copied from old message board 4/4/04


pegster
04-01-04, 11:21 AM
Actually, not EVERY time, Judy. Just lately every few days! I pass McD's every day twice a day. Between that and Dunkin' Donuts I am constantly in a state of temptation. Sheesh!

I've not fallen off the map. Just working toward next week which will be REALLY busy!

Peace, Peg
1/1/03
205/175/155
5'8"

BC
04-02-04, 04:53 PM
Ok, guys, I didn't know what it was I needed to really seal my recommitment, but the Universe, through Andrea did. I had no idea Andrea had reprinted my "story" on LCE's front page until I stumbled there late on the 31st.....which was the eve of the sixth anniversary of my Mother's passing. It is surely no coincidence to receive so vivid a reminder of why I began this journey, and that I do indeed have what it takes to be comfortable and confident in myself and in my woe.

All I can say, my dear friends, is that there has been a sea change in my heart. The struggle has ended and the journey has begun again. I am filled with love and hope, and best of all, peace. Hugs to you all.

BC

Oh, Brenda! What a wonderful message! How magnificant to hear from you under such great conditions. Congratulations!
Peg

Well, Gang!

I've just read through this entire thread. It was a good exercise for me. It was good to realize that this thread is only a little over a month old. It was good for me to see how I have bounced around in the 170's. It was good for me to see how I have failed in my recommitment. (Really!) It was good to see how wonderfully supportive we all are of each other.

Some of us have not been heard of for a while. I wonder how Sharron is doing? I also wonder how Monica is doing? Also, how is April doing? Sharron had the flu last month and struggled so much with that.

This morning I weighed 177 again. This is a five pound gain for me just since last week. I know perfectly well why. I have fallen off the WOE and eaten just about everything that I can that is sweet. The dragon is alive and breathing fire in my soul. This had given me pause to stop and think about how sugar is my drug of choice when the internal stuff is just too hard to bear. I knew this. But I forgot this past week. One of the things that I struggle with in this WOE is this selective memory of mine! I am quite familiar with the addictive stuff. (psychological and spiritual) Putting it work in me is not something that I have been attentive to in these past weeks. I have been playing with sugar and should have known that this is like playing with fire for me. I was heading for a binge and I had it over the weekend.

However, one more of the positive things for me was to see that I have lost and gained ONLY five pounds in the past months. It FEELS like it is about 20 pounds.

I'm struggling with recommitment. A promise is a very important things to me. I expect others to keep theirs, and I even more expect me to keep mine. So, I suspect ( that my guilty feelings are more the promise breaking than they are the eating. Because it is so important to me, I am not recommitting myself today until I am sure that I can keep my promise.

However, I am going to eat clean today and try very hard to keep my recommitment goals.

Peace, Peg
1/1/03
205/177/155
5'8"

Well, I guess it really is twenty pounds when you count up how many times I've lost those five!

Peg

Ahhh, the power of positive thinking.

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Judy
Goal = <135, Current status = RIGHT ON TARGET!
Never give up. Never never never never give up -- Winston Churchill

Peg, I know. Sometimes we can only laugh!! But I hear you on wanting to be sure that your commitment will "stick." It means a lot to me, too, and I dislike the amount of beating myself up that I feel obligated to do when I really, really screw up. Really, sometimes the recommitted need to be committed for a while--to someplace without temptations!!


But hope the coming weeks will find us in a better place. The first daffodil bloomed in the back yard today. I take a rather sappy delight in it.

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BC
LC Since 1998
Highest Weight 172
Current 104-108

Oh Brenda! ROTFLOL!!!

My DH is off to another retreat today, so I have my quiet house to come home to tonight. I'll try to see it as a commitment of the quiet kind!

I got up deciding to get a salad for lunch. 2 hour staff meeting over lunch on Tuesdays. I eat there. Got my water with me. Then I'll be home for dinner. There is no food in the house, so I think I'll stop at the fabulous grocery store near the church. :fork:

Sooooo, my plans for today are good. We'll see how my car does in avoiding the temptations.

Peace, Peg
1/1/03
205/177/155
5'8"

I interrupt this thread to confess that LC tortillas may lead to a downfall. I've got to eat more veggies and quit rolling those things up into sandwiches.

I now return you to your previous thoughts.

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Judy
Goal = <135, Current status = RIGHT ON TARGET!
Never give up. Never never never never give up -- Winston Churchill