Hi Sandy,
Thanks for the reassurances! I didnt weigh this morning cuz we got up late and had to FLY to school. But the first teacher that saw me said "You are shrinking to nothing right before our eyes!". LORD LOVE HER~ that made my day. Her idea of nothing must be slightly short of a large marine mammal (No whale any more thank goodness, but maybe an elephant seal cow), but I was really glad to hear it. For once I didn't argue, just said "Why thank you!". So easy to make my day. Hope you are well. It is another beautiful day, but I never get to go out with the kids because I am cleaning, prepping, or something at recess time. Gotta go.
S

Oh, HA HA. On conference day a parent stood me up because he thought I was the cleaning lady. I asked if I should update my wardrobe (well duh, silk dress and heels doesn't cut it in kindergarten, especially if you are ADHD and messy like ME). but my collegues, just said "Next time let somebody else scrub the floor on their hands and knees".
Im not exactly sure who they think will do it, but I am not going to spend any money on clothes while i have piles of old ones to shrink out of. CHEAPO, yep, thats me. More going out than in on necessities, so Mama's wardrobe is the last to go.
Have a good day.
S

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i love the shrinking before their eyes part.
How much have you lost in total?
I lost 30 and no one sees it and I barely see it lol.

I wont buy new cloths till they are swimming on me lol

things are ok here
so far tests are coming back normal,
the dr visit tomorrow scares me a bit
pray for me
thanks

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Atkins and Totally Gluten free 8/1/09
355.6/324?
31 pounds gone (8/1)

Don't dig your grave with your own knife and fork. ~English Proverb

In the Middle Ages, they had guillotines, stretch racks, whips and cahins. Nowadays, we have a much more effective torture device called the bathroom scale. ~Stephen Phillips

I am sad to say that my total is not as good as I thought.
Sometime in Spring: 316
Started locarbing next to last week of July
First week of September 265 (wow, down 51 pounds)
2nd week of September 280
Various weeks of Sept/October-- up and down weekly (daily sometimes) +5-10 or - 5/10 pounds.
Tuesday November 9: 272
So I guess my total is about 44 lbs. Sigh, wish I hadn't let stress, disorganization, and carb creep add that other 10 pounds.
I am also thinking that my scale went wacko. It has been really consistent since then, so maybe I didn't lose as much as I thought!
I still feel better. I am going to try to lose that ten (+ 4 or five more) by then end of December, and I would like to be MUUUCh closer to 200 by my 50th birthday.
Wouldn't that be great!

I have been on a raw veggie CRAZE for a couple of days now. I just can't seem to get enough celery, raw broccoli, mini bell peppers, cauliflower and a few carrots. I know I need to watch the carrots and cherry tomatoes (too much sugar) but my body seems to really need veggies, so I am not cutting them out entirely. I am also trying to up my fiber content, so I am eating either a fiber cracker (the big flat ones that look and taste like cardboard with a few seeds on top--- after induction they taste great~! or a small bowl of fiber cereal with cream and water.
Going to "grandma's house" for dinner, so who knows what is on the menu. I keep trying to get her to go low carb,. but she is suffering so much from the loss of my Daddy that I don't want to pressure her. 'sides, we know THAT doesn't work anyway. I am missing him too. So, so much. But losing weight is something I can do in his honor and his memory.
Hoping I see him again in Heaven, but not sure.
Anyway, take care all, and KICK THE CARBS!!!
Oonagh

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sending hugs
your still doing good!
Dont stop
how was dinner?
what are your plans for thanksgiving?

