ok, so the title of this new journal is kinda cheesy, right?? but i'm constantly telling myself (and my BF) to "just breathe" when life seems like it is closing in on you. when i'm trying to juggle a conference call at work while simultaneously working on a presentation for school, or when my movers don't show up (like last weekend), or when my mom is yelling at me about not going to my cousin's wedding, or i'm crammimg for a final exam, or i'm at the fifth mile of my six mile run and think i'm going to die .... i just tell myself to "breathe." seems to help ... well, sometimes.

anyway, i'm starting a new journal b/c i need a FRESH START. as i've mentioned to some of you before, i keep trying to "re-start" south beach phase 1, and i keep falling off the wagon. i started SBD on 9/12/05 and had great success!! i LOVED the way i felt, the way i looked, the way others looked at me. i was more confident and proud. i especially loved the way my clothes felt ... no tight waistlines or bulges, etc. i felt great!! and then the honeymoon ended, LOL. for me, i am always charged up and ready to go at the start of a "diet" or WOE. i am motivated and excited. and then i lose some weight and feel EVEN more committed to my plan .... and then after a few months, i start to lose interest. and since i exercise a lot, i start to let myself have just a little of this and a little of that. like a "little" granola or a "little" movie popcorn. (i tell myself i "need" these extra carbs b/c i worked out so hard, etc. HA!) and then, of course, a "little" leads to A LOT. i think i "officially" fell off the SBD wagon right after new year's 2006. and i've been TRYING to re-start every monday since then. and then inevitably, i make it a few hours or days ... and i lose my way.

today is different. i am starting all over again ... and i am motivated. i have hit my breaking point. the point where i am so disgusted, disappointed, and annoyed w/ myself (for gaining back some of the weight i lost) that i feel 100% committed to start over. and not in a half a$$ kind of way. true to the SBD plan.

so i am taking one day at a time ... i'm just going to "breathe" when it all seems too overwhelming or difficult.

today's eating plan ....
B: 2 veggie burgers (made w/ no sugar or brown rice)
S: coffee w/ splash of skim
L: BIG salad w/ ranch on the side
S: peanuts
D: another salad or a garbanzo bean dish

I, for one, love the title! It's an awesome motto. A little bit of relaxing oxygen never hurt anyone!

I'll be here with you Carrie -- cheering you on! Let's do this together!!!

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Just breathe - a good reminder for all of us, Carrie.

Taking that first step is usually the hardest one. You're doing well with that first step by starting a new journal, starting out fresh. I hope you much success on your journey.

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Nita

shannon, thank you so much. i always value your support - and you've helped keep me on track when i've struggled in the past. i look forward to us both having much success in the near future!!

nita, you are so right ... the first step is usually the hardest. once i have the routine down, it feels so right. getting into that groove is the challenge for me.....

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Carrie
156/154/135

yesterday went really well!! i stuck to my plan and felt great. i was too tired to work out before work, so i made myself go after class at 9:30PM. yuck. but at least i got it in!

i am still feeling motivated, determined, and disciplined. here's to another day on plan ... !

B: red peppers and veggie burger
S: coffee w/ skim
L: large salad
S: nuts?
D: garbanzo bean dish

Hi Carrie, nice to hear from you again. You are off to a great start and with that kind of determination, you will make your goal in no time.

Hello dear! Great to see you so motivated!!!

Are you done with Spring semester? Are you taking summer classes??

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congrats for getting back on track, I too have had the same problem with making excuses for eating something I shouldn't (I work out it should be ok)

but a little of something for me turns into a lot of something, and a little of this and that turns into lots of this's and that's... I started back on track on monday, so I am on day three - no sugar, no white stuff, and eating what I should.. cleared out the house so there isn't anything I shouldn't eat there.
good luck, keep up the faith and breathe....
c

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carolyn in texas
started 8/11/03 327/268/177
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onward thru the fog

ambition, thanks for stopping by! how is school going for you?

hi shannon! i won't be done w/ spring semester til june 8th. yes, i'm taking one class this summer - but it's a "turbo" class. meets twice a week for only 5 weeks! so i'll be off from 6/8 - 7/27. fabulous!!

i'm feeling good. stuck to plan 100% yesterday. i can tell i'm in induction/P1 ... i am going to bathroom all the time, even though i'm drinking the same amount of H2O as always. and i feel sooo lethargic during my wkouts. and i'm feeling so HUNGRY at certain points throughout the day! i love that. when i'm off LC, i never really feel true hunger. i typically just ate when it was time to eat. but when i first start SBD, i feel hunger right before breakfast, lunch, and dinner. it's like i know my body is working properly, LOL.

