It's been a year since I started this woe. It has been an amazing journey. I have learned a lot about myself.

I always had a thing about my weight and became obsessed as young teen. I grew up in a family where everyone was weight conscious including the boys. I was a chubby teen and always got comments like you have a big a-- and this usually came from my father and this really effected my self esteem. The first thing I started doing was throwing up my meals, It didn't really work that well for me but you can see how sick I was begining to get. Later on in years I started doing drugs to lose weight and I became very thin. The drugs made me very sick and I finally stopped using.

This is where my eating disorder took off. I would constantly be losing and gaining until eventually I quit eating altogether. This is when I had to be hospitalized for 3 months. They got me stabilized and I managed to put on a little weight, enough to make me healthy again. I went home and started the yo yo dieting once again, but didn't become quite as sick as I was. I managed to stay ok for several years. But 3 years ago I went into a deep depression and started sleeping a lot and stayed in my room. Through this time I put on about 80lbs, weighing in at an amazing 330lbs. I was devasted and started to isolate more because I didn't want anyone to see me in public. I noticed I was rarely in family pictures . One day I went for a walk and could barely walk a block and my back started aching. I almost didn't make it back home. This was an awakening for me and I knew I had to do something about it.

I was afraid of dieting again because I knew I didn't have the strength to go through what I did when I had my eating disorder, so I had to try something new. I had heard about Atkins, but I was unsure about it because I had heard so many negative things about this woe. I knew a woman who had lost 179lbs on this woe, but eventually gained a lot of it back and this scared me until I found out she never exercised.

I finally started lowcarbing in mid January. It wasn't long until the weight started to come off. I began to feel better emotionally, physically and spiritually. I started to go out more and my self esteem returned. Before long people were commented on how well I was looking and how much more upbeat I was becoming. To date I have lost 68lbs, probably could have lost my full 100 by now but I cheated a lot and kind of got off track. I now weigh 162 and feeling great. I don't worry too much about numbers on the scale or clothes. As long as I am feeling good and my esteem has improved that's all that counts for now. I know the rest of the weight will come off in time. This is not a race, its a new way of living and I found its ok to cheat once in a while, as long we get back on track the next day.

I would like to thank you all for sharing this amazing journey with me. I have learned a lot from all of you and you have been a great support. Many times I would have given up but I logged on here and recieved the help I needed to carry on. Thanks again

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Nancy

You've come a long way, Nancy. Sounds like you are off to beating a lifetime weight problem.

Congrats on the loss so far. You'll reach that 100 pound point soon enough. You remind me though that if I keep cheating (I did yesterday) then I will never reach my goals within the time frame I have set for myself.

I'm sure you'll keep up the good work.

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Noël


Worry doesn't empty tomorrow of its sorrows, it empties today of its strengths.

Nancy, you're doing a great job! Here's a toast to you, and the second year of your journey

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Tina

Congratulations on your success so far Nancy. Here's to your continued success!

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Shimmer
my blog

I think you have done an AWESOME job! That is ALOT of weight to loose in one year!! And you are well over half way there!!!!:bellydanc

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271/214/150

Thanks for sharing your inspiring story. Best wishes as you continue on this woe. It really does make a difference.

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Barb L.
Atkins since Jan 2003
Maintenance as of 4/05


My Fitday Journal

Oh, you've done so well! Congratulations on finding a way to good health and all your successes this year.

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~~~Teelbee
Back to GOAL!!!
start weight: 176/goal range: 137-134/now: 138
Reached goal in Aug. 2003 - 4rd year of maintenance.

Congratulations on your successes, and I wish you nuthin but more of the same.

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Congrats on the 68lbs! keep up the good work! You are doing awesome!

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Lori

232/190/130
My other journal http://www.lowcarbeating.com/bb/showthread.php?t=1130

Nancy - thanks for being so open with us. You are such an encouragement. Congratulations!
Karen

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Thanks Nancy for sharing your inspiring story! It gives so many people who come to this site a feeling of hope. That's a large part of what this website is about.

very great story.. thanks for shareing it.! your doing great.

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01/02/04-248{ 4/29/04- 218} 6/30/04- 204
7-05-04 198 8/30/04 - 190 (got lost after that-)
4/03/08- 261 -
Goal-140-145

Congratulations on changing your life, Nancy! Your story is truly inspiring. Thank you so much for sharing! Best of luck.

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174 lbs at heaviest



5'0 154/136.5/130