At some point in all of our lives (okay... some of us), we had some time where we felt good about the weight we were, or atleast what we were doing about our weight.

For me, I found a picture of sophmore year in HS, and it was the homecoming dance. I had this curve hugging burgandy dress on, and the fabric left no imperfection hidden.... but I looked at myself in that dress and I was happy there. I wasn't hiding from the camera... or covering myself in bulky clothes. I was happy with the way I was at that moment in time. I was athletic and fit.... and although I wasn't the "skinny" friend.... I was the super-jock friend who was confident in herself as well as her appearance.

Now I still have that dress, pushed way to the back of my closet.... it's been my "goal dress" for as long as I have been LCing ( so about 2 1/2 years now) and I have never made it back into that dress. BUt this time.... this time is my time. I'm getting back into that dress. I'm going to wear that dress again and look just as good as I did the first time.

So this is what I was thinking.... if I have the dress that takes me back to a time where I was happy with me, I figured there might be alot of other people that had similar pieces of clothing, or old photos. So if anyone cares too.... share your story. Tell us about YOUR "little burgandy dress" or that great suit from your brother's wedding that you wantto get back into. Or maybe the photo where you didn't hide way in the back of the group..... tell us what else it might be that you are looking forward too when you get to goal. Or what you are enjoying if you are already there.

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Megan Rose
Back and really to lose some weight!
250(sw)/196(cw)/175(gw1)/150(fgw)

For a moment I was thinking that there has never been a point where I was happy with my weight or what I was doing about it.

But then I remembered a time when I was on phen/fen. It was right at the end and while the method was a bad one the results had made me SO happy. I had this gorgeous rennaissance gown I had made and worn to the festival and my friends told me that everyone was looking at me with admiration. I was still obese. That was when I weighed about 260. But I felt good and knew I'd be in the 100's by that time the next year. Sadly that didn't happen, by that time the next year I was back in the 300's (at least 335 but I don't remember how much exactly). Though I wonder if I had kept on with the phen/fen if I would haev been cursed with heart problems. (I was checked years later and my heart is fine.) Maybe it was not my time back then but now I can feel myself learning and growing in my knowledge of healthy eating. I learn new things all the time now and put them into use. Which is FAR better than taking two magical pills that ended up shortening the lives of far too many people.

My most recent "not embarrassed anymore" story would be when we went a small water park on my vacation. I wore my new swim suit that I had not yet worn. My old one had this giant skirt that came almost to my knees. This was just a plain suit with no skirt. I knew I didn't look great but I didn't care because I knew I was doing something about my weight. So I didn't hide in the water the whole time but walked all around the park with Xander and enjoyed myself.

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Noël


Worry doesn't empty tomorrow of its sorrows, it empties today of its strengths.

Oh, well. Many years back I remember a pair of brown courdoroy pants I used to love. They were unusual as they had no seam down the outside of the leg. This was in an earlier phase in my life. I'd gained a lot of weight when I quit smoking, which I was okay with for a few years. It was a price I was willing to pay to be smoke-free. When I was confident that the smoking issue was under control, I went to Weight Watchers and lost all the weight I'd gained.

I'd been looking forward to getting back into those pants. But, when i dug them out and tried them on, they didn't look good any more. I was the same weight, but my body was not the same shape. Plus, they were really dated looking.

So, I tossed them in the Goodwill bag and went shopping.

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~~~Teelbee
Back to GOAL!!!
start weight: 176/goal range: 137-134/now: 138
Reached goal in Aug. 2003 - 4rd year of maintenance.