Sandi, you are winning the war in small steps! God bless you with strenght, insight, wisdom, fortitude, and peace. I know exactly the hunger you are talking about. When I became a Christian, I thought God would fill that space and when it didn't always work that way, I blamed my self for lack of faith. Now I know we still have a lot of baggage and stuff to go through before we can change whether it is spiritual or physical change. Celebrate your victories!! Also I have noticed that some of that hunger with me is biochemical-- I am on antidepressant (Cymbalta) for my fibro- taking that has helped some, and adding some supplements such as melatonin and HTP-5 (i think), eating more vegetables helps too, because I think our bodies know what they really need more than we give ourselves credit for. From my world view, I can say that God has given us the tools we need. Dear friend, you will make it through the rough spots-- look at all you have survived already!!! I am sure you didn't think you would make it. Now you will make it without self destructing in the process. I know you can do this, I am praying for you and your family, and I can't wait to listen and visit along the journey. Love, love, love, and hugs from New Mexico. Your friend in the wal= Oonagh/Susy

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Thank you Suzy for stopping by. How is the fibro going?
Sometimes I am not sure I will make it. Next month will be the test.
and I am scared for some of it, dreading the other parts.


anyway
today isnt a good day, well it started off ok,
3 hb eggs
2 hot dogs and a salad
and supper was 3 sausages
I cooked them over night in the crock pot with watered down Ragu
But it must have had gluten in it or this brand of sausuage did,
cause now I am now in pain.
I havent cheated with gluten, at least knowingly for all of August.
This is a record for me. It used to get me so sick before, and yes I knew about all the things that would happen to me if I ate that bread or what ever. It didnt stop me.
So it is frustrating now to be in pain for something I didnt intentionally eat.
Last time I looked Rago was ok to eat. I didnt eat the sause per say, I rinsed the sausages off first, they just cooked in the sause.
Tomorrow I have alot of running around to do, Jace has PT at 10 am and Dentist at 3, and get Jess at 10 from school and a lot of stuff inbetween.
Good night

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Atkins and Totally Gluten free 8/1/09
355.6/324?
31 pounds gone (8/1)

Don't dig your grave with your own knife and fork. ~English Proverb

In the Middle Ages, they had guillotines, stretch racks, whips and cahins. Nowadays, we have a much more effective torture device called the bathroom scale. ~Stephen Phillips

ONE MONTH OF ATKINS

My weight 355.6 -345. 10 pounds
I was hoping for more in the first month
Yesterday I weight less lol

Sisters is
394.8 - 380.4 14 pounds

I havent cheated, I dont think I am eating enough
I will reread everything and push eating more

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Atkins and Totally Gluten free 8/1/09
355.6/324?
31 pounds gone (8/1)

Don't dig your grave with your own knife and fork. ~English Proverb

In the Middle Ages, they had guillotines, stretch racks, whips and cahins. Nowadays, we have a much more effective torture device called the bathroom scale. ~Stephen Phillips

Hello again
Still in pain. Getting better slighty
I would love to know what had gluten in it,
It was ether the sauasages or the Ragu I cooked it in.
Ate eggs today, to give intestines a break
Might do the same tomorrow.
Went to get the kid from college today, and the *^*%^&%^ check engine light went on, yet again. I dont know how I can afford to fix the car now. It never ends and I am so tired of things going wrong all the time.
God, if your listening, I am waving the white flag today.

Going to bed now, have a good night

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Atkins and Totally Gluten free 8/1/09
355.6/324?
31 pounds gone (8/1)

Don't dig your grave with your own knife and fork. ~English Proverb

In the Middle Ages, they had guillotines, stretch racks, whips and cahins. Nowadays, we have a much more effective torture device called the bathroom scale. ~Stephen Phillips

Tuesday, Sept 1
Well this month will bring alot of changes
The first will happen on the 3rd. I just hope its not too bad.
Then Jeff will be leaving. I am having a hard time with this.
SOme because I am not sure it is the right thing to happen. I feel he is doing it for the wrong reasons. I can only pray.