anyway, ran 6 miles last nite, then biked 15 mins and lifted biceps. thought i was going to die. just felt so hard.

did some cooking last nite - made some casserole to bring for breakfasts at work.

plan for today....
B: mixed up casserole
S: coffee w/ skim
L: big salad
S: nuts
D: grilled chicken and veggies
S: SF jello and cool whip

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Carrie
156/154/135

still feeling good. ate on plan all day yesterday ... i think i may have eaten a few too many garbanzos for dinner .... but could have been worse. workouts are still killing me. running feels so hard ... i managed six miles again last nite, but it took me FOREVER. like 65 mins! i've never had to go that slow ... but i know i'll have more energy in a week or so. also biked 15 mins and lifted triceps. been sleeping very well.

got up early this morning to register for my summer course, and i got the one i wanted ... yeah! i am really looking forward to the nice break i have coming up!!!

BF had a hard day yesterday. he applied to a history PhD program - his application was due may 1st and the program starts in the fall. he called yesterday to confirm they had his application etc ... and they informed him that both the fall AND spring programs are already FULL. we were shocked ... nowhere on the application guidelines does it say that early applicants are encouraged. i thought they had rolling admission, just like most advanced programs. BF is so upset. now his life/goals are delayed for an entire year. he is so sad .... :(

well, i am working from home today. it's rainy and grey outside. yuck. i have class tonite AND a marketing make-up class tomorrow nite b/c we don't have class on memorial day. YUCK. then i'm working on a marketing case all day saturday. parents are coming down sat nite to help hang some pictures and dad will do some electrical work for us. i'm making a nice dinner to celebrate mother's day ...

ok, eating plan for today:
B: mixed up casserole
S: coffee w/ skim
L: salad?
S: nuts
D: egg beaters and turkey bacon

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Carrie
156/154/135

Welcome back Carrie. sounds like you are getting a great start, and you'll be back in shape in no time.

Love your journal title.
I have a postit note stack that says.

Things I need to do today:
1. Breathe in.
2. Breathe out.

I certainly need the reminder sometimes.

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2009 WW - 228 / 199

I want a Christmas Onederland!!

hey kiddo! great title to your new journal! i say it all the time.. but actually DOing it ... thats harder *L*..

right now you need to tell your bf to breathe.. poor guy.. what a heartbreak eh? dang..
so whats he gonna DO for the next year while he waits?

sounds like youre all healed up so that you can do all that running eh? good deal! so happy to hear that!

psssssssssst got me a tab energy drink in the fridge..*wink*... some terrific person told me about them...*grin*

annnnnnnnnnnnywho.. ya sound really upbeat and motivated... keep it up!
will be great to peek in and see your success!

have fun with the 'rents this weekend!

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hi MK! i need to get some of those post-its ... so cute!

kimberly! how are you?? thanks for stopping by. yes, BF is pretty disappointed. he has a full-time teaching job at a high school in an affluent IL suburban area (i.e. spoiled rich kids, LOL). he has been there for seven years, and he was planning to do his PhD in the evenings (part-time, like me w/ my MBA). he likes his job, but the commute is horrid (since we live downtown) and i think the kids are starting to get to him. he just needs to be challenged more, i think. anyhoo ... we'll see what happens.

oh i do love those tab drinks! so good!

well, i'm still feeling pretty good. definitely eating clean and on plan. i'm a little worried that i may be eating too many beans (they are allowed on P1 SBD) ... but w/ my workouts, i feel like i do need the extra "good" carbs. not sure ...

yesterday i went to the gym before work since i had class at nite. biked intervals for 50 mins and ran a mile. felt pretty good. since i have class tonite, i am taking the day off from the gym.

eating plan for today:
B: mixed up casserole
S: coffee w/ skim
L: big salad
S: nuts
D: another salad (cobb)
S: SF jello

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Carrie
156/154/135

oh i am doin okay i guess *L*

its great that he has had a career in the same place for that length of time, but i can understand how he wants to extend his skills *wink*.. and uh.. get some time away from spoiled rich kids *L*

beans are good for ya, but just keep monitering how you feel, what your body does ... and then see if you need to limit them at all..
its ALWAYS such a juggling act, ya know, whatEVER we do *L*... keeps us on our toes i guess..(nice way of saying IT DRIVES US NUTS!!! *L*)

ya sound good tho, carrie.. positive... i like that!

(((((((((((carrie)))))))))))))

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Hey Carrie - just noticed you started a new journal! (been out of the loop lately) Love the title. Sorry about Bf's setback. That stinks!