It's odd how your losing weight sometimes affects how others perceive you (they get more friendly, treat you better, etc.), but it also affects how we perceive ourselves, and it really shouldn't. It's a shame we feel less worthy when we are fatter, and think we are more worthy if we're thinner. It's a load of rubbish, but we all are guilty of feeling that way. And it's scary to make changes, to try to understand how to deal with the changes, not only in our body, but in the way we look at ourselves.

If we could just like ourselves, have wonderful self-esteem, regardless of our size, weight, height, hair color, etc., then life would be a lot different, wouldn't it?

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Yes, indeed: Happy Mother's Day!

Nita described my experience pretty well up there...I know one of the weird things for me along the way was the sense that my self-image was in constant flux. My weight was changing, the way people responded to me was changing, and it felt like I saw someone different every time I looked in the mirror. I couldn't look at an item of clothing and tell if it would fit me or not anymore.

It was extremely disorienting, and it also didn't seem to be directly tied my weight, either. And it could change on a dime. I tried taking headshots at least every ten pounds because that helped me kind of ground the changes I was going through and gave me a frame of reference, if that makes sense...

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It does make total sense. I had a v. good friend say to me about self esteem that in my head I know I lost weight and am looking good, but it hasn't reached my heart yet....Interesting and I think true! So I think I am really trying to have those two things match up! I don't think they have ever matched up before...so it is a challenge!

I agree with Nita, it should all be about who we are not what we weigh, but man, it is an easy trap to fall into!

Did anyone else LOL for the scale Heather recommended for me? I thought it was hysterical!

Well, I was off for a few days and had a great time!

On Thurs, I went to a farm near my sister's house and loaded up on fresh produce! The prices were so low and the food so good! One thing I forgot was how much washing you have to do with all of the food. But that is a nice chore that let's you do something with your hands while your mind can wander!

Friday was running errands, but that was relaxing too. No stress to be home by a certain time or to deal with everyone getting out of work at 5 and rushing to all of the places I am.

Finally realized it was back to reality around 9 pm last night. Not too bad!

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oh yeah, the celebrity scale was a hoot! sounds like you had a great bit of time off...good for you! and it's "good for you," too.

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Thanks Goddess!

I had a good night. Went to a local women's meeting about helping out those less fortunate. It was pretty positive. One or two power-trippers there, but I can handle that!

Got home late and I was hungry. So I had a cucumber from the farm for dinner. Delish!

Today is a hamburger and romaine lettuce for lunch - yummy. Tonight's dinner is cottage cheese. I have a drs appt at 7 and I am trying to decide if I should work late or go home and come back out this way. Probably better to work late. Once I am home I don't want to go back out again. Rather get in some shorts and play in the garden or read a good book!

Have a wonderful afternoon all!

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A DUH! I almost forgot.....Sister is in labor! What a hoot! She thinks the baby is popping out any minute...and has said so since yesterday! LOL!

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What a long labor poor gal! You will share pictures with us Auntie right? We love babies!!! Isn't it fun being an Aunt? It's just another way to pick on your siblings. Spoil their children rotten and let them get away with stuff their parents wouldn't, ha ha! My brother had some issues with me playing makeup in Korea with his 9 year old. Apparently she isn't aloud to go out in public like that. tee hee

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Being an Auntie is great! I have seven neices and nephews so far. Tee hee! This next one is being stubborn and taking its time! He is going to be a pistol! I can hardly wait to do that spoiling Heather! It's the best!

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thought I would stop by nd see how you, has your sister had her baby yet....
sounds like you are being in control of your food....
take care
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Mab - I hope your poor sister has given birth by now. Nice to expand the family, isn't it? Have a good thursday. I also thought that scale was funny.

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Sister still hasn't had the baby! They sent her home again. She went back this morning but they don't have her in the birthing rooms. This little one is being stubborn! Tee hee! I'm sure he'll be worth the wait!

I'm doing well. Staying on track. Stepped on the blasted scale this morning. Boo hoo. But I am going to stay on track and feel good about it. That's what it is all about!

I have gained 17 pounds in eight months. Need to see some results but I am going to try like crazy to have those results be my energy level, the fit of my pants and feeling good! We'll see how long I can stay away from the scale! I think once a week is an ok amount of time to spending with the fiend!

Have a good day y'all!

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Still no baby?!? That poor sister of yours! She'll have quite a story to share with him later.
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I'm so proud of you for not listening to that evil scale. You know that you are feeling fantastic and that is what counts.

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Mab - Must be Braxton-Hicks contractions your sister was having (see I have watched Grey's anatomy). once a week is a good plan! Have a good thursday!

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rob, you crack me up! whenever i make a medical diagnosis i say, see, i watch er! do you really watch grey's? i love it!

so today i am well behaved. scrambled eggs for breaki. garden salad and yep, cottage cheese for lunch. trying to talk the husband into another date tonight, hoping we will go to outback. i love their alice spring chicken. yummo!

if not, i will make ribs. just haven't been in the mood to cook. have to get motivated again. i was doing well planning, now i think i should prep two or three meals so i can just reheat them. spring does this to me. i get antsy and lazy at the same time. weird!

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