Hi Phat,
Thanks and hugs.
No I have to look for the recipe for it.
I make the one by slighty butter the frying pan and drop cheese in it and let it fry up hard.
Last time I did it, i fried some pepperoni slices and then i threw cheese on it and then i mixed it all together, sloppy but good.

I have no skills, been home with the boys for 27 years.
Now I see it is a mistake, but I really enjoyed being a mother. sigh


Today was frustrating
Went to the Dr. Had a physical.
He is doing alot of blood work, some I asked for, some to see why my thyroid is enlarged. I also have to go for a scan for it.
My throat and ears are hurting, so he put me on antibiotics as I have a throat infection.
I got the regular flu shot, he wont even stock the swine flu one, which i didnt want anyway, but I asked.

So the blood work will be back thursday.
I have been doing Atkins sense 8/1/09 faithfully. SO we will see my HDL and all that.

My car has decided to act up. The ABS light came on, went to the mechanic and it wasnt on then, and they cant find out why. As soon as I start to drive home, it is back on. My car likes to play head games with me, I tell you......

Jeff is sick, he is such a bad patient. He is whining so bad. He is so congested and he cant smoke, so he is going thru withdrawl too.
He came down coughing and asking me, why did it have to go to his lungs like this, why couldnt it have gone to his arms or something!!!!
He is 27 too....


He leaves on the 23rd. It is getting so hard dealing with this, I find my self starting fights with him. I cant help it. I dont want him to go.


today I ate in no special order

couldnt eat b/fast for blood work
wendys stacker and side salad (no bread)
2 teas with cream and 2 slenda
ground beef cooked with onion flakes, cut in small peices and when it was done i mixed 2 different kinds of cheese in it and it melted.
Then I put it in a bowl on top of lettuce.
everyone loved it

and then I tried the mock danish
more for Jace to take to school

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31 pounds gone (8/1)

Don't dig your grave with your own knife and fork. ~English Proverb

In the Middle Ages, they had guillotines, stretch racks, whips and cahins. Nowadays, we have a much more effective torture device called the bathroom scale. ~Stephen Phillips

Wed Sept 16th
Weight in last week 341.4
this week 335.8 finally the scale moved.
Tom is almost over, so thats good too.

My sister weights 372
one day I have to go find the start weights again lol

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31 pounds gone (8/1)

Don't dig your grave with your own knife and fork. ~English Proverb

In the Middle Ages, they had guillotines, stretch racks, whips and cahins. Nowadays, we have a much more effective torture device called the bathroom scale. ~Stephen Phillips

Thanks for the egg tip Sandi. I'm going to try going a fat fast again as it seems that is the only time lose any significant amount. I need another jump start..

Hey Sandi, just read your recent weight loss post...yeah!!!! You're doing great. Hang in there.

I don't have any children. I am the consummate career woman who wishes she had stopped the climb up the corporate ladder long enough to smell the roses. "Mom" is one of the most important jobs in the world. Please stop saying you have no skills as you have many. It takes a lot of skills to raise a family!!

Hope your tests all come back negative for any serious issues.

Thank You Pip
Ill know somewhat tomorrow about some of the tests.
Have to get the thyroid scan and go to the gyn,which i had to put off another week, due to the never ending tom.

I was pleased about the weight loss this week.
Im happy my sister is doing good too.
Its getting close to the end now.
Sunday She comes and they leave Wednesday.
I just wish they left the same day,does that sound bad?
I am so sad about this.
My life isnt good right now, So many things i wish I did over, i want a redo lol.
Wednesday he is leaving at 4 am with him and her in his camero, and his best friend and Jace (I am letting his stay home 3 days to go with him) in his other car
and on Sunday Jace and Heath will fly back. I will be glad when they get their safely too.

3 hb eggs
chicken legs - 2, salad
2 burgers with cheese
lemon water

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Don't dig your grave with your own knife and fork. ~English Proverb

In the Middle Ages, they had guillotines, stretch racks, whips and cahins. Nowadays, we have a much more effective torture device called the bathroom scale. ~Stephen Phillips

