Thread: HELLO ITS ME... kims journal..

anita... thanks for worrying..i appreciate that.. very much..:-)
well... darling honeymoon went in for cath to see why he was still having chest pain.. sweats.. no energy ect... on tuesday.. well.. they found out the problem.. in november he had OPEN HEART surgury to the tune of 5 bi -passes..,,:-{ it never seemed to work.. and although he never complained of PAIN as such or anything else... he DID always say that he didnt feel any DIFFERENT (after the surgury ) EXCEPT for the horrific pain of the actual surgury.. so.. after 8 months and finding my brother in law dead from a heart attack a few weeks ago.. he decided to actually CHECK to see what was up.. GOOD THING.. it seems ALL but ONE of the grafts were already plugged again... not due to plaque or diet but SCAR TISSUE .. totally were flabberghasted... surgeon was STUNNED.. and the orginal surgeon said that ONE was a NEW blockage of a previously FINE vein artery whatever.. AGHHHHHHHHHHHH
so.. they did one stent right then (an emergency hospitol co worker heart attack had the doc quit my husbands surgury)
so... after reeling from that news.. they decided to FINISH the job the NEXT day (wednesday) and so the worry continued... they did 2 more stents then because two others were NOT GOOD enough to stent..:-[
so.. both surgeons (first and this one) agreed that they have no CLUE what is going on... only 2% of the hearts do this.. and they dont know why...:-[
the say they wont do any more of the grafts.. and dont think they would even TRY any more open heart with grafts... and darlin honeymoon is ADAMENT that he wont go that route but would prefer to die..:-{
and so we brought him home yesterday.. its been only a couple days but it seems like a month.. i am tired.. depressed.. and utterly devastated... but we will see how these stents hold up... and see doc in a month..
thanks for your thoughts and prayers.. i appreciate it ..
i have been going nutso with overeating LOW carb.. but still it seems like it is stress related.. at least it is just plan foods that i am eating more of.. :-I
i am back to not feeling like grabbing something and stuffing it into my mouth mindlessly today... and have re started the ACV i had slacked on and also the supplements... getting back to alot of water again... and hopefully if i can ride THIS wave of depression out.. i will be JUST fine in the LC department...
funny how eating an extra egg or salad seems like such an indecretion *L*.. not a bag of d***to's or a pound of f/f's...
LC rocks... the control is so much easier on that front..

oooooooooooookay... so i lied... i did end up feeling like eating every five minutes last nite again...grrrrrrrrrrrrrr i know that it IS low carb that i eat ... but still dont like that NEVERENDING feeling of wanting SOMETHING ... ANYthing in my mouth.. *sigh*.. i know its nerves.. but still.. pisses me off..
i had a big salad.. with chicken in it.. i had an egg... i had a ton of water and iced tea.. and devil coffee... then i went scrounging for little low carb thangs around... almonds... green beans.. STUFF.. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
*sigh*... darling honeymoon says he doesnt feel any better yet..:-(

What can I say Kim? HAng tough? This is a difficult time and at least you're sticking to low carb pigging out! Hope DH is fit and raring to go soon!

thanks rob.. i am hangin in... i felt the same way again yesterday.. grabbin lc stuff .. beans.. egg... almonds... devil coffee all blippin day long..:-(
but.. i put on a freshly DRIED CRISP *L* skort on today that i had worried might be snug after all the almonds and califlower i ate..(major bloaters *L* ) and it is FALLIN down still if not more..*L* my daughter calls these short skirts my GIDGET look *LMBO* well as long as the gidget is fitting way loose i am GOING to wear them..*L*
on the honeymoon front.. darlin honeymoon was wrestling around with youngest grandkiddo (2) and i thought HOW COOL IS THIS! but then.. he went back to the couch and didnt move much the rest of the night..:-( i think he overdid it aGAIN... men! so dang stubborn..*sigh*
i watched GEORGE on LOWCARB AND LOVIN IT on food network (the man who inspired me to start LOWCARB in january... he did spaghetti squash and shrimp ,,, looked good... i was inspired again.. reminded me why i started this...
soooooooooooooooooo i took my ACV again (back in the groove on it) and my supplements .. gettin alot of water in ... alot of salad and veggies..
i was watching OLYMPIC swimming last night and didnt walk... although i had wanted to walk 6 of 7 days a week i ALMOST ALWAYS had walked on sundays just incase some crap came up (like it is doing aLOT these days..) so i felt guilty.. daughter # 2 walked to town from her house to the shoppe so she got hers in and didnt feel the need to walk with me.. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR at least i got the gazelle in.. WALKIN TONITE ... olympics be damned! *L*

hey girl... good to see ya... wondered where you were..:-)
well... husband went back to work today.. its nine pm and he is in bed.. so... needless to say it must have worn him out..
business picked up a bunch this week YEAH!
grandkiddos doing great..
daughter #1 doing fine..(cept her stupid boss never pays on time.. always runnin low on funds)
daughter#2 and i walk almost every nite.. she is chattin with some guy in alabama or somethin and even gave him her PHONE NUMBER.. aghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh does the name TED BUNDY mean ANYTHING to her,,,,*sigh*... i told her to give me the name he SAYS is his (motherly scepticism ) and where he lives so i know where to look for her when he turns out to be a freak..*L*
oh man... and she is no KID shes gonna be 27 next month.. always SOMETHING to worry myself about..
my little sister (ha! shes 45!) is coming from mass. next month... so finally SOMETHING good to look forward to...*L*
i still have some freakish feeling of WANTING something to stuff in my mouth all day long.. celery.. salad.. eggs.. meat.. ANYTHING...*sigh*.. low carb or not it is driving me NUTSO... not sure what.. either i am lacking something or i am a nervous wreck... must be the second choice..*L*&
so whats up with you anita? been thinkin good thoughts and sending them YOUR WAY!

