Law1: Nothing says that you can't post to two forums !
Go to this link for info about Fibromyalgia. www.arthritis.org/, and click on the "Conditions and Treatments" tab. Fibro is a rheumatological disease. You need to see a rheumatologist or a psyiatrist (a specialist in muscles, most often found in sports medicine)
Here are some websites I found:
www.nlm.nih.giv/medlineplus/fibromyalgia.html
a site by the National Institutes of Health that looks very helpful.

fmnetnews.com A site that offers a newsletter.

When I was diagnosed several years ago the diagnosis was based solely on the level of pain I experienced (which was considerable!) in 18 different pressure points in my body. This was a standard test, with pressure points being the same for all those with FM. Now, it is believed that the latest brain studies, showing serotonin and norephenedrine levels are promising. Both regulate the amount of pain/depression in a person. (simply put)
Your local Arthritis Foundation office can find you a Dr. who is sympathetic to Fibro.

Now, as to your "whining." It has been a few weeks since you found your way back to us. It is wonderful to see you here, and to see your posts. You have been a lifeline to many of us on this Board. I absolutely hate to see you in this funk. But, I do know that depression can cause some of the feelings that you are having. I remember that your son has severe food allergies. Don't you too??? (Think!) Yup, carbs and sugar, right?? I had to get them out of my house in order not to eat them. That was the first step. Then I had to convince myself not to go out and buy them either from the local 7-11 or the fast food places. You've done this long enough to know about food cravings, my friend; and about sugar cravings. I continue to be plagued by these, because I just can't seem to lay off the sugar for more than two days. Oh, I don't go hog wild (unless you count the piece of carrot cake I had last week), but I do have something sweet at least a few times a week. I know that when I do have it more than that, I have HUGE sugar cravings, and it is only in "biting the bullet," that they go away.
For all of us, as you know, the weight is lost one pound at a time. (or for the lucky ones, more than that at a time!) Please get yourself back on the program, friend. You have all the support we can give!!!
Peace, Peg
1/1/03
205/177/165
no munchies yesterday! Yay!

Law,
Feel free to vent and whine. It's sooo hard to keep all the areas of your life stable at one time. Don't expect that you can be perfect in everything. You've had a rough few weeks---You don't feel well, your son's allergies have been a big concern, you have been or still are involved in a big trial. And then there's all the regular day to day stress on top of all that.

It's true that Rachel, Peg, Steve, Elyssa, and I are all close to goal. But, that doesn't mean that we cannot support you and help you through this rough spot. I never knew anyone that needed fewer friends. Right now, we are all there to boost you up and help you get going again. We may not have had as much weight to lose as you did, but we all have felt distress at our situations. Talk to us now. And most of all, remember how far you have come. The road is there, just make the right turn and get back on track.

I read your post and the replies in the 100 forum. You have received some good suggestions. Give them a try and see how they do. Maybe you should take a break from counting and tracking. Take the pressure off yourself. That helped me back during the summer. But, don't take a break from us. We care about you and want you to succeed.

My numbers such as they are for today:

Calories: 1292
Fat: 74 (53%)
Carbs: 78 - 14f = 64 net (I think this is way on the high side. I didn't actually figure my recipe out and just took something fairly close on Fitday.)
Protein 85 (27)

Judy

180/142.5/138
"How long does getting thin take?"
Winnie the Pooh,Winnie the Pooh by A. A. Milne

Thanks Judy! Thanks Pegster! I did decide to post on both forums. I have good support on both. Before we started doing this Tracker forum, the 100 forum was my regular spot.

Everyone here is wonderful, which is demonstrated by no one taking offense at what I said above. Thanks. It really helped me to confess here and on the 100 forum. I feel like a big part of it is really putting the issue out there in order to be honest with myself. I have been really bordering on some depression. I had some really bad anxiety during the summer. My sister thinks I should get my thyroid levels checked. I think any of these medical issues can set a person off toward depression. I was depressed one other time when I was quite a bit younger. The big difference is that I couldn't eat anything. I lost a lot of weight (and I was normal weight then) and ended up looking anorexic (I wasn't, just ended up being really skinny -- about 115). I never think I could be depressed unless I can't eat (LOL!) I guess it can go both ways.

It's funny that you should mention the food allergies, Pegster. I have thought about sugar that way. My son has the deterrant that he can't breathe within minutes of eating an offending food. While I certainly don't wish to have that situation, it would serve to keep me off the stuff! I know it's harder when the effects are longer term. But I can feel it the next day, which should be enough. I have thought that I might have a gluten intolerance. One thing I am doing differently is eating this great lowcarb bread I found this summer. Maybe that is enough to set me off? I just thought of that as I was typing. I think I will try cutting it out to see if it helps.

Thanks for your support. I know you do understand even if you don't have as much to lose. Every pound is a struggle, whether it's the first or the last one to be lost! You are great.

Law1
Lowcarb since July 2001
296/211/150

Law,
Yesterday in the Atkins forum I posted my "Reflections for my one year anniversary" . In that message I commented on the help and support that I have received from people on this list. Although I did not name names, I want you to know that you are one of the people that I was talking about. I truly believe that this tracking topic and the wonderful people that have come and gone while I have been here have had a huge bearing on my success.

Thank you for starting the topic. I'll keep it going for all of us --- those getting to goal and those still working for it. And thanks to all of you who post here. May we all reach goal someday, and more than that, may we all be successful at staying there.