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355.6/324?
31 pounds gone (8/1)

Don't dig your grave with your own knife and fork. ~English Proverb

In the Middle Ages, they had guillotines, stretch racks, whips and cahins. Nowadays, we have a much more effective torture device called the bathroom scale. ~Stephen Phillips

Hey y'all
I had Veteran's day off. I really stunk at low carbing though. Tuesday afternoon I went to stepmom's house and ate a handfull of peanut M&M's (flirting with disaster, since i have had severe allergic reaction to peanuts), maybe a handful and a half, i visited the bowl several times for "just one". Then my son wanted to spend the night and I went home and ate pretzels while on WOW. Wednesday we went out to eat and I got a chili cheese dog and ate the bun before I even thought about it, that hasn't happened in a long time, then last night we got invited out to a greek restaurant we like-- i usually eat just the lamb gyro and some salad, but I ordered beef stew, mostly potatoes, and ate half a bowl, and a 1/4 of a pita. I was having a fight with husband (rare, he was tired and grouchy and I mentioned it which made him grouchier, go figure, i knew that before hand). By the time I got to my music rehersal I couldn't stop crying. Lo and behold, a few minutes talking with a friend (just out of surgury for a PREVENTIVE hysterctomy, her mom died with both breast cancer and ovarian cancer at same time-- she tested positive for some gene and will have masectomy next, because she is in such a high risk group, sounded insane to me, but it surely put MY little problems in perspective.) then i was crying over her, but trying not to show it. Singing was great, I am a tenor so I sing with the guys, and the sound guy is a base player, he always makes the low parts sound good. Anyway, after an hour and a half of praise and worship music at the top of my lungs, I couldn't help but be better. Even with stops to go over parts that were rough, I was still worshipping and praising, it's never just a rehersal, God always touches me directly when I sing to him.
Then my husband was sweet, and to make up for being a grouch, this morning he volunteered to come to dinner/crochet club with us girls -- (kind of like volunteering for a root canal for him, i think.) I let him out of it though. Late, but low carb today;
Here is my interesting, balanced and healthy menu today:
Breakfast: 1 glass water, 1 cup lukewarm coffee, 2 mozzarella sticks.
Snack: 1 cup almost cold coffee and 2 mozarella sticks
Lunch: sips out of same yucky, cold coffee-don't want to walk down the hall to get more and you got it: 2 mozzarella sticks.
Wow! What amazing creativity I show.
Dinner at a friend's mom's house- I won't get much because they are serving pasta and salad. I feel about the same way as DH does, my friend's mom will be putting us under the microscope and the approval board. She fell and hurt back and had to stay with parents for 2 weeks. She is 31, but her parents treat her like she's 3 and don't approve of friends like us, lol. I am too old and too unconventional-- wait till she meets Grandma Cathy! And the wild child!
It seems like a small sacrifice to make, because I know my friend is lonesome, hurting, bored, and going nuts being treated like a toddler.
Tomorrow my goal is to prepare better breakfast and lunch for my son and I, and to cook something good and low carb for all of us. As much as I love having the "TURKEY NECK" just before Thanksgiving, I really want to keep lowcarbing with no more interruptions. Fortunately, I didn't gain any weight or get a bad reaction from all that junk I ate yesterday, slight headache, no bad flare. Gonna make that wattle wiggle, and then shrink some more, if it kills me. (or somebody eats me for a BIG FAT TURKEY).
Take care.

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Well, I was not the poster child for LOW CARB eating yesterday,
We went to my friends mom's house and everything was high carbs-- mostly pasta. I took a tiny bit of the pasta and oohed and aahed over it, then ate salad, lol. The french bread toasted with garlic, cheese and butter smelled so good, but I didn't eat any. My friends mom was the type to push you to eat more and more, nice, but nervous about meeting her daughters friends I guess, unless she is always that way. (probably cuz I as old as she is and my friend is 30, lol) I have always had friends from all ends of the spectrum-- right now the span is about 4-95, lol so I am used to it.

I couldn't pass on the homemade pumpkin bread without offending her, so I ate it slowly and it was good. Funny though, not a great a treat as I would have thought.
I really just wanted my low carb stuff.

This morning we woke up late again, and I ate a cupcake (no frosting) at school because 1 cheese stick is NOT enough breakfast for me. Same thing-- good, but not worth the trouble it causes. My son ate the pumpkin bread she sent home and all the other cheese sticks we had in the house. He had to eat in the car on the way to school, which I hate. My resolution this year was to sit at the table with him for breakfast every day. So far I have only missed it on 2 days, better than last year when we always ate granola bars and juice on the way to school.

