I'm getting back into my life again after a fairly rough patch.

I'm not even sure how it happened, but I just stopped doing all the things I had been doing and as much as possible stayed to myself. I even stayed away from the computer and email. Mostly I was just struggling to keep from drowning in the minutiae of my life. It didn't help that my father in law died suddenly and one of my treasured volunteer activities ended unexpected and with bad feelings. I've also been fighting to get my kids in this great private school after losing a battle with our local board of ed. You wouldn't believe the crazy things they want to do with elementary schools over here just to keep the statistics down.

Anyway, I'm here and back on the wagon as they say. I waited to come back because I didn't want to be back here for just a visit and then fall on face again as I've done before. I've been back on for 2 weeks now and passed the weekend test 2 times. I've already lost 10 pounds and feeling a little more in control of myself.

I'm trying to pull a wammy on myself. I'm acting confident and happy and social and hoping that my feelings will catch up with my actions. In theory it should work, or so they taught me in college.

I'm glad I still know a few names on this board. I'm sure I'll see you all around.
Michelle

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Michelle

Starting over 8/19/07

Michelle, I'm very glad to see you back, and believe me, I'm so glad you've had the courage to get up and take those steps to help yourself again. You are among friends, and among those who have been there themselves (sometimes multiple times)! I hope you know that you have support and friendship here, and that if we can help you in your journey, we will. You'd be very welcome to check in our daily vets thread, or anywhere else, of course, to get some support, and to share your experience with others.

There's a lot to be said for "fakin' it til you make it." If we all waited until we were in the mood and the planets were all aligned, we probably wouldn't have even discovered the wheel yet....or in another sense, we can't change ourselves by wishing, thinking, wanting, or desiring. We change only by changing! And then reaffirming that change over and over and over until it becomes our own. Nothing you don't already know, Michelle May this be the time that does it for you! ((hugs))

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BC
LC Since 1998
Highest Weight 172
Current 104-108

Hey Michelle --> Welcome Back!!

I totally understand where you are coming from -- and you are among friends here
(I've only been back just over a week now, myself)

we will be with you every step of the way

congrats on your first 10 pounds... if I could only be so lucky... i maybe get one per week. *sigh*

Terese

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My LC web site
LCE Member since 2000

Welcome back to us both! I haven't been able to visit for a long time myself, but it's really great to see the familiar names. I'm looking forward to getting re-acquainted with all the great LCEers around here.

~~~Teelbee

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~~~Teelbee
Back to GOAL!!!
start weight: 176/goal range: 137-134/now: 138
Reached goal in Aug. 2003 - 4rd year of maintenance.

Michelle welcome back! Sorry to hear things have been rough. I hear you on someof the school stuff.
Congrats on the 10lbs! It's a rough battle getting back on track but we can do it!

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~ 9 year veteran low carber still working on getting it right!

~size 10 working on a bit of regain to get back in my 6's!

~I left the 18's back in the year 2000 and vow never too see them ever again!!!

I am so glad to see you back Michelle!! We're here for you!!!
Im climbing back with you!

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Deborah
started 3/02
171/137/137
5'9"

Welcome back Michelle! I sure understand about not doing the things I need to do for myself...

We're all here for each other. That is one of the greatest things about this place -- no one sits in judgement. We are all fellow travellers...

Hi Michelle!

Welcome back!! It's good to see you again. Living "as if" is one of my favorite ways of living. Much of my life has been doing just that. Remarkable to me that my beliefs do come along with my behavior! I haven't left the board, but have taken many a detour off the WOL in the past six months or so!

Good to see you.

Welcome also to Teelbee! Missed you!

Peace, Peg
1/1/03
205/175/155
5'8"

Welcome back, Michelle. The fact that you came back says alot. You know what to do, so stay in there.

Michelle, since I'm not as actively involved in "losing" as I used to be, I don't come here as often. But isn't it great to know there's a place where you feel at home? Happy to hear from you.

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Barb L.
Atkins since Jan 2003
Maintenance as of 4/05


My Fitday Journal

Nice to see you back, Michelle.

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Jen



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