babybluejay1

When people find out that I have lost 150 pounds many questions come up but one worries me "didn't you ever cheat?" What!?! This question is worrisome because this person is that all or nothing person I used to be. That is how I got up to nearly 300 pounds. This is a battle that is worth fighting everyday for and not just until I eat a cookie. What is the point then because I am not perfect. Setbacks need to be learned from and we grow by them. I do what someone may call cheat....

What?!? Did I say that? Yes! For this food obsessed lady I'm realizing that indulging doesn't have to always be about food. I can indulge in things that make me feel good. I'm a girlie girl, as my niece calls me, and I love beauty supplies. Indulging in things that make me feel pretty. It doesn't have to cost me a fortune. Today I bought a flat iron at Salvation Army for $3.95 so I could do something new with my hair. I bought lotion to turn these white legs into something that won't cause car accidents...

I was gifted an extra 2 months on the end of my maintenance program so I didn't eat so well during the holidays. Now I have just enough time to lose 2 pounds per week to be eligible for my rebate which is doable if I work hard right? Yesterday a couple of gals were asking me when my rebate was due and how close I was. I let them know and they went on and on about how I wouldn't be able to do it because those last 5 pounds were going to stick like glue. I kept interrupting, trying to keep positive,...

Grandma has been really good lately at spoiling the kids with junk food. It's one of the ways she shows her love so I won't deny her of it BUT the boys eat until they are full which means....LEFT OVERS!! So I was about to take a bite when out of no where I screamed at myself, in my head of course so no scaring of children, of "WHAT ARE YOU DOING HEATHER? MAKE A DECISION! DO YOU WANT TO BE SKINNY OR DO YOU WANT TO EAT THIS JUNK????" That was two days ago and I can't believe how many...

Today I stared at the remains of a rice crispy treat and a pop tart contemplating if I should eat them. It was so hard but I tossed that junk in the garbage! The little girl I babysits Grandma sent treats and the kids didn't finish them. I've never been able to eat 1/2 of anything, I'm all about finishing what I take. I could have saved the remains for the kids but tossed it out in fear I would go back for them. If I can just get through this temptation this moment, and then just today......one...