter what. I have 16 lbs to loose in these 40 days and change my life forever and do a big favor to my self esteem.

And I am up for this challenge. I want to feel like the ?biggest loser? within these 40 days. I would attain the biggest weight loss with in these 40 days then I have ever attained throughout my life.

Today is my first day toward being the ?biggest loser?.(Day 1)

Day # 2 (39 days left):

The scale was not very mercyful this morning and I saw 141lb. However, I am not letting that get me down. I am back to controlled eating and yesterday, beside doing my usual 30 min of treadmill I also started doing lower body workout and a 20 min dance video that I got from the library. This morning my legs are killing me and it means that the workouts are working.

I plan to do this as much as possible.
30min Treadmill
20min dance video and
30min of lowerbody workout

Doing the above in addition to controlled eating should show some results in 39 days. So here I go with day # 2 :handsome:

I can't wait to hear how day 2 goes Ambition!

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I wish you the best of luck with this, Ambition. I can't wait to see how well you do

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Katie
275/238/150
Restarted 01/08/2007
37 pounds lost!
http://justanotherfatgirl.blogspot.com

Happy Thanksgiving Ambition!

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Now THAT's the way to get back on track! I'll be checking in on you.....I know you can do it!

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Hey A! I hadn't seen or heard from you in a while, so I thought I'd check here. Looks like I'm not the only one who missed you!! I'm glad you are still around and still fighting for yourself. YOU deserve it!!!
*hugs*

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Heather

Hi Everybody,

Thanks for checking in my journal and missing me. It just got really really busy and wild during the last month and I had a lot of deadlines to meet. Since I was really not able to control my diet and keep up with exercise, I really did not feel like posting.
But here I am again. I have signed up for a couple of challenges and plan to post regularly in the journal too.
Today is going good so far.
BF: Scrambled eggs with coffee (skim milk)

oops! orgot to post my stats, maybe I was simple trying to avoid it.

well I am currently at 146lbs and have made a goal to loose 21 lbs to reach 125lb. I know I kind of slid back on my progress but there is no point in crying over there. A new year is coming and I will work my best for a newer me.

Amazing, how the temptations wont leave you where ever you go. This morning I have been studying in the library and everytime I go in or out of the enterance, there is a big basket of hardy candy staring at me. Fortunately, I dont like anything with mint in it so those can not tempt me. However, guess what. The library personel, being very nice to me brought a whole box of truffles to me and highly recommended the ones with coconut in them. Oh God! I really appreciated the gesture and did not want to sound rude, but just said "no- but thank you very much" and did not take any. Its hard for me to say no and I did not want to hurt the feelings of the person sitting next to me who thought about the treat for a long time before taking one. When I said no she said "well, you have a stronger will-power than me" I simply smiled, I know that so-called will-power does not support me all the time but this time it did and I am thankful for that