I am writing right now, because I am fighting depression this week very hard. I have had a lifetime of clinical depression, but I make myself DEAL with it. I am writing so I don't say "Oh the heck with it who care anyway" and eat another cupcake or a candybar. I have some slices of roast beef for lunch and I'm staying away from the supply cabinet with all the sugar. I can't help but wish this Demon Depression would leave me alone-- My step mom changed antidepressants and is doing so much better. I am PMSing, not eating very well, and not getting enough done in my life, which is always stressful. I just don't seem to have the energy to deal with it right now. After nearly 50 years of fibro, depression, and Chronic Fatigue, I am self aware enough to realize that those issues, plus hormones and change of season make me this way, but some how that doesn't help much while I am trying to climb out of the tunnel. I really hate it when I let myself feel sad, worthless, and incompetent- whether as a person, teacher, mom or whatever. I hate the whining too. But at this point it is better for me than eating. Reading it is optional, so I don't feel too bad posting, LOL.
Well gotta go clean up. Some brilliant soul (me) took the kids out to jump in piles of leaves, then brought a bucket full inside so they could glue the pretty yellow leaves onto construction paper. It looks like somebody lost control of a leaf blower in here! Or as usual, that a medium sized tornado blew in my front door, destroyed the classroom, and whirled on out the back. The janitors are gonna hate me if I don't get it cleaned up, and the substitute for my assistante looked at me like I was completely nuts. I have to agree with her.
Church group is supposed to come over for the usual meal tonight, but I texted everyone and said I needed time alone with my dirty dishes, lol. (and the laundry, etc. etc.)
We sing both saturday and Sunday this weekend, so I have to rush around trying to get at least one chore done so we can survive till Thanksgiving.
I will have in laws over, and possibly everyone I know who doesn't have family here, so i need to do some SERIOUS closet stuffing if I am going to get it clean. Do you suppose they will check under the beds? LOL
Have a good day, friends who check in here.

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you know I care and all.
Hang in there, you can and will do it!
Your not whining your venting and everyone needs to do that sometimes
hugs and prayers and more hugs

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Atkins and Totally Gluten free 8/1/09
355.6/324?
31 pounds gone (8/1)

Don't dig your grave with your own knife and fork. ~English Proverb

In the Middle Ages, they had guillotines, stretch racks, whips and cahins. Nowadays, we have a much more effective torture device called the bathroom scale. ~Stephen Phillips

Sandi, you are the sweetest of sweet hearts! I am sad to say that we went out to dinner Friday night, and I was so down, I was looking at the pie menu. I was thinking that some blue ribbon winning Village Inn pie, say a big piece of Dutch apple with ice cream might just fix me, cuz the no carb meat breakfast I ordered wasn't cooked to their usual standard-- burned and the ham was full of tiny bone slivers.
Just as I was thinking "Oh the +{_)*_+)* with it, bring on the pie" and wondering what my cheering section (Daddy/Son low carb cheerleader pros) would say, when two more ladies were seated at the table next to me. They appeared to be a bit older than me, mid 50's to low 60s, and they looked and talked like teachers. I am ashamed to admit that the reason I didn't order the pie was that one looked about twice as big around as me (dang, that would make her closer to 450 lbs than I thought possible. She sat her chair in the middle of a 4 top and took up both sides spaces. The other one looked to be at least a hundred pounds higher than her. This is all relative, but wierd because I automatically judge EVERYONE i see as thinner than I am. When we went to Sea World, I was pretty sure I was "bigger" than Shamu. At the zoo, I was comparing myself to Big Mama elephant, and I came out heavier and "bigger". I was saying to myself "dang, I bet I wear at least 2 Xs bigger than her and Shes a danged elephant!" Looking over and being shocked that TWO ladies appeaered to be AT LEAST double my size was a big shock. Now, I am not saying that fat people are stupid, slobby, unhappy, or worth less than anyone else on the planet (unless, of course, I am talking about myself). But these women were gigantic, and they ate about 5 times my meal each. My son is a slow eater, so I had to be real careful not to keep looking their way. I sure didn't want to be one of those jerks who stares at fat people. I 've been on the receiving end too long. But they were in line of sight, and I wanted to run over and hand them a l,ow carb eating tract and save their lives, heck I probably would have thrown in my testimony about Jesus too, If I ever got started. Instead I moved the pie menu stealthily under the other one, hoping my cheerleaders hadn't read my mind. I am ashamed of myself, but the only thing saving me from EMOTIONAL EATING and a SUGAR binge was the sight of two fat bottoms, each side as big as my entire body. I prayed for them and hoped that either they were happy or just about to hit bottom and find low carbeating. I thanked them silently, very silently for saving me from myself.
Still keeping to the straight and narrow. Will weigh in the morning, but at church I sang in an outfit I couldn't get up past my knees earlier this fall. It felt great!