Judy

180/142.5/138
"How long does getting thin take?"
Winnie the Pooh,Winnie the Pooh by A. A. Milne

Looks like I'm out of luck for numbers for today....Fitday is down. Oh well

Judy

180/142.5/138
"How long does getting thin take?"
Winnie the Pooh,Winnie the Pooh by A. A. Milne

Hi all, sorry I've been outta touch - my laptop is experiencing some real troubles and I have not been able to do even simple email - I am typing this on my DH's pc at work.

Law1 - I wish I could reach into the computer and give you just a HUGE <<<< HUG >>>>. I have experienced depression off and on for many years and was finally pushed (very gently) by my DH and the therapist (who, at the time was helping us cope with childlessness) to trying medication. I had been adamently against it but have since found that it has changed my life in a significantly lovely way. All that being said, I am not suggesting medication, only that so many of us are walking around feeling lower than we probably should be - you are among many and there is nothing wrong with it.

I liked very much the posts that Judy and Peg wrote to you - especially about exploring some of the triggers like the sugar. We are with you and you are with us - I hope that is, in some way comforting!

Judy, I read your post - it was just wonderful - you are an eloquent writer

Elyssa... are you at sig weight? You were getting so close!!

I weighed in at 140 this am. I was very happy about that as you can imagine... I still have two more pounds to lose before I am back to my "pre-vacation" weight - but that particular light in the tunnel is getting larger!

I didn't track on Saturday and Sunday due to the computer issues, but I have been dutifully jotting all of Mondays and Tuesdays numbers on scraps of paper and have finally added them into fitday... here are those numbers:

MON:
calories: 1545 (a little high, grrr)
fat: 123 (72%)
carbs: 34-7= 27 (7%)
protein: 83 (21%)

TUES:
calories: 1037 (hmm, a little low!)
fat: 78 (69%)
carbs: 27-7=20 (8%)
protein: 50 (20%)

I am having a good deal of trouble getting enough water in a day - sometimes just two liters (about 64 oz)... I move around from office to office as a consultant - so I have no home, or I am in the house and in the office - any suggestions are welcome.

ok dears I am back to what they pay me for... great to visit with you all and I hope we all have a good week!

Hugs,
Rachel
165/138/128
Haec trutina errat. (Latin for,"There is something wrong with this scale".)

Looks like work overload and faulty computers have caught up with several of us this week. I have a pretty good case of both. Thank heavens the faulty computer isn't mine -- we had two to do repairs on last night and tonight.

I did manage to get all today's numbers into the computer.

Calories:1159
Fat:83 (65%)
Carbs:61-8f = 53net (18%)
Protein:48 (17%)

Rachel, can you get a sports bottle to fill and carry with you? I have a couple that contain about a liter. It's much easier for me than using a glass and trying to keep up with my water goals that way.

Have a good weekend everyone. I have papers to mark, grades to average, and repairs to finish. I hope yours is not so hectic.

Judy

180/142/138
"How long does getting thin take?"
Winnie the Pooh,Winnie the Pooh by A. A. Milne

Hey Judy, Rachel and all:
I'm here! Beginning to feel overwhelmed by the amount of stuff there is to do both at work and at home. The woman who cleans for me quit without notice, and my house is getting dirtier and dirtier. I know I shouldn't whine about such a luxury, but to tell truth, I've had someone clean most of my life. A therapist helped me see that cleaning brought out too many perfectionist demons in me. That's pretty much where I am today. Feel as though I have a touch of ADD. I keep moving from one thing to another. That's a sure sign that my mind is feeling pretty crowded too!
Have gone up two lbs in this week, but still under 180 (178). Ever since my Dr. gave me permission to stay here, I have! But, this morning, I did decide that I need to at least lose to 175 in order to have lost 30 lbs. I haven't seen that yet, though have gotten close.
Today, am lcing it, along with water. Haven't carried my liter bottle with me for a while, though have been trying to drink 64 ozs at work. Most days I make it. But, that's not enough for me. (Carrying it today) Another woman at work it also lcing it, and we are lobbying for a "bubbler" (New Englandese for "water cooler") at the church so we don't have to keep lugging our water bottles with us.
Judy: I did reply to your post about your anniversary. Must have gotten lost in the "ether." Love your writing. Appreciate your friendship. Congratulations!
Rachel: So good to hear how you're doing.
Missing Law1. Sigh
It's a beautiful Indian Summer day here. The leaves were blown off the trees pretty much last week. But, some cling, and the brilliance of the colors sets the lake aglow. It's lovely to be home! And it's lovely to have a home. I feel blessed.
Peace, Peg

The end of another month.... checking back through my reports on Fitday, it looks like I have managed to lose a whooping .5 pound. At least it's .5 down and not 5 up . Today's numbers look like I must have indulged in Halloween candy. I didn't, but I did eat some of the pork rind crispers this evening to reward myself. If you want to run up the calorie total, that's a good place to start.

So....

Calories: 1887
Fat: 147 (71%)
Carbs: 51 -15f = 36 net (8%)
Protein: 98 (21%)

As soon as I get this posted, I'll start a new thread for November. This month we really built lots of pages. Maybe next month we can do just as good a job and keep each other on track for Thanskgiving.

Judy

180/142/138
"How long does getting thin take?"
Winnie the Pooh,Winnie the Pooh by A. A. Milne