ConnieD53

I caved last night. I wanted carbs bad, and I have been under stress at work and depressed and I thought they'd make me feel better. We went out to dinner, and instead of my usual cobb salad with oil vinegar dressing, I had bbq ribs, cole saw and baked beans. I felt sick afterwards. I came home and went to sleep on the couch, waking up only long enough to eat some popcorn.

When I woke up this morning, I knew I could NOT go to work. My head hurt and I just didn't feel good. Sooooo...

Today is a new day. My message from Joel Osteen yesterday said, Through His love, God gives us a fresh start every single day. No matter what’s happened in your past, where you’ve come from, what you’ve said or what you’ve done, God wants you to know that you can begin again. I need a new attitudinal beginning. Stress at work is killing me, but like my doctor said yesterday, It's just a job. So I will go to work, hold my head up high, and show the mucky mucks that I am WOMAN, I am STRONG!!!!...

I did it. I broke down. I ate cookies and crackers and peanut butter. The cookies tasted toosweet and the crackers too bland. My stomach hurt. My heart hurt. My mind hurt. It wasn't worth it.

I woke up with a headache this morning. I know it's the stress from work. Lots of stress! I don't even want to go into it because it ties my stomach up in knots. The only thing I have to be thankful for is that I haven't binged on the carbs. I am a stress eater but so far . . . and I will not allow my crappy supervisor to take all my self control away. I've cried enough tears the last couple days to flood an ocean. I'm so thankful for good coworker friends who are supportive of me and keep me laughing....

I had such a crappy day yesterday. On the flip side, today should be better because I think I got all the obnoxious inmates seen yesterday. I came home and wanted to cry. In fact, I did a little bit. But thankfully I did NOT get into the carbs.

Oh, and whoever (on another board) said those Flax Crackers were tasty LIED! Sure, maybe the flavor might be good but it's like putting flavored seeds in your mouth. I don't know why the company didn't grind the seeds to make the crackers....