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hey friend!!
What ever it took to not eat that pie!
Cause at this moment you wouldnt have remembered the pie but you would be paying for it lol
Awesome about fitting into the dress!!
Did you take before pictures?

Funny I am always surprised at how big and fat and ugly i am, i dont look at my self and when i see a picture of me, i groan. I dont feel this old, or fat lol
but I am both

sending hugs

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Atkins and Totally Gluten free 8/1/09
355.6/324?
31 pounds gone (8/1)

Don't dig your grave with your own knife and fork. ~English Proverb

In the Middle Ages, they had guillotines, stretch racks, whips and cahins. Nowadays, we have a much more effective torture device called the bathroom scale. ~Stephen Phillips

Before pictures? Ha,
Last year my stepmom and I had DH take Sideways (big belly sticking out) and front and back pictures, in unflattering light, to be our before pics. They are still in the camera as far as I know. Like most FAT people I know, I stay out of the camera whenever possible. It is such a shock to see how you really look, and no matter how bad I think it is, I always look 20 times worse when the picture shows up.

I;ll look around for one to send you, but it's NOT a pretty sight.
At least we had our clothes on, and I have lost weight.

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I have few pictures of me too, I do have pictures that I toll for the last diet, I started at a heavier weight this time around
Everytimg I see my picture, i am in shock at how bad i really look

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Atkins and Totally Gluten free 8/1/09
355.6/324?
31 pounds gone (8/1)

Don't dig your grave with your own knife and fork. ~English Proverb

In the Middle Ages, they had guillotines, stretch racks, whips and cahins. Nowadays, we have a much more effective torture device called the bathroom scale. ~Stephen Phillips

WE JUST HAVE TO REMEMBER THAT WE ARE SUCCEEDING THIS TIME, AND THAT IT IS A LIFE STYLE, NOT AT DIET!!
Probably one thing I should start doing is getting into the family pictures, and accepting myself as I look now, tomorrow, etc. My grandmother was a beautiful lady, inside and out, whether it was during her heavy years or her skinny. I am sad how few pictures I have of her. My other grandmother (the one with the perpetual coffee pot) was not particularly overweight, but I don't even have one picture of her. She didn't want to be in the pictures-- She seldom even sat at the table with us, she hovered around in the back serving everybody and taking a bite or two out of her plate when she went back into the kitchen to get something else for my grandfather or one of the boys. My mom was the rebellious one, she taught her mama how to drive (imagine learning how to drive only after you 4th kid is in high school!) and made her her first polyester pants suit. My grandma put that on and my grandfather had a fit, and she threw all her "house dresses" away for good. That was her rebellion I guess. Funny, because he never minded when she put on a pair of HIS jeans to go hunting with him, but until that pantsuit she she even worked in the garden, or went out in the snow or wind, wearing dresses.
Sorry, been thinking a lot about family and traditions, and changes lately.
Anyway, I think You and I need to get into the picture so our sons will have something to show their grandchildren! They love us as we are. I always begged both grandmothers to get in the pictures with me, till i realized that I was fat and shouldn't be in there either. That is a shame.
Love you, sweets.
Have a great day
PS DOWN TEN POUNDS Yall!!!
I think my scale is lying, because my body feels heavier, not lighter. My belly is sticking out again, and I am bloated and my jeans are tight! HELP! Gotta be more careful.

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Hey Oonagh,

How ya doing? Just stopped by to say Hi!! Been way too busy these days but miss you guys!