Today, good day on the diet,
But this mouth of mine is always so dry and tastes bad.
My intestines are almost ok today. That was scary, how painful it was.

food for the day
did 2 mystery shops hense the fast food.
Tea with sausage and 3 hb eggs

double cheese burger minus roll
side salad

double quarter pounder with cheese and I shared a side salad with sister
and i was a bit hungry had 2 more eggs just now

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Atkins and Totally Gluten free 8/1/09
355.6/324?
31 pounds gone (8/1)

Don't dig your grave with your own knife and fork. ~English Proverb

In the Middle Ages, they had guillotines, stretch racks, whips and cahins. Nowadays, we have a much more effective torture device called the bathroom scale. ~Stephen Phillips

Wed. Sept 2nd
TOmorrow I find out how bad it all is money wise.
Praying its workable.

sigh

Today.,
walked all of BJ's been a while sense I could do that, and I walked the school,
all in the same day! (sad that I get excited over that) sigh!

3 hb eggs

2 burgers with 1 cheese
small salad

steak with string beans

1 tea with cream

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Atkins and Totally Gluten free 8/1/09
355.6/324?
31 pounds gone (8/1)

Don't dig your grave with your own knife and fork. ~English Proverb

In the Middle Ages, they had guillotines, stretch racks, whips and cahins. Nowadays, we have a much more effective torture device called the bathroom scale. ~Stephen Phillips

Hi Sandi,

Did you get a male or female Beta? .I have 2 males: 1 named "Busta" and 1 named "Buddy". They do wonders to help with de-stressing.

Hi Phat,
I got a beautiful Blue male
He is relaxing to look at.
His name is Blue fish lol
you know red fish, blue fish
yea i know orginal

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Atkins and Totally Gluten free 8/1/09
355.6/324?
31 pounds gone (8/1)

Don't dig your grave with your own knife and fork. ~English Proverb

In the Middle Ages, they had guillotines, stretch racks, whips and cahins. Nowadays, we have a much more effective torture device called the bathroom scale. ~Stephen Phillips

today has been a totally depressing day,
sometimes life is so unfair, and today was one of them.
I made stupid mistakes like staying home with the boys when I should have worked, cause if I did that I wouldnt be in this problem now.
sigh
But I ate more then normal it was still on plan
this am it showed I havent lost anything all week
but gained 8 ozes and thats depressing too.

anyway
3 hb eggs

lunch was chicken salad, mayo

supper was omelet as the others had meatballs with sause and that gets me sick
4 eggs, mushrooms, some cheese and alot of roasted string beans

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Atkins and Totally Gluten free 8/1/09
355.6/324?
31 pounds gone (8/1)

Don't dig your grave with your own knife and fork. ~English Proverb

In the Middle Ages, they had guillotines, stretch racks, whips and cahins. Nowadays, we have a much more effective torture device called the bathroom scale. ~Stephen Phillips

Sweetie, you did what you felt you needed to at the time, you did it with love, and with your sons' best interests at heart. Don't beat yourself up. Keep praying, keep on the road. You will find a way to overcome your weight and Financial problems. You are a strong and resourceful woman and you trust in the Lord. You have friends here too.
S

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Friday, 9/4
I feel so lost and useless and failed totally.
Did some errands, came home, cleaned a bit, tried to earn some money on line.
It is quiet here tonight,
Jeff is working, he has a little over 2 weeks left and then he is gone
Jess is working and I will have to get him at 12 mn or later
Jace is having a sleep over.
This weekend Jeff is taking Jace on Sat. and spending the night at a friends house and Sunday he will also get Jess, Should be nice!

Todays menu
3 hb eggs

3 eggs with mushrooms, now this is the 2nd time it happen, when I ate the mushrooms, I had the runs and felt sick, never happen before too. SO I guess I will lay off them for a while
anyway it had some cheese in it too.

steak and string beans roasted with butter

its getting depressing too as I am trying really hard and I am not losing.
345 the ozes go up and they go down but I am not going under 345
I will say the pants I have on now, dont feel as tight, so I guess thats good.