WAY TO GO SANDI!!! YOU ARE DOING GREAT! I agree with Phat about NOT putting yourself down for choosing to be a full time mom. After 20 years teaching school, I can say this without hesitation: we were WRONG to make a decision as a country to let someone else raise our kids for us. I don't care if its mom, dad, or grandma, -- but SOMEBODY needs to make a home for our children and for us. My students don't have "HOMES" they have places to park as they rush in and out of life and drive through windows. Some don't know where they will sleep-- and I don't mean the homeless kids, but the middle and upper middle class kids, they might be shuffling back and forth between parents, or dumped off at a friends or aunts while Mom or Dad or both go party, or, or, or, the list goes on. They have never had a meal at at table with the tv off, they sleep wherever they drop, no set bedtimes, no stories, no prayers, no Mommy tuck ins, just drop down dead tired in front of the tv. Not everybody, but so, so many of my kids live this way and it breaks my heart. I wanted to stay home with my child, but financial circumstances never permitted even though I am in a stable and committed marriage, I was the one with the insurance~and the totally reliable income. But I thank the Lord every day that DH worked at home while Michael was a baby, even though I cried every morning when I left him. When DH took an outside job, my son stayed with grandma, and then started half day preschool when he was 4, so he could learn how to socialize with kids. I had no choice but there is still a little part of me that is jealous because I had the role dads used to, off to work and missing all the little first steps. Dont ever berate yourself for making your children a priority. I often wish some people would remember that they HAVE children, lol.

Sorry, on my soapbox again. I havve praying extra hard for you, I know your toughest times are coming. BE strong. I am so proud that you have withstood all this stress without getting off LowCarb lifestyle.

Phat, I don't know how old you are-- here's a FYI. I was married 15 years and into my 3rd or 4th career before my son was born. I had given up even praying for a baby though we wanted one from the beginning. I gave birth to my first and only child at the tender age of 43-- sailed through the pregnancy more or less, high as a kite on joy. He is a healthy bright 6 year old now, and one of the reasons I am back on lclifestyle is because I want to live long enough to see him grow up. Not to mention needing the energy to keep up with him. It might not be too late for you-- examine your heart and your health and who knows? Just a thought.
Take care, Sandi.
Love, love, love, and hugs

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Thanks Suzy and PIP for stopping by and encouraging me.
6 more days till Jeff leaves!
Sunday she comes
so i only have tomorrow with him and it wont be long.
He had errands to do and then he leaves for his last day of work at 4 pm. He will come home and sleep and sometime on sat. he wil lgo out with his friends as a going away thing.
And on Sunday he is picking her up.
Gee when he told me he was leaving, it seemed so long ago, and now its here.
I lost so many people in my life, this just seems like another loss.
In reality I dont think we will see each other much at all, he doesnt agree, but I know its too far away for a weekend trip, and I cannot afford to visit him.
Im sorry I am acting like a baby now. Ill be better when its over. It just keep hanging over me, like a dark cloud.
I never thought I would be like this.
I got my blood results back
Ill get a written copy next week and see in detail as the Dr doesnt go in detail.
My chol was 228 now about a year+ it was 225, but in the middle I gained and ate bad.
So who knows what it was and maybe my memory wasnt that good, we will see. i am not worried yet about it.
My D levels are on the floor. So I have to get some vit. D and take it.
My throid levels are all good, so I have to go for the tyroid scan and see what there is a lump there.
I am not even close to pre menapause

Jeff is still sick and man is he a big baby
Jess was home sick today, and Jace seems to be getting sick
all 3 cannot afford to get sick lol

2 hb eggs
2 small hamburger patties
salad
string beans and 2 cheese hamburgers that I shared with the dogs lol
1 tea
not too hungry today, forcing my self to eat

its funny I feel hungry, but my the time I have the food, I have to force my self to eat and a hour later i am hungry again lol

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In the Middle Ages, they had guillotines, stretch racks, whips and cahins. Nowadays, we have a much more effective torture device called the bathroom scale. ~Stephen Phillips

Friday night
its getting so close to him leaving. I hate it.
today running around, cleaning, Jess isnt feeling the best and Jace is getting sick.
Jeff is feeling better.
We went to Jeff's work to bring him dinner, as its his last night, and the co workers werent doing anything, so we did.
Jess says he is working late tonight so that means after one, and he has to be at work at 9 am tomorrow.
We are having a yard sale tomorrow, We cannot not have it, as it is all over the house and all.
Jeff wont be home much as he is having a go away party with some friends.
She comes on Sunday.
3 hb eggs
3 hot dogs
3 sausages and a salad

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Don't dig your grave with your own knife and fork. ~English Proverb

In the Middle Ages, they had guillotines, stretch racks, whips and cahins. Nowadays, we have a much more effective torture device called the bathroom scale. ~Stephen Phillips

Well tomorrow, Heather comes,
geese it was a long time ago, that Jeff told me he was moving, and here in less then a week, he will be gone. I want it over with, I hate the waiting part of him to go.
I think I will be better, after he goes.
Today I cheated a bit, first time sense the diet, and it was so unworth it, as it didnt even taste good.
My fibro is killing me too.
Had our last yard sale today, did ok, had alot still left.
Freecyling it and all.
Jess got home at 2 30 am last night, and being in the fresh air, I am tired.
So I am ending this now
I dont know if I can be here tomorrow,
see how it goes with her here and all

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31 pounds gone (8/1)

Don't dig your grave with your own knife and fork. ~English Proverb

In the Middle Ages, they had guillotines, stretch racks, whips and cahins. Nowadays, we have a much more effective torture device called the bathroom scale. ~Stephen Phillips

Hi Sandi,

Perhaps you will feel better when Jeff leaves as anticipation of an event is often more stressful than the event itself. And when it is finaly over one often feels a sense of relief. Good luck to you and hope to see you hear again real soon.