AGHHHHHHH i at least on a good note... am STILL taking my acv again.. and supplements still water.. still walking further than before almost every nite.. and still doin the gazelle freestyle elite ..(love you tony little.. what a great little playground toy for adults... LOVE IT!!)
we walked in the dark tonite.. had tons of cars coming close to running us off the road (mountain road..read:CLIFFS!!!) AND then as if THAT AND THE BUGs WERENT bad enough.. BATS started dive bombing us!!! good thing hubby came early looking for us and i waved him down to escape from the bats.. TOMORROW will be a DAYlight walk... oh yeah...
also... on a THE LIGHT GOES ON moment... i am starting to think the ADDED coffee (devil) is making me want to eat more.. it makes me hyper when i drink alot and edgy and add that to other major stress and it equals NERVOUS EATING ENERGY...
gotta cut that devil coffee back again... dang... i thought i had it licked.. and its SUMMER dangit.. i cant even blame cold weather for it..:-(

Hello, and thank you for posting in my journal. I was about to add some low carb chit chat but I read back in your journal a week or 2 and just want to say I hope all is well with your husband. Amazing that you haven't eaten your way through the entire kitchen.....how you maintain low carbing in the middle of all that stress....I gotta hand it to you....well done! Hang in there.
I'm ashammed to say that I've ALREADY fell off the wagon. Self discipline has never been a strong point of mine...but at 52 it's time to get with it!

betsy
uh oh... yes... get back on the wagon...dont let a better life pass you by... you deserve it..
as for me... hmmmmm noBODY is more amazed than i that i have been able to stick to it with all this grief... its pretty shocking..
i was a junk food junkie for sure...


as for darlin honeymoon.. he seems to be doing okay... goes back to see dr. one 3 weeks from now.. i HOPE he is okay. god knows i would be lost without that man...

heykim, I turned on my private messaging, so it should work now. I'm with you, I'd give almost anything to live in northwest again. I spent 10 years on Olympia and loved it. Portland is also wonderful. I miss the mist in the air, the smell of the ocean, the culture and attitudes. Its a different world down here, and my hubby also loves the desert and the heat so I doubt I'll be living anywhere else in the near future. I really haven't spent time in Phoenix, but I do like Tucson.

thanks for stopping by staci and anita..
well... honeymoon isnt feeling any better.. sees dr in a couple weeks..we'll see what happens then..
daughter #2 has been using my puter at nite so i havent been on much at nite...its nice to be missed!
also.. started walking EARLIER due to it being colder now.. rainy... and gets dark earlier... ALSO.. honeymoon gets too tired to come and get us lately.. so we have been going when we know he is coming home and then he doesnt have to leave and get us AGAIN later.. working nicely so far,,,
other reason i have been slackin in the posting dept. is that i found DIETPOWER freebee for 15 days off one of the threads in the msg boards.. it ROCKS! what an eyeopener on the amounts of calories.. fat.. ect... i had been checking carbs.. i had no IDEA how MANY CALORIES i have been taking in... TONS! and STILL i lose inches and weight.. how WILD!!
i think i posted in each of your journals... if not.. i WILL be ..;-)
had some great strawberries and cream tonite.. couple hot sausages and EVEN tried one of those atkins morningstart bars this morning... KINDA SWEET BUT good i guess.. change of pace... not something i would want often.. but i was bored for something new ..*L*
didnt do much in veggies .. had a LAUGHING COW creamy swiss wedge..YUUUUUUUUUUMMY
back to the salad and veggie thang tomorrow.. i got a ton of water in... my ACV and supplements...
knee is hurting again... daaaaaaaaaaaaang.. back to the dr again i guess.. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

aghhhhhhhhhhhhhh
took afternoon off to take #2 daugther AND her kiddos to town for shopping... JCPENNEYS ... GRRRRRRRRRR no carts.. what a flippin NIGHTMARE.. finally got a stroller and it PINCHED 8 year olds finger to the bone..*grrrrrrrrrrrrr* they STILL have no CLUE how to do email gift certificate sales to be rung up.. pisses me off.. TRAIN PEOPLE to do it if you OFFER that blippin service!!! grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
anywho
had a shell-less taco bell taco salad and water..lunch
had a salad with grilled shrimp dinner
throw in some nuts
toss in a carb countdown smoothie for breakfast
add a few ounces of carb countdown juice before bed..
DAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYUM... not bad ... i did DARN good for all the stress i was feeling..(dont even get me STARTED about work..:-(

anywho
TODAY i had a bunch water.. few nuts that i threw back without even THINKING when some stupid crap happened with the guy selling my nephews house (from BIL that passed away recently)
i guess it could have been worse... but i sure didnt even REALIZE i had done it .. till they were GONE.. i was seeing red..
*grumble*
anywho
love LOVE LOVE this diet power thang.. dang.. means shellin out 50 bucks .. but i may JUST do it.. it is THAT cool... the more i dink with it the more i like it..(still didnt read the manual so to speak)
says too much sodium.. DUH.
tells me WHY i am so high in it..
charts weight
charts all the nutrients and exercise
man.. it soooooooooo ROCKS!
anywho...

bought the hood brand smoothie.. gonna check the taste against the dannon one i bought ...
loving the carb countdown milk in coffee (yes.. devil coffee still) instead of cream...

Hey doll, just stopped in to see how you're doing.

"few nuts that i threw back"

LOL - sounds like my office!!!

Don't ya love incompetent retail clerks??? *rolls eyes*

Hang in there!!!