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Atkins and Totally Gluten free 8/1/09
355.6/324?
31 pounds gone (8/1)

Don't dig your grave with your own knife and fork. ~English Proverb

In the Middle Ages, they had guillotines, stretch racks, whips and cahins. Nowadays, we have a much more effective torture device called the bathroom scale. ~Stephen Phillips

Not so tight pants is GREAT! You are reshaping what you are made of and where it is. I always notice more "cellulite" bumps when I'm losing, or about to go down, even though the scale says the same. Right now I am in a standoff with my scale-- its been so hard I am afraid I've gained all the weight back I lost and I don't want to feel that pain and discouragement. I've been avoiding it like the plague till I get back on induction. Silly! Enjoy your time with yourself, and the time with the boys. I am praying for you. Please, please, please, please never give up. You are helping ME so much and others as well, I am absolutely sure.
Love!
S

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today was another day
scale went up 4 ozes
Gonna lose my health insurance soon, so i made apts with regualr dr and gyn
I am not looking forward to them
I need to make a apt with the lung dr and get a cat scan, as I have a artifact in my lung and one more scan and if nothing changed, I am ok.
I think my thyroid is enlarged. I dont need all this now.

2 h/b eggs

3 hot dogs

hot sause chicken with ranch dressing

had to drive Jess to a friends house and he stopped at BK and I had a double cheese burger, minus the buns.

I wanted to go lower on the carbs and see if that helped
we will see in the Am

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Atkins and Totally Gluten free 8/1/09
355.6/324?
31 pounds gone (8/1)

Don't dig your grave with your own knife and fork. ~English Proverb

In the Middle Ages, they had guillotines, stretch racks, whips and cahins. Nowadays, we have a much more effective torture device called the bathroom scale. ~Stephen Phillips

Sept 6th
Well got on the scale in am and was 345 AGAIN, seems all I do is move around 345, up a few ozes, down a few ozes. Now I have been this for 2 weeks (I think)
Its been very stressful here and all. BUt unlike the past, I have not cheated, if I cheated it was eating less, as I have not been hungry.
Well late AM I found TOM came to visit. I havent had that for 7 months or more, I figured it would come if I was gluten free/ lost weight, and it did. I didnt miss it. Maybe thats why I havent lost much this past week, I dont know.

Today I made stuffed peppers, it was sooooo good
I know I made the 20 carb allowance today
I fried the hamburger meat and added some onion, salt and pepper. Let it cool a bit.
Added some chedder to the mix and another cheese.
then I boiled the half cut peppers for 2 minutes
Then I patterd the meat into the half shells.
cooked. When they got out, I added a bit more cheese on top
was so good and so easy.
I have enough left over for lunch tomorrow, and a dinner for Jess when he works. Yea!

Lunch I had turkey slices and ranch and half a advocado

b/d my 2 hb eggs

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One Day Starts Today!!!

Atkins and Totally Gluten free 8/1/09
355.6/324?
31 pounds gone (8/1)

Don't dig your grave with your own knife and fork. ~English Proverb

In the Middle Ages, they had guillotines, stretch racks, whips and cahins. Nowadays, we have a much more effective torture device called the bathroom scale. ~Stephen Phillips

Sept 7th 09
Happy birthday to my husband, soulmate and friend.
He would have been 53 today!

Life is so unfair at times.

Please dont take anyone for granted, you just never know, if it will be the last time you see them.
ALWAYS let them know you love them, hug them.

Anyway, Even thought I wanted to pile in ice cream or anything today I didnt

I had
3 scrambled eggs
turkey slices with half a
avocado with Ranch

supper was the last nights dinner left overs, one half of a pepper filled with hamburger meat and some cheese and string beans, was sooo good

I might make fried cheese tonight not sure.

today was weight in

Sister weighted 377.4
Me 341.4 I was 345 for so long, I wonder if it will be this tomorrow lol

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One Day Starts Today!!!

Atkins and Totally Gluten free 8/1/09
355.6/324?
31 pounds gone (8/1)

Don't dig your grave with your own knife and fork. ~English Proverb

In the Middle Ages, they had guillotines, stretch racks, whips and cahins. Nowadays, we have a much more effective torture device called the bathroom scale. ~Stephen Phillips