Im here for a bit,
cant stay away
your right PIP
the anticipation is worse, and I cant stop crying, I know its not all about him but other problems I am having. Just the same I am very sad lately.
I feel stupid and like a baby now
I wanted to cheat so bad today, even went out to get it, but once out, i couldnt find anything I wanted. I did have a bite of sons cheese stick, from arbys , the cheese was ok the coating wasnt. But that was the worse of it today.
My ibs is acting up
3 hb eggs
3 hot dogs
cheese burger
2 teas

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31 pounds gone (8/1)

Don't dig your grave with your own knife and fork. ~English Proverb

In the Middle Ages, they had guillotines, stretch racks, whips and cahins. Nowadays, we have a much more effective torture device called the bathroom scale. ~Stephen Phillips

one more day and he leaves
sigh
today was a so so day
I so want to cheat, but dont have the engery or the hunger for it, so I guess its mental hunger

I did have a ice mocha at Mcdonalds
When Jeff leaves I have to get back to details with what I eat
I barely care now.

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Don't dig your grave with your own knife and fork. ~English Proverb

In the Middle Ages, they had guillotines, stretch racks, whips and cahins. Nowadays, we have a much more effective torture device called the bathroom scale. ~Stephen Phillips

well tonight was supposed to be Jeffs early Birthday dinnner
but due to another persons doings
ruined it
and Jeff yelled at me and it was a big sad mess.
But how quickly he turned against me for her.
she has her claws in good.
I will be so glad when he is gone, I will be even happier when Jace is home safe
I cant change Jeffs mind, even thought I think he is making a big mistake.
I just hope he doesnt compound it by getting her preg. anytime soon.
I didnt know sad can feel this..... well sad
but i didnt cheat
made Jeff lazanza
and i made mine without the noodles
but it tasted horrid to me

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31 pounds gone (8/1)

Don't dig your grave with your own knife and fork. ~English Proverb

In the Middle Ages, they had guillotines, stretch racks, whips and cahins. Nowadays, we have a much more effective torture device called the bathroom scale. ~Stephen Phillips

well Jeff left at 5ish this am
Last night I wanted to be a nice dinner, turned out to be a mess.
This am he was ok but SHE was all giggly which annoyed me no end
I am sad and mad at Jeff, for reasons I wont go into here. He is deserting us when we really need him the most.
One more year wouldnt have killed them to live here or just deal with it.
And it hurts how easy it was to yell at me and turn on me for HER
without hearing my side of the story.
And before she left, she gave me permission to call any time, even her work> Hello I dont want to talk to her.
And I gained 4 pounds.
I really didnt cheat, maybe more cheese, and didnt eat enough, or enough veggies.
But I am still proud of my self as this is why I started the diet so i wouldnt go for all my past comfort foods.
life sucks

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Atkins and Totally Gluten free 8/1/09
355.6/324?
31 pounds gone (8/1)

Don't dig your grave with your own knife and fork. ~English Proverb

In the Middle Ages, they had guillotines, stretch racks, whips and cahins. Nowadays, we have a much more effective torture device called the bathroom scale. ~Stephen Phillips

Hi Sandi,
Hang in there Babe, our kids have to make their own mistakes, including siding with stupid people they want to impress. Maybe living with her will be a rude awakening! Seeing someone everyday and having to deal with them face to face is a bit harder than a long term long distance relationship. Maybe she will grow up too, or kick him out-- which would be painful for all of you, but might be better. Sometimes people, especially males, have to pick fights to be able to separate or leave someone they love. i have often wondered if that was one reason teenagers are so difficult-- so we want to kick them out of the nest and they want to fly! 26 year olds can be the same way. It is not a life stage known for its generosity and selflessness, lol.


You are so amazing to have gone through all this and stuck to your NEW WAY OF LIVING and EATING. Not a diet, but a way of life and making choices for yourself that are good for you. Hooray Sandi!! 4 pounds is a blip on the radar screen sweets, I think you can gain 4 lbs just thinking about a diet, stressing, or thinking about stepping on the scale~ Gotta run, cuz im way behind at work. Stressed out myself. Just wanted to stop and give hugs and smiles and prayers. Hang in there!!!!!

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