I have a lunch meeting with my boss in four hours and i'm just so nervous, i couldn't even sleep!. Here is the thing, i've been subconsious (sp?) about social eating all my life. This is a really huge deal that i usually don't talk about. But i'm really tired of feeling this way.

I've been overweight all my life and especially when i was younger i was always teased that i ate too fast and that i never left any food on my plate (my other siblings were very slim). I also feel that people like to stare at me. I feel like others are thinking that i shouldn't be eating what i'm eating and that's whay i'm fat!. My current boyfriend of seven years never saw me eating during the first year of our relationship. I would go out to dinner with him and have a diet coke...then i would get home and my family would be like "Oh Oh get out of the way, she's coming for the pans...lol" This was kinda funny and taumatizing. They knew i didn't eat in public and was gonna tear up the kitchen looking for food.

LC has changed a lot of my shame because i never feel embarrased about eating some meat and veggies or a nice salad...However, i'm still embarrased to eat in public with figures of authority, like my bosses. YOU ALL THIS REALLY KILLS ME. I have missed out on so many opportunites with my superiors because it involves eating and i just freeze.

With my current boss, who i love to work for because he so humble and friendly, i went out to eat twice and both times i've ordered a salad wich i hardly touched. How can i just EAT, like i do with my close friends ? Hope you all don't find this to weird, can anyone relate, has anyone overcome it? I know there is probably no short-term solution for my lunch meeting in now 3 1/2 hours, but any tips would be greatly appreciated. Thanks so much.

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I knkow how hard this can be. I never used to eat around people either, not even my boyfriend (now husband). I was very thin when I started dating him and I still didn't eat. So, I know where you are coming from.

If this is a business meeting. I am sure there will be a lot of talking going on. Let me stress to you that no one will be watching you eat. If they are, they only want to see what the girl who has lost all this weight eats!

Order something you feel good about. Like you metioned meats and veggies, Or perhaps a big salad. Focus on the meeting and the good there is in you being there and not on what you or anybody else is eating.

Good luck! Remember you are wonderful!

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Good luck all!!
Seesko


242/217/135 (pre-pregnancy)

254/234/150 (current)

Go Cubbies!!!

"What my mind can envision; my body can master!"

Sorry you're having such a rough time with this. You know, we are our toughest critic. I used to share some of your feelings, but with age I've gotten wiser. You only feel like people are staring. Who cares what you or me or anyone else eats in a restaurant or home, for that matter. Set yourself free, you're holding yourself in bondage. Walking out of it is a process, each time it will get easier.

One other note, my sons comment how it's such a drag when they take a date for a meal and she hardly eats a thing. Some men take it personally, like you're not enjoying the company. Granted this isn't a date date, but today is a great time to walk out of those inhabitions. Your boss will appreciate you for truly enjoying lunch.

Lissette, one step at a time...it takes practice but you can walk into a new sense of freedom. I'm proof.

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Thanks Terra! I should have mentioned that it's just me and my boss this time...so i feel he will be looking my way frequently...yikes!

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I needed that success story Kummus...thank you. It does feel a bit like a date, since it's just the two of us. Talking about it really helps me feel better already.

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I'd like to update on my lunch meeting. There was none at all...lol All that worrying for nothing! We ended up meeting and he had to go to court because had won a house at an auction that morning. All of a suddent it was just a frantic day and i didn't even get to EAT! Oh well(sigh)

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Started 3/20/03 thru 9/2003
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